Hi there,1
i don't think i'm supposed to write you this letter but you don't know how it's been since you've been gone. Without your legacy they think they can be you. They think it's fine but we both know it's not. Your signature moves cannot be replayed by any other actor. Your passion came naturally.2
It's been strange since you left but most days i'm okay. I still think about you all the time and some days i need you more than you know.3
I've never told them your secrets and they still don't know why we're apart. I told them of differing opinions and how we both travelled so much. I told them anything they wanted to hear. I don't think they're ready to know how hard it's been, and i'm not even sure if i could convince them.4
I've tried to be strong without you.5
Somedays i think you should've stayed.
Yeah, you should've stayed to save me from this.
You told me you'd keep your promises.6
I wonder what she has to offer. She never seems to suit you, or the person that you are.
Although, i'm not sure if i'm ready to admit that i'd be a better fit.
You would love me more, we'd be happy and life would never be boring...7
But, that's not something i'm willing to admit to you, just yet.
I will wait until i can see the comet's tail.8
It wasn't so bad when you were around, but you shouldn't take that too personally. When you would tell me about the others, or tell me of a day where you were on top i'd always imagine that you loved me more.
Things were always easier when you yelled, because i knew there was still something to fight for.9
I wonder how you remember me.
Do i still look as great in that red dress or have you torn up all my photographs?10
And yes, i know it's tempting, but it's better this way.
I hear myself mumbling it through the tears when the hours are just a bit too long and hopefully i will soon know it to be true.11
I can't pull you out of where you are and i can't push myself back in.
That's always been the hardest thing; that i'll never see you again.12
I'll always hate the moment i didn't say goodbye.
For not knowing that you were worth an ending.13
You were my best friend and, if nothing else, remember that i hurt just as much as you.14
I'd love to see you need me again.
Author notes
they can't bring me to the funeral
of the man who never died
and though she grieved her losses
she had never cried
she would never dress in black
for the man she hadn't met
she lost all his letters and threw out his words
but the man wouldn't let her forget
Comments
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my, my, miss.
your words are so powerful, and the imagery is so vivid.
its a terrible angle of life that the things that we want are usually the best going without.
even just a goodbye.
this piece is amazing.
and every line in it is so full of feeling.
not even needing to rhyme or sound pretty, it just comes straight from you.
right from how you feel.
I love it. even the authors note is beautiful poetry.
you've got it even when you think you don't<3
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