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Growing up I never felt like I belonged. I never felt welcomed by anyone. No one shared my intrest. I never had anyone who I could just talk to. I didn't have that shoulder to cry on. I thought all of that was just a foreshadowing about what my future was gonna turn out to be. My mind was set that I'd always feel this way and to my surprise I was mistaken. I started Sophomore expecting everything to be the same. My group of friends were cool. We shared some intrest but not intrest I was excited to talk about. Until Mid-September came around and I met this cool guy. Of course in my mind he was just another cool guy who I could hang with. The first day we hugged was a surprise to me. It wasn't just a hug I felt some sort of spark. Something inside of me that didn't wanna let go. In that second his hug seemed to be saying "It's okay im here for you". I didn't wanna let go. I had never felt so much emotion and connection through a hug. As we continued to chat on a regular basis I saw how much we had in common. From favorite bands to favorites food. Our regular chat til 10 p.m became interesting deep conversations until 3 a.m. The more we talked the more I began to open up to someone for the first time. I trusted him so much as he trusted me. But of course to every wonderful story there is a not so great distraction. He had liked this girl named Anna and they hanged a lot. Most people thought they were going out which infuriated me because of how I was starting to fall for him. I didn't butt in and that worked to my advantage. He later found out how she was and well things just ended that's where me and him started to become a we. Around Mid-October I had a distraction of my own. His name was Feta. It was always a constant switching around for me. It was too much for me to handle. I started to slowly break down. But that one guy my number 1 no matter what would understand my decision. Around December my likings for Feta had started to vanish. As I started to fall even more for my number 1. December became a great month for me. I was finally set with my decision. I was finally at peace and not driving myself crazy between my number 1 and feta. Me and my number 1 use to flirt with each other and whenever snow would fall and that cold chill would come it felt like an amazing fairytale to me. 1.5.09 our first day back from our winter vacation. Me and number 1 made it official. He was scared as was I. He pulled me aside and I sat up on a bench. He asked "Would you be my girlfriend?" and without thinking twice I said "Yes!" and we shared our first kiss. I had never been asked out in person and my heart was beating faster than it has ever beated in my life! Eventually we both felt like it was too soon. We needed to grow more as friends to then proceed as a couple. So we both decided to break it off. Around Feb we were talking and for a whole week he had tauntled me telling me he had something to tell me and that day soon came and he said "Im in love with you!" my heart drop and a smile was brought to my face. It wasn't long until I said those exact same words back. Five months later we were back on. It was June 12, 2009 and I was at an art exhibit. I was so proud that my work was up there but felt a void because I would of felt better if my number 1 was there to share the experience with me. In the middle of the ceremony I had the biggest urge to see him. I turned to my best friends ever Troy and Cherry and told them I NEEDED to see him. They both looked at me as if I were crazy and said "That's way too far and it's way too hot" but of course being the friends they are they took the journey with me. From the college to his house we walked. It seemed like the longest walk ever and it didn't help that the weather was at it hottest. But it was a risk I wanted to take. I couldn't go without seeing him. As I arrived to his building for the first time and went up the elevator walked to his door my heart started to pound louder and faster than ever. When I arrived to my surprise my other best friends Roxy and Steven were there. All 6 of us hung out. Me and my number one mostly just kissed. While laying on his bed I then turned to him and said "Do you wanna go out with me?" He must of been in shock because he was speechless. unfortunetly a few hours later it was time for me to go home so he walked us to the bus stop. As soon as I got home I ignored everyone and signed onto AIM. We chatted and he then asked me "Want to make it official?" and once again without thinking or giving it a second thought I said "Yes!" this time our love grew more than ever. And here we are going onto 3 months. It was a hell of a journey but it just showed how much we truely cared for each other. We both matured together, went through obstacles together and made sacrifices together. I hate the people who say "your too young to be in love" there's a time in life where everything feels like it's in the right place like you finally found the one. Someone you can tell your all to and I found that person.1

Till this day I have never found someone quite like him
He is my first&&last boyfriend.2

I shared laugh.cries.and joy w. him and theres still more to come3

I have never fell in love w. anyone4

He is my first&&last love.5

His name is Mikey Flores&&My heart completely belongs to him6

June 12, 2009 [(Our love was just meant to be)] I love you Mikey!