Blame

Do you remember when we were young,
caught up in our youth,
having too much fun?1

I still remember your sense of humor,
and the smile you would wear.
I know you would come to find me,
when there was no one else there. 2

Your rustic gold hair,
would bounce up and down.
On the trampoline,
until eventually we both hit the ground.3

And years between us,
have pushed us apart.
I wish I could have been there,
to seal your broken heart.4

I wished I could have made you laugh,
the ways I used to,
I wished I could have saved you,
from the person you've changed into. 5

Your sinister smile,
your darkened eyes.
The pain you've felt,
makes me cry.6

Your hair is black,
your touch is cold.
I wish it could be out with the new,
in with the old.7

Because I miss your happiness,
that shine in your soul.
And the rage you show,
is that of someone's I wish not to know.8

I can feel the hate,
radiate off your pale skin.
You act like you don't care,
because your afraid to let them in.9

And maybe I'm wrong,
maybe your just okay.
But I can't let it go,
because I blame myself in a way.10

It feels like your dragging my heart,
pushing out an agonizing tear.
I want to scream all the words,
that you've been dying to hear.11

I'm afraid you'll be just like me,
making yourself into someone you never thought you'd be.
Slip into my arms, wake up your sleeping heart,
What I've let happened, is tearing me apart.12