Needing to Vent {Life and Hormones never mix} [Lots of shit, I'll never say out loud, this is just a bit] (Gotta love my freaking long titles)

How does life get so complicated? I told myself it was better that I didn't think of him this way, better that someone who had a shot went for it. At least he could get someone good. I really don't want to resent her.1

So why do I? She's one of the few people I'm most comfortable with, one of the few I have lots in common with. 2

Am I mad or jealous, or is this just a stupid teenage faze? No I really did like him, my first real like and it had to be my friend. I don't and won't be angry with her, its just a little envy. I can't blame her for being pretty.3

Or can I? She's petite and pretty, fun and flirty. The kind of girl guys go for, unlike me. Too tall for anyone but maybe him, so fat, to closed off, to guarded, to sarcastic. No joke. 4

They're still my friends...so I'll live with it, if they get together. It'll be just like always, no different. I'll make the jokes, point out when somethings dirty, I'll be the crazy/mean/sarcastic/funny one, who's just a friend. 5

He'll never know cause he'd never go for me anyway, no way he could think of me that way. He'll just be the ginger who got away.6

Holy fuck, way to rhyme. It was so not the time.

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Well, it would seem that I have cracked and officially become one of those girls who writes about the guy she'll never get. How sad I'd made it so long without it. Oh well had to happen eventually.

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  • always feel pretty
    September 26, 2009
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    Em, I think you should tell him. You're not fat, closed off or guarded. You just take a while to trust people. Talk to him. Let him know. If he doesn't like you back, he wasn't worth your time.

    Please, though, just tell him how you feel. He could feel the same way and this other girl could simply be someone he flirts with or has a tiny crush on.

    Take a risk.
    It could be worth it.


    Just sayin'.


    • BrokenDawn
      September 26, 2009

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      I'm not gunna lie and say that I would if I could but that's not true. Even if he wasn't such a good guy and a good friend, "she" is one of my closes friends and quite frankly I'd rather keep them both as friends than risk either one. Not to mention Kirsten really likes him and so does my friend Ashley, so its kinda complicated and their all my friends. Besides, its probably just a crush it'll pass


      • always feel pretty
        September 26, 2009
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        So it's more complicated than it should be. :\ Is he aware of their crushes on him?


        • BrokenDawn
          September 26, 2009
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          Lol I'm sure he knows Kirsten likes him (they macked at the dance and cuddled yesterday on the couch at my friend Emma's) but as for Ash and me he either doesn't have a clue or knows and isn't interested. But I care to much about Ash to do anything even if Kirsten hadn't moved on him. Its funny we both reacted the same way at the dance, so yeah its complicated.

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