Don't Say Goodbye (an Atreyu and A7X fan fic) #2

“Why are you being so rude to me now?” Zacky asked. “Because, you hurt me! So, just leave me alone!” I yelled. “Zacky, leave her alone… she don’t need your crap right now!” Alex defended me. Yeah, Alex decided to go home with me tonight. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a pop tart out of the closet and ate it. “Damn, for someone so small, you sure do eat a lot… ha.” Alex joked. “What can I say? I eat when I get stressed, hungry, upset… happy… depressed… ha-ha. Hey, while I’m up, do you want a drink?” “Yeah, sure… milk please.” “Ok… and a Sierra Mist for myself! Ha.” “You love that stuff too much!” “So? And your point is?” “I can’t tell you that one! But…” he pointed down at his crotch. My gosh, these guys can be so horny! “Actually, your ‘other’ point… besides junior… is at the end of your nose… as is mine! ha-ha.” I said as I gave him his glass of milk. “Thanks, babe! You’re the greatest!” “No problem! So, how are things with you and Amy?” “Eh… I don’t really want to talk about her right now… let’s talk about you…” “No, I want to know what’s going on between you two… are you two fighting again?” “Yes… the girl won’t stay off my case about why I’m always out… she thinks I’m cheating on her! I’m not… and you know I’m not… you know me better than that!” “Yes, I do… if she thinks all that stuff, and you two are constantly at each other’s throats, dump her ass, I say! She isn’t worth it if she’s going to accuse you of cheating… knowing damn well that you don’t ever cheat on a girl! No matter what! Like, it took you a week before you actually would even talk to me… so she should know by now you are too shy for one thing… and you are better than that! She should know!” “Yeah, you do have a point… ha thanks.” “So, other than that, how are things going with you, just in general?” “Well… I’m like kind of thinking about dumping Amy… and also, there’s a girl that I like… but I don’t think she likes me the same way…” “Well, who is this other girl that you like?” “I’ll give you a hint… I’m talking to her…” “Wait, what? ME? Oh… um… I don’t want to be a rebound chick… and I don’t want you to be a rebound for me… you know what I mean?” “Oh… yeah, I can really understand… I mean, you know, it’s not like I’m going to ask you out directly after I break up with Amy… and it’s not like I’m going to do it like tomorrow… you know that.” “I know… I’m just… I don’t know…” Alex gave me a weird look. “You still have feelings for Zack, don’t you?” “Yes, of course I do… we dated for 2 years… now we’re broken up because he cheated on me. I just wish that he hadn’t… then we’d still be together…” I sighed. “So, you do still have feelings for me.” I heard Zack say. Oh my gosh, when does he ever take a break?! “Yes, so I still have some feelings for you… I’m still mad at you for cheating on me! I know you did more than make out with Ashley… not Brandon’s Ashley… some other girl I used to be friends with… I don’t know what I really feel right now so just leave me alone Zack! You’re beginning to bug me… and you know how I get when people bug me, don’t do it!” I growled. “Sorry… I’ll leave you alone now…” he laughed nervously. “Thank you!” I said. “Hey, do you want to listen to music?” Alex asked. “Yeah, sure… what do we have?” I said. “Well… you have Linkin Park… and you have all of Atreyu’s CD’s… ha. And of course, Motley Crue.” “I’m in the mood for some Linkin Park…” I said as I grabbed Hybrid Theory and put it in the CD player. “Oh, let’s sing along…” Alex suggested. “Ok, we can do like a karaoke thing right now.” I said. “Oh yeah, let’s do that! I can do the second one, you can do the first one…” Alex laughed. “Ok, sounds good to me!” I’m surprised he is wanting to do this! ha-ha. “It’s like I’m paranoid looking over my back! It’s like a whirlwind inside of my head! It’s like I can’t stop what I’m feeling within it’s like a face inside is right beneath my skin!” when I got finished with that song, I heard Zacky singing “I’m Sorry” by Flyleaf. “Ok, stop being so corny, I accept your apology… but It’s going to take me a while to really forgive you… ok?” “Ok, I’m really sorry, though.” “I know you are…” I laughed. “You really can’t stay mad at ANYONE can you?” Alex laughed. “No, you know I can’t! you have known me for how long?” “Like 5 years?” “No, longer than that… about 6 years…” I know, it’s a long time… but, I love putting up with the guy! He’s like my BEST friend! Besides my brother! Ha. “Hey, Chris, what are you doing tomorrow?” Alex asked. “Honestly, I have no idea. I know one thing, I’m going to be staying away from Zack… even if I have accepted his apology, I still haven’t fully forgiven him.” “Yeah, that’s understandable… especially since he was doing all that for like a while…” “Yeah, three months! He thinks that I’m going to automatically forgive him and go back out with him… even when I do forgive him, I won’t go back out with him… he’s just not worth it. He still has to watch his back with Syn… ha. Actually, more like his front side!!!” I said then started laughing so hard I fell out of my seat. “Ouch! That hurt!” I said between breaths. “You alright?” Alex asked. “Yes I’m ok… well, not really, but we can pretend I am… right?” I started laughing again. “My gosh, you got the giggles!” Syn laughed when he walked into the room and saw me rolling on the floor laughing. “You took rolling on the floor laughing seriously… ha.” he joked. “I can’t help it! It was funny, Alex! Stop looking at me like that! Gah!” “I can’t help it! You’re just so cute when you laugh!!!” he said. “Hah, thanks.” I said. Yeah, I like Alex… and he likes me… and I still love Zack at the same time… oh my gosh, what am I going to do about this?! This is going to be tough for me: Should I give Zack a second chance? Or say forget him and go for Alex? What is going to happen when he dumps HIS girlfriend!!!!1

Alex POV2

I drove home to get some clothes and go back to stay with Ash. While I was there, I decided to do what I knew I had to do. That is: Dump Amy!!!! “Hey, Alex. What were you doing out there for so long? Hanging with your groupies?” She asked when I walked through the door. “No I don’t have any groupies! I don’t do that kind of shit. You know, I’m really not in the mood for your shit right now…” “Oh, come on, don’t fucking lie to me!” “You know what? We’re over, Amy! You always accuse me of cheating on you… I go to the fucking store and get something to eat and you’re all ‘were you hanging with your fucking hookers?!’ It’s old, Amy! And very annoying and a bunch of bull shit!” “Well, I say we’re NOT over… we will be over when I say we are…” “No, I’m not doing this shit again! I’m leaving you! I’m sick of us always fighting. I can understand every now and again, but every fucking time I SAY something. I can just say ‘hey baby!’ and you get all pissy and start going off on me! No, I’m not dealing with your shit anymore! I’m sorry, but we are through! GOOD BYE!” I said, grabbed my stuff, and stalked out of the house. I drove back to Christina’s house… more like I SPED! Man, that woman just pisses me off! “So, how did it go?” Chris asked. “It could have gone better. I told her we’re done. She’s all ‘we’re not done until I say we are!’” I said mimicking her. “Wow. What a bitch!” “Yeah, first thing she said to me was ‘where were you, with your groupies?’ it’s like damn… no I wasn’t! I don’t do that shit! And she KNOWS I don’t!” I said hitting the wall. “Ok, Alex… calm down, dude… there’s no need to get so pissed of about it… she’s just a bitch who needs an attitude check! A reality check… whatever…” she said giving me a hug. We sat there talking when Amy called my cell phone. I didn’t answer and she left a voice message. Five minutes later, she called again… and again… and again… and “WHAT DO YOU WANT?!” I screamed into the phone. “Come on, baby! I’m so…” “Sorry my fucking ass bitch! You are so not sorry! Just leave me the fuck alone!!” I screamed and hung up. Five seconds later she called back.3

Christina’s POV 4

The phone rang one more time. “Look, Amy… Alex OBVIOUSLY does NOT want to talk to you… so my advice to you is this: LEAVE HIM THE FUCK ALONE BEFORE HE GETS A RESTRAINING ORDER ON YOU! Damn, you’re getting on MY nerves!” “Who the fuck are you? Are you his other girlfriend??” “Hell no! I just had a rough ass break up with my own boyfriend! I’m not a rebound and he’s not one either.” “Oh, are you sure you’re not a hooker?” “If you want the proof, come down here to Syn’s place… I’m his sister, bitch… and I’m Alex’s best friend!” “Oh, Christina… you…” she said in a snooty voice. Ugh, I hate this bitch! I never liked her anyhow! “Yes, good girl! You’re so smart! Would you like a cookie?!” I teased her. “Okay, stop being a smart ass now. Put Alex on the phone. He’s NOT dumping me!” “Yes he is… and he does deserve better than you! You’ve done nothing to him but accuse him of cheating… which I will tell you this: he’s too damn shy to do that! Hah.” “come on, please?” “No.” I said and hung up then turned Alex’s phone off. “Man, I’m so glad to have done that!” he said and put his head on my shoulder. I smiled and put my arm around his neck and sighed. “So, what do you think we should do?” he asked. “I don’t know… whatever, I guess.” I shrugged. “What all did she say to you?” “She didn’t believe that you were breaking up with her at all. She was begging me to tell her you weren’t… but you know how I am… I hate someone, I’m going to be up front and blunt about things with them… therefore.” I started to laugh at the thought of her on the floor begging him not to leave her. “You think it’s funny!” he smiled. Yes, indeed I do. I stopped laughing after a few minutes. “I’m sorry, I had to laugh… Just thinking of her on the floor BEGGING you to stay… it’s just funny.” He laughed “yep, that is a pretty funny thought. Hah” We sat and talked to each other for hours. I had fallen asleep when my phone rang. It was Zacky… lord! The guy don’t give up easily! “hello?” “hey, it’s me… I just wanted to talk to you for a moment.” “What about?” I Yawned. He was quiet for a moment then he answered me. “I want to talk about what I did…” “Okay?” “well, I am really sorry for doing what I did… I shouldn’t have done it… I was wrong. I want to know, do you still love me?” I sighed. “Of course I do… but I can’t trust you, Zacky. Not after what you did to me. That was the lowest thing you have ever done to anybody.” “I know, and I am truly sorry… If you were to take me back, I promise to never do it again.” “No, Zacky… I can’t go back down that road again… I’m sorry honey… I just can’t do it.” I said holding back tears. Alex then woke up and saw that I was starting to cry. “What is it?” he mouthed. “Zacky…” I mouthed back. “I just can’t do it, Zacky… I’m sorry.” I said. “Okay, I understand… Hope you have a nice life with Alex.” he said. “What the fuck! This has NOTHING to do with Alex… or Brandon, or Dan, or Matt, Or Dave… who ever else… it’s got to do with me and you… If you are going to start doing shit like that, I don’t want anything to do with you… good bye.” I said and hung up the phone. Damn, that was a low blow! “Everything okay?” Alex asked me looking concerned. “Yeah. Just peachy.” I said. “If it makes any difference, I’d never do something like that… Zacky’s just an asshole. Ignore him!” he commented. That was very true. He is a complete asshole… but I still love him… I just can’t go back down that road and get hurt again. “I know you wouldn’t do that… You are so much better than that!” I sighed and started to rub my wrist. "hey, don't even think about doing anything stupid!" he said, pulling me into a hug. "I don't want to see you hurting, and I definately don't want you hurting yourself!" he went on. "I know, Alex... but it's just so hard!" I started to break down. "I mean, with my parents split up, neither one of them having anything to do with me or Syn... then with this shit, it's just so hard!" I was really starting to cry now. I remembered what one of my friends used to do: pop rubber bands on her wrists. "Hey, do you have a rubberband?" I asked. "Why?" "well, one of my friends used to cut, and she would pop rubber bands on her wrist to keep from doing it... I thought I'd give it a try..." "I believe I have one around here somewhere..." he said, starting to go through a few things. "I'll let you get up and look... I'll be fine long enough for you to do that." I said. "Okay, if you're sure." he said, looking weary. He walked into his room and started looking around. I could hear him throwing random things around trying to find one for me. "Here you go!" he came back with a faint smile on his face. "Thanks!" I said, sliding the rubberband on my wrist. Immediately I started popping it. "I'm glad you're doing something else other than cutting..." he said and gave me a big hug. "Yeah, me too"