With All The Pain

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CHAPTER 12

She looked down. Why did this have to happen to her? She reached into her school bag and pulled a razor out of the back pocket. She placed it on her arm, and slashed violently. Tears rolled down her cheeks as the blood trickled down her arm.3

"Sarah? It's me, your mother. Open the door!".4

Sarah grabbed the nearest blanket and wrapped herself in it. She plodded her way to the door and unlocked it.5

"Yes?", her words sounded full of pain.6

"Are you ok? You didn't sound very happy when you got home this afternoon."7

"I'm fine!". She gave her mother a sour look, and closed the door. 8

"Open it, Sarah. I haven't got time for this!"9

"You never have time!" She shouted.10

"Thats not true, Sarah"11

"Just go! GO!". Loudly sobbing, she fell to the floor. Grabbing her beadspread, she pulled herself up, and onto the bed, grabbing the pills as she went. Then she froze.12

"Goodbye, cruel world", she whispered. With that, she took the pills, grabbed the bottle of vodka from under her bead and took the blanket off. A pool of blood saturated her blanket from where her cuts had been. Opening the pill jar, she looked outside her window.13

"With all the pain you've caused me"14

5 months before:15

'A mars bar, a fucking mars bar!' Sarah thought, staring at her self in the mirror.16

'I'm so fat and ugly. It looks like i'm carrying brumby's rolls around on my tummy!', the negative thoughts kept comming in.17

"Sarah, dinner!" her mum called. She quickly pulled down her top, and steped out her door.18

"Sweatheart, can you set the table for me?", her mother asked. She looked over at her two sisters, sitting there smirking. Oh, how lucky they were to be skinny, to have the perfect body.19

"What are you looking at, chubbster?" Daniel, the older sister said, with a devious smile.20

'I have to take action!' Sarah thought. 21

She sat there in her chair, staring at her dinner.22

'Resist, Sarah, resist' she thought, trying to get the smell out of her head. She looked at her mother, then her plate.23

"Sweatie, whats wrong?" her mother asked, sounding concerned.24

"You haven't put her enough food, mum!" Lizzie taunted. Daniel looked at her pleased.25

"She's right, that fat arse can fit more in it!" they both laughed.26

"Daniel, Lizzie, don't be so mean. If she wants more food, then she's welcome to get more." Her mother smilled at her, innocently.27

"I...feel really sick." Sarah grabbed her plate and ran to the kitchen. Then she froze to hear her sisters.28

"Mum, she is really fat, you should put her on a diet. It's not healthy. Fat pigs like that shouldn't be allowed in this world, honestly. It's for her own good."29

"Look, i know she's  little chubby, but we can't say things like that around her, it's not right. In the future, just keep your mouths shut, ok?" 30

"Yes mum" Lizzie and Daniel spoke, sounding dissapointed. Sarah wiped her eyes, and ran to her room.31