Hell where people healed

Once, I had a dream to become a doctor. Really. I saw that become a doctor was really righteous, just like an angle. I like the hospital, look nice to me. I once had a dream -the silly one- to at least have a night at the hospital as the patient. I saw at the movie that they looked better after got out from the hospital. So, I took the conclusion that hospital could turn people into the better one.1

It was the day when everything change......I was reading my book while my mom called me for the breakfast. I put my book and ran down stair. I though this would just my normal day; breakfast, morning movies and playing with my pals. But, I felt like someone cutting my stomach; it's poignant and hurt. 2

"What happen, Cassie? Are you okay?"3

"Er...yeah, I think." I said, tried to give a smile. But my mother knew there was something wrong with me. She walked toward me and put her hand on my forehead. 4

She shook her head. "You sick. Let's go to see the doctor."5

"We're going to see the doctor?" I said happily. I was 13 years old but seeing a doctor sounded like a playground for me.6

"Yeah." My mom said and I gave her a big grin.7

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"I think you should check your daughter to laboratory. I'm afraid that she got an appendix." My doctor said and slumped in my chair....shocked....9

**10

I never though how bad this gonna be. I waited for the nurse to take me from my room and she came with the wheelchair. 11

"I don't need that." I said as I stared at the wheelchair with disgust.12

"Oh, it's okay Carrie. C'mon, sit here." So I just sat at that stupid wheelchair while the nurse push it to the surgery room. She asked me to take off all my shirt and gave me a green hospital cloth. I laid on a hard bed and waited for the nurse to make me unconscious. I was trembled, I didn't know if it was because I was afraid or the cold that covered the room. I tried to calm down by stared out the window from my bed and watched the city. But these wasn't work well on me; Still I could hear my theet chattered. Then two nurses came to gave me an infusion. I felt the relief took control on me while she pricked the needle to my hand. She smiled to me and I gave her another smile even though it was hard to smile while my lips trembled. I waited for the drugs to make me uncoscious but it never come and the nurse started to drag my bed to the surgery room. I tried to feel the sleepy effect from the drugs but it never come until the surgery lamp shone on me.13

"Hello, Carrie? How do you feel?" Asked the doctor.14

"Good." I lied. I was wondering why I hasn't fainted yet. Another doctor came with a big injection on his hand and he asked me to sit down.15

"Ok,now you sit and hug this pillow." I hugged the pillow tightly while my mind asked what the hell is happen here. Then I felt something really sharp touched my backbone and I flinched.16

"Relax, Carrie. Just one shoot and it'll okay." And I just realized that he just injected me in my back bone with a really big needle. Then I laid, shocked after the injection. I suddenly couldn't feel my foot, then my legs and I felt another relief. 'Here they come, I'll sleep and when I wake up everything will be fine.' But once again it never happen. All the doctors was prepared and I still wake up! Trembled....cold....freezed....I wanted to cry...I wanted to die in that moment when only a fabric prevented me from seeing the doctor work. There was a hole in my stomach and I could feel it! For god sake that scared the hell out of me!17

The worst part was when it was finished. I waited, covered by a thick fabric and it was cold. But, it was warm with the blanket until someone passed and my foot got exposed. God! I was still under the Anastesy and I can't move even my toe! It just.....suck! I wanted it so bad! Covering my freezing foot but I couldn't move! The nurse came to take me but didn't fix the blanket. I cried...really, I wished death come to take me that time.18

And now, I don't want anywhere around hospital. Not even for a second! I hate doctor, hospital and everything about it. No green, no doctor,no hospital means no nightmare.