Bane

Panic gripped me so fast I could hardly think. My blood pulsed hot and thick in my veins. My heart pounded loudly in my chest. I started to get lightheaded and I soon realized that I wasn’t breathing normally anymore. I inhaled faster and longer with every breath. My senses grew shaper, but I still wasn’t thinking clearly. My mind was in a fog and I could no longer keep the thoughts from overwhelming me.1

I sniffed and cringed. The scent of blood drove me crazy, but there was another presence and it didn’t feel right. Something or someone was out there and for some reason the anger in side of me grew, a sense of—danger and the feeling that I could stop it. No I couldn’t.2

I didn’t want to be this way. No matter what I did I would always be treated like the monster I am. I’m a werewolf and I will always be. I have a really bad temper and some days I can’t control it and one day it had cost me my beloved and I will never forgive myself.3

I was once called Rick Randera a high school student. I wasn’t top of my class or even the bottom. I was just an average student who did what he was told. I wasn’t the star football player or even homecoming king. I was just a regular kid.4

High School passed more quickly than I had expected. One day I was a freshman and in a blink of an eye I was soon going to be graduating. It was kind of scary since I didn’t know what I was going to do with my life. I wanted to go to college but I didn’t know what I wanted to be or do. To me, my future was in a fog, until I met Kari.5

Oh man she was a man’s dream come true! She had lots of long and beautiful blonde hair that flowed down her back. Her eyes were the purest of blue. When she blinked her eyelashes fluttered gracefully. She also had the body of a goddess, slightly thin and oh so perfect. Kari was cheerleader captain. The other cheerleaders were snobs, but not Kari. She was kind and gentle, that’s why I fell in love with her. When we met…let’s just say fate was playing in a chemistry lab. We dated all through high school and I knew she was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I had it all planned out. After the graduation ceremony and party I was going to ask her to be my bride, but I never had the chance.6

It was Halloween my senior year. Kari and I had gone to a party with a few friends. When the night had ended, I took Kari home then headed home myself. I don’t remember much of the incident, but somehow, I don’t know where he came from, but the werewolf had taken me by surprise and bit me.7

I don’t remember any of it. Of course I still went about my business. Did my school work, chores at home, but my mind was in a fog. People could still talk to me, and I could respond, but most of it didn’t register. I was barely aware of what was happening to me. The fur and claws were just the beginning. I could run faster and longer than any man. My senses became sharper and more accurate. People told stories about werewolves changing only when there was a full moon and going completely mad. They were wrong. I could change at will, but mostly when I lost my temper which happens frequently.8

I only had one problem. Keeping this a secret, especially from Kari, but that day I didn’t have the choice anymore. The graduation ceremony went at planned until they called my name. When I reached for my diploma, I felt the changes. I was confused. I wasn’t angry or even a little upset to start the changes. My mind grew foggy and I could no longer think clearly. All I knew was that I had transformed into my wolf self staring at my senior class through colors of black and white.9

A snarl erupted from my throat. I grew a sense of protectiveness against…humans. But there were too many of them in one room. I had to get out. I had to get away. After that I couldn’t remember anymore. Somehow I had ended up here in a forest back to my human self. I cut my hair and changed my name so people wouldn’t find me. I didn’t want to hurt anyone so I ran away and became someone or something new. I lost everything, but some days it doesn’t matter to me. I just run and I lose myself. I guess werewolves don’t live happily ever after.