On the 9th-Epilogue

Russia was beautiful, and I discovered so many things there. Luka's family were very nice.  His sister was a sweetheart, and very much in love with her russian husband.  She still had her american accent, despite living in Russia for so long.  Luka, and I were given a room to share, surprise, surprise, I guess they figured, since we were out of high school, hey, why not?  My father hadn't wanted me to go at first, but figured, Alisa and I need the separation.  We were no longer hostile to each other, just very quiet.  She was single.  In two days when I get back home, our parents were going to get married.  I had to be prepared.  And also prepared to tell them that Luka proposed, and that accepted. The day before, he were sight seeing, and in the middle of it, we split up, and I ended up going into a lingerie shop with his sister, while he was with his russian male cousins.  I saw a short black silk spaghetti strap, silk teddy, it left little to the imagination, while the top pushed the breast up, nice and tight, the rest of it flowed out, frilly and flouncy around the waist, and while it resembled a short dress, it came up right around the small of the back, and according to Luka's sister, it came with a black thong. I bought it, and I knew, that, tonight was the night.  I was in love with him, and lusted after him desperately.  That night, the family went out for dinner, and Luka's sister winked at me, and said they wouldn't be back for a few hours.  I showered, and got ready, my long black curly hair hung low, with a clip holding the front of it up.  Luka was in the room, he had showered first, and when he saw me, his jaw dropped.  I tried to be sexy, but couldn't help giggling.  He came up to me, blue eyes gazing into mine, head tilted down, his hands cupped my face."Are you sure?"  I kissed him, with everything I had, and when at last I let him go, I still felt like we were connected by an electric current. "I want to spend the rest of my life with you, of course I'm sure."  Outside it began to ran, hard, and thunder.  The room suddenly looked so dark, the candles lit, casting a small golden glow around the room.  We kissed, and kissed, and kissed, and I felt his hands all over my body.  I felt all tingly, and I swayed in his arms.  He kissed away the spaghetti straps, and removed the teddy, soon the thong was gone, as he kissed me all over, and made me feel things I've never felt before.  Before he could go further, I reciprocated, and made love to his body, with my mouth, and he moaned and whispered, "I can't wait."  He made me lay down again,"I Love you."  He kissed me, and pushed into me at the same time, kept murmuring,"I love you, I love you." I couldn't respond, I could only feel.  Feel him take my virginity, such a sharp pain,I felt tears fall down my face, and then I began to move with him, and the pain was gone, and I was on fire.  And so we continued, and we couldn't stop, on, and on, and on, for the next two days, in the bedroom, in the bathroom, we couldn't keep our hands off each other.  Surprisingly the next day, he took me to a priest, who spoke English with a thick russian accent, and married us.  We were going to have a wedding in America, around Christmas. His family had a party for us after wards, and I got drunk, um, very drunk, and so I had a terrible headache going back to America but I was happy.  Happy enough to christian the airplane bathroom, don't ask how we managed, I don't even remember how.  "You two are shameful."  Luka's dad said, with a grin and a wink.  I got off the plane and my father was standing silent.  Lukas father and Luka disappeared.  "You know, when you told me you got married in Russia in that e-mail, I was hysterical, but I see you now, and, Andy-, your glowing."  He smiled and started to shed tears, and I hugged him, and I held onto him, and sighed with relief.  It was then that I realized that Alisa's mother was there, but she wasn't'.  She hugged me and congratulated me.  They had a surprise also, they had tied the knot, and they looked suspiciously happy to me.  Perhaps they were experiencing the same thing Luka and I were experiencing. EWwwwwww, dad! LOL, what a thought.  Lukas dad, and mines agreed to have a dinner in a few days.  Luka was going to his house for now, he said I needed to make peace with Alisa, and he'd be over later.  We got there, and I gave my brother a big hug, and asked him where she was.  "She's in the backyard Andy, on the swing."  I walked out, and she had her back to me.  The wind was blowing strong, I guess it would rain soon, here too. "Alisa-Its okay Andy-she turned around and stood up facing me, she came around the swing and stood half an inch away from me-"I know you love him, and I know I don't deserve you.  That's why I did, what I did with Katherine, but for gods sake, I never meant to, I was drunk, and I'm sorry.  I know I ruined something special between us, and I lost the one chance we had together- I- she began to cry, and I gazed at her, tears in my own eyes, god, she was beautiful, and I knew then, I'd never stop loving her, shed always be a part of me-I knew sooner or later, I'd have to let you go, because you loved him more-Alisa-I" She shook her head'"No Andrea, its true I mean you are glowing Andrea, you are glowing, and while he might be the love of your life, know that you are mines."  I touched her then, I touched her face, and the tears slipped down my face, my wedding ring glinted off the last bit of sunlight that was fading behind a gray cloud.  She noticed it, and began to back away but I stopped her.  "Know this, you'll be the only women I will ever love."  I kissed her, kissed her for the last time, tasted her cherry lips, and I felt my arms slip around her waist, her breast, pressed against mine, her heart beating in rhythm with mine.  I pulled away, and before I left I told her what my heart already knew.  "If its possible to have two soulmates, you are one of them."  I smiled and so did she, and then I turned away, and walked into the house.  My father had saw everything, and hugged me, in my room while I cried.  He stroked my hair.  "You did right sweetheart, you did right."  For a few years I lived in Utah with Luka, we both got our degrees, and when we graduated, we moved back home.  Alisa was never the same.  She was off and on in relationships with men and women.  Finally from what I heard, she gave up on women all together.  She had met a man, and she seemed happy, but not whole.  Alisa's mother told me, she'd never be.  Sometimes I felt like she resented me because of that, and other times, I thought it was just nonsense.  Then I found out that I was pregnant, 4 months and I never had a clue.  Luka and I bought a house.  Things seemed okay.  And I had never been so in love with him, and he with me.  Then it happened, one night I got a phone call, and fainted dead away.  Alisa was in a bad car accident, and didn't have much time. We all rushed to the hospital where she was at.  I was now seven months pregnant.   When I got the the room, I felt horrible cramps.  Alisa's mom walked out the room crying, and nodded at me.  She had just found out she was pregnant too.  I went into the room and  looking at Alisa, my stomach pains got worse.  She beckoned me over.  "I was waiting for you. I wanted to say goodbye."  I began to cry, and with effort she cupped my cheek. "Hush, I haven't been  whole, and now maybe I will be.  I love you, and I always will."  "Alisa, please, don't speak like that. I-" wait," she said, she closed her purple lidded eyes," don't forget me, I love you and I'll always watch over you. Kiss me, please, kiss me-" I kissed her and she sighed and kissed me, and then suddenly she stopped, and I don't know what happened next but I knew she was dead.  I heard the long beep of the heart monitor, and I fell to the floor clutching my belly with a loud scream.  Everyone rushed in, and I was put into another room, changed, and struggling not to lose my child, it was too early, too early.  I clenched Luka's hand my face red with effort. No dear god, no, Alisa.....the room suddenly got cold, and I felt a shiver over my stomach.  Suddenly I passed out.  And when I woke, all was okay.  But I was put to bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy.  And when my daughter was born, I knew I had her, thanks to Alisa.  And so I named her for Alisa.  Later on my step mother had a boy.  And she never seem resentful towards me.  My father told me, that Alisa had told her not to resent me.  I looked at a video of Alisa and I when we were together, ten years ago.  And I cried, I looked out the window, and it was a brisk cold autumn day.  And I felt her there with me.  She said she'd watch over me, and I knew, that she was watching now, and always would be.1