I Will Love You Till Death Ch:1

" HE DOESNT FREAKING LOVE YOU ANYMORE IZZY!!!! WHAT DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND ABOUT THAT?!?!1

Derrick always had a point and was always right but I always had to argue with him anyway.2

" CUZ I LOVE HIM DERRICK AND I'M AFRAID TO LET GO"3

Derrick stopped screaming at me and started hugging me, trying to control my hysteric crying. He hummed to me softly and sweet little lullaby that he had written for me 2 years back.4

Before I go any further let's go back. My name is Isabella Lynn Matthews, Izzy for short. I'm 17 years old and live in Coldwater, Michigan. My father died when I was 4 and my mother was put into an insane asylum 2 years later for frequent hilusinations of my father. I now live with my 24 year old brother who did I mention is an Alcoholic. As you can see I dont live a fairytale life. I'm 5'1" with black hair and green eyes which are always rimmed in eyeliner. And before you even have the chance to ask i'm an emo kid. All in all my life is kind of horrible but Derrick makes it all better. Derrick Andrew Bradley has been my best friend since I was 6. He was only 7 at the time but even then I thought was adorable. Derrick is 5'4" with amazing blue eyes and long light brown hair.5

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My boyfriend had just broken up with me or atleast that's what I told Derrick.7

I finally stopped crying enough for Derrick to start talking again. 8

Derrick: " Look Izz, I know you loved the guy but he just didn'y love you back. I'm sorry Izzy I really am.9

Derrick didn't know the whole truth. I didn't tell him I couldn't tell him.10

I broke up with my boyfriend, he didn't break up with me , though he probably was going to shortly anyway. I told him I couldnt be with him anymore because I was in love with someone else. That someone has amazing blue eyes and long light brown hair. I was in pain though, my heart was breaking, I had a reason to cry that wasn't fake. But I think anyone would cry like I am if the love of their life was their friend and that's all he would ever be. I even knew it for a fact, his own best guy friend told me so. I just can't help it though, he's gorgeous. He's like an angel without wings put on this earth to taunt me. I wish he loved me, oh what I wouldnt give to have him love me, to be with him, to call him mine. But that's just a dream and mere dream and nothing more.11