Chapter 28 Achievements

Achievements.1

Achievements.2

I have been told to write a list of what I have achieved in my life.3

Well straight on top, is that I haven’t died by my knife.4

For my life has been hard and sometimes too much,5

But so far I have survived against evils touch.6

Mental Health.7

I have been told to write a list of what I have achieved in my life,8

And first on the list, is that I haven’t died by my knife.9

For my life has been hard and sometimes too much,10

But so far I have survived against evils touch.11

I have been depressed most of my time,12

But I have never grown too ill to give into his crime.13

I have always carried on, not always in good ways,14

But as I fight for my life, I am having so many good days.15

I have turned to alcohol to help me get through,16

All of the memories and nightmares of you.17

But I realised it was too much to have an addiction so cruel,18

So I got myself help for my distorted survival tool.19

I have been anorexic and bulimic just the same,20

And I have used my eating disorders as a way to avoid my pain.21

But I am now getting stable, which is a really hard fight,22

But one day soon my distorted behaviours will be put right.23

I have problems with anger, but now I’m letting myself cry.24

I am feeling emotions and understanding why.25

Why I feel this way, why I get so sad,26

And why getting angry, is for me terribly bad.27

I have self harmed for many of years,28

But I realised that my scars were actually symbols of tears.29

So now I sit and cry and sometimes allow myself to speak,30

So that I don’t have to scar the hidden secrets I keep.31

I get really stressed, but now I have tools to calm,32

For I realised I was getting ill and causing my body harm.33

So now I take some time out of my day,34

To relax and enjoy the happiness that comes my way.35

I never really cared about my shell,36

But now I treat it good and am trying to make it well.37

I make myself look good, which helps my self esteem,38

And because I feel good, I don’t have to be so mean.39

These are my mental health issues that I have changed in just two years,40

And it hasn’t been easy, but I have faced so many fears.41

And I have achieved these, I should be very proud,42

And now have some fun and happiness, for I think I am allowed.43