Hey Stu,1
You used to be my best friend. You used to be the one I called on when I was feeling low and you would instantly make me feel better. You used to be my protector. And I have no idea where we went wrong. We used to be so close, late night phone calls telling each other everything from bad gf's to lifetime dreams. 2
I miss us. Not in the way that I used to a long time ago. Not in the instance of "us" as a relationship. But "us" as a close friendship. 3
I know I have went wrong and hurt you so many times, and I am deeply sorry for it all. If I could go back and change everything, I would change every time that I hurt you, so that we could go back to the way we were. But I know that will never happen. I know we will never be as strong as we were. 4
There are so many times that I made you cry, and I know it. But also remember that I was there to wipe your tears when someone else made you cry. Remember all the good times we used to have just being goofy and weird and having a good time? Remember all the good times with Amanda before she became the person she is now? Remember the juice fight we had at Ben's house, or us "studying the ocean" or when we used to just hang out pretty much all the time? Remember watching the fireworks, as just friends? And the way that I would come out to your house to bring you Mendoza tacos after our late night talk? Those were the good times we used to have. And our crazy talks over the net about ur psyco ex-gf and Les Mis. Those were some awesome times and they were fun, and all the while we were JUST friends.5
So, I don't understand why we can't be JUST friends now. I understand that some things would be weird, but we never talk at all anymore. If I saw you somewhere, you would pass me by without a word. And I hate it. I hate how we used to be so close, and now we are nothing at all. Not even casual aquaintances. It sucks that I lost my best friend over this.6
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This is to Stu...after all that's happened, I just want to be friends....
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Gosh...it's true. Life is cruel lately, to you and me both it seems. I know where you're coming from because I met the most amazing guy, and now we're over, and we don't talk. He hates me, and I feel like I lost my best friend, because I did. It sucks, and I totally sympathize. On a brighter note, how have you been? I've missed you! Excellent work on this. -Cate (formerly RileyCatherine)
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wow. i swear i sent a letter so similar its scary to my ex just an hour ago. I definetly feel where your coming from.
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This was very touching. I can't even imagine losing someone who is a close friend of mine. When I make friends I make them to keep. ^_^ So far this has worked but I can tell that some people I thought would be around forever are going to slip away and I can already see them fading. I would do almost anything to keep them here but I know there is nothing I could ever do. I will just have to watch them disappear and remember the good times, though it will hurt. Hopefully they will still recall how we use to be as well. A very heartfelt letter. Perhaps you should give this to your friend...?
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Wow I like this but it seems more of a letter to your friend. I've had this almost happen between me and my friend. Twice really. I fixed it the first time...somewhat. The second time she can still just go away. She thinks I hate her and I think she hates me...but I don't. Anyway I hope things get better for you. Maybe you should tell your friend this ^ that you wrote. Maybe he'll understand. Well it's worth a shot anyway. Keep on writing. SINcerly -Amanda*
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