Ivy: Save My Soul [Chapter thirteen: Carless - Part One]

“Ok, Ivy.” Mr. Kennles smiled, motioning me to my seat. I sat there, feeling weird in the empty classroom. “During which emotional spike dose your Fire usually show its face?”1

“When I am angry, really angry; it usually lashes out in uncontrollable bursts, hurting anyone in its path.” I fiddled with my fingers nervously; I hadn’t talked to anyone about this problem since Anthony had forced it out of me at the age of twelve. It was a hard subject for me to accept, because it has never happened to anyone else, like most of my life. 2

“Well, that is problematic. Let’s try a small flame then, just a tiny one.” He waved his hands, as if saying, go on. I sighed and slumped backing the chair, putting my folded hands over my forehead, trying to figure the best way to tell him, I couldn’t. “What’s wrong?”3

“I can’t use my fire.” I sighed and closed my eyes, I was shaking. I hated feeling weak about this, no one had ever been banned from using there elements before, not even just one. “It has fixated itself completely with my anger, it only comes out when I am angry, and it acts on my anger. There is no way I will ever be allowed to control it.”4

“That is very problematic.” I watched him sigh heavily and put his face in his hands. I wanted to die then, or maybe sink into the ground and find myself somewhere far away from here. And Decon. Add my crazed aunt to that list. 5

“Have you tried?” 6

“Uh…” I blinked. Had I?7

“Try for me, just this once.” He sat backing his chair, watching me intently. It sort of freaked me out.8

“Ok, maybe once.” I sighed and sat up. I had watched Holly do this many times before. I held out my hand, palm out, and closed my eyes tightly, concentrating on the heat, the smell, and the way fire looked. She told me it was all about finding your own inner flame. But, what if I didn’t have one. I felt my hand go colder instead of hotter and cursed. 9

I tried to imagine it embers licking at logs in a Christmas fire. Like the Christmas Anthony has accidentally set the kitchen on fire making cookies with my mom. I remembered his pink face with embarrassment as he handed me his burnt cookies. I had eaten them and told him they were the best cookies I had ever eaten. He had never believed me, but told me I was sweet anyways.10

“Open your eyes Ivy.” 11

I did as I was told and gasped. A small flame rested in the middle of my palm, it was small, but it was a flame. 12

“What were you thinking about?” 13

“Just the day Anthony set the kitchen on fire when he was baking cookies with my mom.” I giggled and watched as the fire grew a bit bigger, almost covering my whole palm. “How? I wasn’t angry, I was giggling.”14

“You found your inner flame, Ivy.” He sat up placing a hand on my shoulder. “I used to have the same problem as you. Sometimes an element will attach itself to an emotion. Sometimes, all it takes is finding your inner element,” He knelt down till we were eye to eye. “Everyone has an inner element, one for each, sometimes we have lost it. And finding it will give you the ability to regain your control. Just keep at practicing.”15

“What was yours?” I was still processing everything else he said.16

“Water; and it had attached itself to my sadness.” he chuckled and shook his head. “Every time I cried, it would pour down rain.”17

“That would be messy.” 18

“That it was.” He winked and stood up. “Now, it’s almost light out. You should get back.”19

“Thank you sir. For everything.” I smiled running towards the door.20

“Same time tomorrow. We will work on focussing that anger, and getting it out in healthy ways.”21

“Yelling at Anthony and breaking things isn’t healthy?” I smiled and ran out, he was shaking his head still as I made my way down the hall. Running right into Anthony. 22

“You ok?” He had caught me before I feel and pulled me into him. I giggled and nodded. “What’s got you on the giggle train?”23

“Did you just say giggle train?” I looked up at him with a stone face. He nodded blinking. I tried to hide my laughter, but the darn thing is harder to control then my fire. “I was thinking about the burnt Christmas cookies.”24

“That’s not fair, I was eight. Plus, you said they were the best cookies you ever tasted.” I watched his cheeks flush again. I smiled and shook my head.25

“I lied, because I’m a nice person.”26

“Nice people don’t lie, or at least admit they lied.” 27

“Stop being a smart ass.” I crossed my arms and pouted. He looked at me in the strangest way then shook his head and looked away. I blinked. He had been acting very weird lately.28

“You should be getting to bed though, you still look a little pale, and it is almost lights out.” He placed his hand gently on the back of my shoulder and guided me to the end of the hallway. I saw Coby quickly duck down the end of the hall and turned fast. 29

“I can go the rest of the way myself. Thank you though.” I smiled brightly and took off, leaving Anthony no time to speak. I could hear him sigh as I ducked around the same corner. I felt arms wraparound my waist and yank me into an empty room. I gasped and looked up at him. 30

“Naughty girl, lying to your Guardian, and sneaking off with mysterious men in dark places.” He wiggled his eyebrows and I shook my head, biting back laughter. “How are you feeling Doll?”31

“Fine; just had a really weird dream, even though everyone said I was awake.” I shrugged it off, seeing his look turn to worry. 32

I placed my lips on his, pressing myself against him. He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He chuckled and bit my bottom lip lightly. I smiled and pressed him against the wall. He looked down at him, his eyes sparkling and a bit dark. I smirked and ran my hands up his shirt, exploring his muscles. 33

“No, I don’t think so. Why do you ask?” a voice called. I choked on my words as I turned. Page was in a corner, Decon’s hand by her face. She was looking deeply into his eyes, a small frown on her face. He was smirking like jocks, who are really cocky and think they can get whoever they please. 34

“I just have a feeling Firefly.” He ran his finger down her cheek, just like a two timing guy would do. She shivered and smiled. “I have a feeling she is hiding something from us, you know. Something about our little project.”35

“My sister, na.” Page giggled as if this was ridicules. “My sister is such a fluff she wouldn’t know anything, her head is full of cotton.” 36

“I wouldn’t be so sure Firefly, let’s just keep an eye on her.” He smiled and leaned down to kiss her. Page turned her head, his lips only met her cheek.37

“What is with all this talk about my sister? Are you like, In love with her or something?”38

Decon stepped back his eyes going a bit dark. Trouble in paradise.39

“No Page, I am not in love with her. You are the only one I want. Maybe it is you that likes someone else. I see the way you eye your Guardian.” 40

“What? Oh my God, you have got to be kidding me.”41

“Sure, it’s out of the questions when it’s you. But of course I have to be cheating.”42

“Just go away Decon; I don’t think I want to see you anymore.” 43

I blinked shaking my head. They had disappeared as Decon moved towards Page, quite fast. They fought, badly. Maybe Decon was in love with my mother. No, that’s just nasty. My aunt was a nut job, they belonged together. I pushed away from Coby sighing and rubbing my temples, a small headache threatening to form. 44

“You saw another imprint?” Coby wrapped his arms around my waist, trying to comfort me. “You need to relax.”45

“I know I do, But everything’s just so weird.” I closed my eyes and leaned into him, ignoring a memory. I had, had enough with stupid worries, I just wanted to relax.46

“Let’s go clubbing.”47

I turned to look at him; he was smirking down at me. “What, When?”48

“Tomorrow night, Holly gets out in the morning. She can come too, your friends can.”49

“They will love this, thank you.”50

“As long as I don’t get beaten to a pulp, I am good.”51

I hit his shoulder lightly and kissed him. He chuckled and kissed back, picking me up, carrying me back to my room. He covered me up and kissed my forehead.52

“I have to go. I will be here tomorrow night, meet me in the forest, the clearing of course.” 53

And with that he was gone. I smiled and curled up to my pillow.54

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I sat up fast, compelled by a feeling, my legs moving of there own accord. I quickly slipped from the bed and ran from the room, not sure of where I was going. I slipped down a level and down a hallway, to Anthony’s room. I opened the door not caring to knock. Anthony jumped from his bed ready for a fight, clad in only green boxers. I stopped my face going red. He stood frozen as I stood in the doorway. Looking at him.56

“I-Ivy, what’s wrong?” He moved towards me, his flushed face full of worry. I just looked at him, my heart racing; something inside of me was yearning for acknowledgement. Anthony pulled me into a hug. I clung to him, my arms wrapped around his neck. I felt dizzy, like I was on something. 57

“What’s wrong with me?” I looked up at him, I was shaking. Something beneath my chest was moving, yearning to be released. He grabbed my shoulder gently, pushing me away just a bit, so he could look me in the eyes. 58

“Ivy, there is nothing wrong with you.” He looked at me worriedly. I looked down, biting my bottom lip. I pushed myself away from him; he looked at me in shock. What was I doing here?59

“I have to go, I…I can’t be here.” I turned and ran. Why was I acting like this, what was wrong with me, why was I going to Anthony. I was so confused. I slipped outside, letting the cold night air hit me like a knife. I let myself fall down to my knees, what was wrong with me? Why was I suddenly clinging to Anthony?60

“You ok? I saw you leave the room.” Holly knelt down beside me. I looked up at her.61

“You should be in bed.”62

“I was actually released; I didn’t want to wait till the morning. And I saw you enter Anthony’s room.” 63

“I’m fine, just…something Tamara said.”64

“What’s that?”65

“Just…Holly, Do you think Anthony likes me?”66

“Uh…” Holly blinked looking down at me. “You never knew?”67

“Uh.” I rubbed my head. “No.”68

“Girl, he has liked you ever since you were little.” she smiled and pulled me into a hug. “Remember that day you ran away…”69

The raindrops fell around me like glowing fairies. I wasn’t paying much attention to them, or my boots splashing in the puddles as I ran. My breathing was heavy, and this was a far distance for someone my age. Tears rolled down my rosy cheeks, my eyes blood shot. I had to keep running though; if I stopped they would find me. I didn’t want to be found. They were never going to find me, never.70

Finally my little legs cried for rest, so I sat huddled up behind a bush, letting my yellow rain coat get muddy. I started to cry again, why did they have to be so mean? We never did anything wrong, they even said so, but they were still taking him away. I didn’t want him to leave. He was the only one who could protect me, he promised he would. Now they were taking him away.71

“Ivy!” I could hear a voice call my name. 72

I huddled closer to the bush; I didn’t want them to find me. No, they couldn’t. 73

“Ivy, its Anthony.” I lifted my head; he was standing in front of me. I looked at him, more tears filling my eyes. He knelt down and I threw myself at him.74

“They can’t make you go! They can’t take you away from me.” I cried into his chest. He held me the whole time.75

“I’m not going anywhere Ivy, I promise. I will always protect you.” He smiled, patting my damp hair.
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“I was 8, they were going to make him leave, but he stayed.” 77

“That’s right, do you remember when you were 14, and you decided to be rebellious?” 78

I sat on the edge of the cliff, my legs dangling back and fourth as I looked out at the setting sun. I knew I should be getting home, I was expected before dark, but I really didn’t feel the need to, not on such a beautiful night as this. Besides, it was so dangerous, no “Decugasas to steal my soul”. If they really got worried all they had to do was get Anthony to use his inner blood hound and sniff me out. I chuckled and leaned back, folding my arms behind my head.79

They sky was painted pink and orange as the sun sunk below the horizon, bringing on the night. It had taken me two hours to get here, wasn’t about to leave yet. Not when the grass seemed to just scream my name. 80

“You know, you are going to give your parents worry.” That cool voice came from my left. 81

I closed my eyes sighing. “Anthony, can you ever just not find me? Can’t you try?” 82

“Ivy, you are one strange girl.” 83

“That’s why you love me.” I smirked.84

He just kept silent.85

“Well, I guess the jokes on me then.” I cursed and stood up, with Holly’s help.86

“Naw, Come on. Let’s get some sleep.”87

We walked into the room, it was quite and dark. I flipped on the light, the air in my lungs freezing at the sight before me. It was Coby, Decon Holly, and me, a second me. How was there a second me? Then I remembered what this was, it was when Decon attacked Holly and the rest of us, it was when Coby had stayed behind while we ran.88

“Get her out of here.” Coby hissed as he was thrown into a bed. I watches as I winced and took a step towards him, then looked at Holly. “I will be fine. Now go!” I watched as I grabbed Holly’s arm and slipped from the bedroom and out the door, not once looking back. I sucked in my breath, waiting to see the fight start.89

“She is far enough not to here now.” Decon walked to in front of Coby. “Now, I’ll have to knock you out to make it look real.”90

“Don’t hurt her though.” Coby bowed his head, ready for the blow.91

“I will take what I want and she will be yours. It’s the only way Coby. The only way you can truly be together.”92

“I know.” Coby smiled. “Once she’s like me, we’ll never be apart.”93