Untouched Part 31

I looked at Travis with my eyes wide from the shock. It took my brain a few minute to realize what he had said. I slowly brought myself back. I looked at his face as he scanned mine for emotion.1

“What you mean she’s dead?” I asked looking at him with my eyes still big2

“Well uhm—you see…” but he stopped talking3

He dropped his head so that our eyes wouldn’t meet. I put my hand under his chin and tried to pull it up but it was no use, he just pulled away4

“Travis please tell me what’s going on” I pleaded5

He let out a deep sigh and looked up at me6

“Jay killed her”7

My body froze. I wasn’t sure that I had heard right, no, I had. I looked at him and I could feel pain shoot through my body. My mind raced with questions. Every part of my body went num, I lost total control.8

I tried to gather my thoughts but it was no use, my mind was working against me. I tried to forget the images and voices inside my head but they grew and grew till I couldn’t anymore. 9

I felt a hand touch my face but I didn’t snap out of my mind, it was consuming me with my thoughts.10

That’s couldn’t been me? He could have killed me? He could have taken my life? He could have taken everything away from me, again.11

Pictures of Jay flashed across my mind, that of him killing me and that of the first time I saw him. He was supposed to be my all, but now he was nothing more than a memory to me, he was my fantasy that turned into a horror. He was supposed to be my other half.12

This wasn’t the jay I knew, this was someone else, someone that was much more than I thought.13

I felt a light shake. I was drawing out of my thoughts but the images didn’t leave until Travis spoke14

“Aly? Are you ok?”15

I snapped my head towards his direction. I let out a heavy sigh and looked at him16

“How do you know?” I asked17

He looked at me concerned and then his face went hard18

“The police came here the day Jay was here, they have been looking for him for three years now”19

I could tell that my eyes were going big again; Travis looked at me and sighed20

“he took Jessica out and they never came back. Her parents reported her missing and Jay was no where to be seen, after a month they found Jessica’s body by a river. They still couldn’t find Jay. Im sorry Aly, I didn’t want you to know that” he dropped his head21

I looked at him still in shock22

“He came here to kill me, didn’t he?” I asked looking at Travis23

He face shot up and he looked into my eyes with sorrow and hurt24

“He’s never going to touch you Aly, he’s never going to place a hand on you for the rest of your life”25

I looked at him and placed my hand on his cheek. I looked into his eyes and smiled a little. He let out a faint smile but it didn’t reach his eyes, I could tell he felt guilty for what had happened26

“It’s not our fault” I said rubbing my finger along his jaw line27

“Yes it is, I should never have let you come home alone, I should have been here. He could have killed you--”28

“But he didn’t” I said looking at him29

“But I should have—“30

“You didn’t know, no one did. Im fine and so are you and that all that matters”31

I moved forward so that I could place my head on his shoulder. I tilted my head so that my lips touched his neck. I pressed them softly into his neck. His neck was warm and it felt good against my lips. I pulled back and tilted my head so that I could see his face. He was looking down at me now. I smiled a sheepish smile and winked at him. He chuckled at me and kissed the top of my forehead32

“I love you Aly” he smiled at me33

“I love you too”34

I stretched my neck up to kiss him. I placed my lips against his. His soft lips fell on mine, they moved to the shape of mine and they stayed there. I put my hand in his hair and pulled him closer. I kissed him deeper. I ran my finger around his hair. I placed my other hand on his face and lay in his arms while he kissed me.35

I never wanted anything so much than for him to kiss me.36

He pulled away slightly and looked at me. I pouted; I was not done with the kiss. He laughed slightly and kissed me. As I tried to in tangle my fingers in his hair he pulled away. I pouted again and he laughed37

“You really are the most amazing thing ever” he smiled38

I could feel my cheeks go red. I tried to hide away in his chest but it was no use he had seen my face flush before I could hide it. He laughed again and pulled me closer to hold me tighter39

When I thought it was safe I pulled my head back and looked at him. He had both eyes locked on me. I flushed again but not as bad. I wanted to slap him, but I couldn’t.40

My mood changes as I remember one very important thing41

“Travis?”42

“Yeah?”43

“What happened to jay?”44

There is a short silence. I look up at him but he looking away45

“The police took him away, I don’t know”46

I place my hand on his chin and pull his face around47

“Its ok, im safe now” I said encouraging48

“And you’re always going to be because im never going to leave you”49

I smile at him the biggest smile I could50

“I LOVE YOU” I scream at him smiling51

He looks at me with a big smile that now reaches his eyes52

“I LOVE YOU TOO” he screams back at me53

We both start to laugh. I kiss him and carrying on laughing. I pull back and see the smile I wanted all this time. I lean into him again and kiss him. His soft lips like morphine. I kiss deeper getting my fix, Travis is my drug. Our lips separate and our tongues dance together just like all the other times. My whole body mind and soul are lost in his perfect kiss, I lost myself in Travis…54

[2months later]55

“What you doing?” I ask as I walk into Travis’s room56

“Filling out application forms for collage” he says still looking at the papers57

“Oh—“ 58

I hadn’t thought about collage. I didn’t have an idea of what I was going to do.59

”Where all have you got?” I asked sitting down next to him60

“Just all different places you know”61

“Oh that’s cool”62

“Yeah—where are you going to apply?”63

“Oh uhm—I haven’t thought about that really” 64

“Oh, well that’s ok I guess”65

I pout a little at his response and don’t say anything66

He looks up and sees my face. He smiles and shakes his head.67

”I was just saying that I think you should apply”68

“Hmm” I mumble69

“Im being serious”70

I look away from him and at the papers. There all filled out. I look back up at him71

“So I guess you’ll be staying on campus then?” I ask looking down72

“Yeah I guess, but ill come home on weekends if I can and for holidays” he smiles faintly realizing what I was getting at73

“Im going to miss you” I mumble74

He chuckles lightly and puts his arms around me and pulls me onto his lap75

“Ill miss you more” he whispers into my ear76

I try and smile but I know I can’t77

“it’s going to be boring around here without you” I say78

”you will have Courtney and the guys love”79

“Eeh...I guess, but im going to miss you” I pout again at the thought of him leaving80

He laughs and holds me tighter81

“It’s going to be fine” he says and kisses me on my head82

In the next couple of weeks Travis waited for a reply form the collages he wanted to get into. I was happy when they didn’t come. 83

After two weeks a letter came from a collage he wanted to get into. He was ecstatic that he had gotten in, me on the other hand, I was horrified. I couldn’t stand to be away from him for more than a minute, how was I going to last 6months or a year. I smiled in front of him, but cried into my pillow every night.84

The days till Travis left seemed to go so fast. I felt like every day more and more of me broke away and I was loosing the only thing holding me together. 85

When the day finally came I put on my best act that I could, but I couldn’t stop the tears. I hugged him tightly and kissed him for what felt like the final time. I didn’t want to let him go86

“Im going to miss you so much” I chocked through tears87

“Ill miss you too” I saw a tear slide down his face88

I hugged hi m one last time and kissed him one last time too.89

He stepped around to get into his car. He looked out the window at me and mouthed I will love you always. Tears ran down my face as I mouthed I will love you always too. 90

I stood dead in front of the house as I saw him drive away. Even when he was out of site I stood staring, hoping that he would come back. I couldn’t be with out him.91

Once I realized he wasn’t come back I turned away and walked towards the park. When I got there I sat on the set of swings and looked down at the dirt. My life seemed to be going great and now it was nothing.92

I hated this feeling; I hated this feeling of emptiness. I wanted it to end.93

I got up form the swings and walked towards the house. I went through the front gate and through the door. I walked up the stairs and walked to Travis’s bedroom door. I placed my hand on the door handle and took a deep breath. I pushed the door open and looked inside. It was empty, everything was gone. The only thing that was left for me to remember him by was the smell, the smell of the boy I loved with my entire heart. I heard small footsteps behind me and turned around. Sky was in the doorway looking at me94

“Hey boy” I said bending down to him95

He whimpered at me with eyes that seemed to be sorry96

“You miss him too, don’t you?” I said looking at him97

I stood back up and walked towards his bed. I laid down on it and smelt it. Travis filled my mind as I smelt him. 98

Sky jumped up onto the bed and I held him.99

i pulled him closer as I started to cry. He didn’t move he stayed with me as my tears slowly took over. I cried myself to sleep.100

I spoke to Travis every minute that I could. It made things worse for me because when we stopped talking I would cry and cry. I ran my bodies energy out into crying. I wasn’t the same without him, I was a mess. I didn’t want to do anything and I was miserable.101

The day I found out that Travis was coming home for the holidays I was ecstatic. I wouldn’t stop smiling and I couldn’t help but count down the days till he came. I was going to see the love of my life.102

The days flew by faster than I thought they would and my whole world seemed to be getting better.103

The day that Travis was due to come home had finally arrived. I got up extra early to get ready. I showered and washed my hair with the strawberry shampoo that he loved. I wore the pink skinnies that he loved on me and the black Alesana tank top that he loved. I did my make-up perfectly than every before. I wanted to be perfect for Travis104

It had taken me the entire day but I was finally done. My phone rang and I answered105

“Hello?”106

“Hey Aly”107

“Travis!” I almost screamed108

I heard him laugh109

“Ill be home soon” he said110

“I can’t wait to see you”111

“Me too” 112

I laughed lightly and smiled113

“I got to go im driving but ill see you in 10minutes ok?”114

“Ok”115

“Bye Aly”116

“Bye—I love you” but the phone went dead117

I looked at my phone and frowned. I threw it onto the bed cleaned my room as fast as I could shoving things into my cupboard. When I was done I walked out my room and into the hall way. I heard the down stairs door open 118

“Im home” I heard someone shout119

“TRAVIS!” I screamed120

I ran down the stairs as fast as I could, I didn’t care if I fell I need to be in his arms. I didn’t look at him I just threw my self at him and hugged him. He caught me and lifted me up.121

“TRAVIS!” I screamed again122

He laughed loudly and he held me tighter123

“I missed you” I said and I hugged him tighter around his neck124

“I missed you too Aly”125

I squeezed him tighter not wanting to let go. He laughed again126

“Aly, you’re going to kill me”127

I chuckled and released a little. He put me down slowly on the ground and I looked at him. My eyes went wide with shock and I stood dead still. I couldn’t believe it, this wasn’t my Travis. It was Travis, but not the one I knew and loved. His hair was a dark brown not, not jet black. It was short and didn’t hang into his eyes, his colour in his hair was also gone. I looked down at his lips, no snake bites. I looked down at his wrists, there were old scars, that of about 2years, no new ones. I scanned this person I saw in front of me. This wasn’t the Travis I loved.128

“What happened to you?” I asked shocked129

“What you mean?” he asked looking at me confused130

“You’re hair, you snake bites, you’re—“I looked down at his wrist not wanting to say it out loud131

“Oh—uhm that” he looked down “Well uhm—I don’t know? I changed a little I guess, but that’s not the point. I want to show you something” he lifted his head and smiled132

I smiled faintly but I knew it didn’t mean anything. 133

I followed him helplessly, I didn’t know what was coming my way but I dint think it would be worse than what had just happened. I had lost my perfect love134

As we got out the door and lifted my head, there stood a tall girl. She was the same height as Travis. She had long mouse brown hair that was half way down her back. She had hazel eyes but they where dark. Her skin was perfect and it had a golden glow to it. I stared at her as Travis walked to her side135

“Aly this is Sacha” he said motioning to her “She well uhm—my fianc&#;136

My heart shattered into a million pieces….137

To be continued…138