Worth the wait

Kevin blew it this time he just pushed his best friend away for the very last time. Jessie means everything to him, she was his life. There was no dull moment when she was him. He can talk to her all day and never get tired of it. He loves her warm hugs and sweet smiles that brighten his bad day. But now everything has changed. he screw it up. He wasn’t worthy enough for her love. He knows she is a amazing woman that would make any man happy but she chose him and he feels bad about it. He would do things to her, say things to her that shouldn’t be said but she still loves him. Pushing her away to someone else didn’t work. Ignoring her calls and texts hadn’t worked. In the end he misses her but she deserve better than him. His heart is not able to take another close to his soul to be broken again.1

It has been two days since their last conversation. Nothing was heard from her, not even a hello, good bye or even a fuck you. He misses her curse words, her quick temper and her ability to get her way. He waited impatiently in the break room at work where they work together. She is usually here before him but not today, not ever again he’s thinking. Sighing to himself of his loneliness, the break room door opened. He held his breath, smiling, waiting for her to turn that corner…but it wasn’t her. 2

“Hey Kev” Omar watts greeted to him. He was a co-worker of his, he was a cool guy. 3

“Hey”4

“Can I ask you a question? Are you and Jessie going out?” he curiously asks.5

“No, just friends…well not anymore…just co-workers”6

“Sweet, do you think she will go out with me?”7

“I cant say, do you want to go out with her?”8

“Yeah, of course. Who wouldn’t? people must be blind not to ask her out, she’s cute” Omar said. Shocked that he would even ask that question.9

“is she more than that…more than cute I mean” he asked.10

“well yeah. She’s awesome. Funny, sweet, easy going, a perfect girl to date. You don’t mind me asking her? I thought you two were an item”11

“no no…we’re not an item. Be my guest and ask her out.” he said through his fake smile. He didn’t want any guy asking her out. He wasn’t really to share her yet even she haven’t even spoken to him. 12

“Cool thanks”13

Omar moved over to the sink to wash his hands. The break room door opened again. Omar turned his head to look who it was and he smiled. “Hey Jessie”14

“Wassup?” she asked, going further in the break room. She went toward Omar to wash her hands too.15

“Hey, what are you doing Monday?” Omar asked drying off his hands with a paper towel. 16

“Umm…Monday…is my birthday, I got plans. Why? what’s on Monday?”17

“Nothing, what about Tuesday?”18

“I’m off that day. Hey, on Monday night I’m going to watch movies for my birthday, you want to come?”19

“Sure, I would love to” he said smiling at her. For a little bit longer she told him all the details about the event. He agreed to go and will see her there.20

“Shit…I have to go. See you later” Jessie said walking toward the door.21

“Jessie!” Kevin said to her.22

She stopped and turned toward him. “Crap, didn’t see you there. Hi Kev…in” then continued on walking out the door.23

Omar watched Jessie walk out the door. He turned to Kevin. “Sweet, I get to go to her party”24

“I’m going too” Kevin muttered under his breath.25

“You going Kev?” he asked.26

“Yeah, I’m going. Cant wait…” he said sarcastically.27

“Cool, I have to go, see you later”28

“laters” Once again Kevin was alone in the break room. Waiting for work to start and end. This day is going to be miserable.29

***30

Monday couldn’t come soon even for him to get her birthday over with. He gotten her a pretty hello kitty watch that she wanted from an window they saw a while ago. Her face lighted up seeing it, and her eyes glued to it. He had to physically pull her away before she drools all over the window. He remember that day clearly. They were walking, window shopping. It was Christmas time and freezing cold. She was huddle up in her jackets and a cute beanie and earmuffs. She looks so adorable and cold. She stayed close to him for warmth. At some point she went somewhere then next thing he felt was a cold snow ball hitting his back. Turning around to see his aimer, it was her. Her hand was still up in the air and her glove covered in snow. She was laughing hysterically at him, holding her stomach, trying not to pee in her pants. In the end, he got her back…right in the face and she didn’t talk to him for an hour. He loved her quick temper and even quicker temper recovery. 31

It was hours away before the movie start, he got dressed. ‘should I be cool and relaxed or LOOK AT ME! JESSIE?’ he thought to himself, then went for the cool and relaxed, didn’t want to look desperate with the other, wanting all of her attention. After done with that, he gotten nothing else to do. What he wanted was a stiff drink that takes all his miseries away. But that was after her birthday, don’t want to embarrass himself in front of her so she can hate him even more. 32

***33

“All right…I’m all done” Jessie said to her sisters. Dressing her best, she showed her curves and then some. No man wouldn’t stop and talk to her. But there was only one man that lingers in her mind but he wasn’t in her life anymore. Either be a work friend or nothing more, she couldn’t wait for him anymore. But he would always be her first crush and hopefully not her last. 34

“Looking good, lets go before we hit traffic” her sister said, fixing her hair one last time.35

“All right, move aside. I need to look at the mirror” her other sister moved her way in. 36

“You guys are so conceited, still love you though” Jessie said and laughed. They both turned to look at her with a raised eyebrow “ looks who’s talking, miss couldn’t move from the mirror for fifteen minutes”37

They all laughed and got the last things that they needed then on their way to the movies. 38

They arrived there with other close friends, blocking off some of the parking spot for their other friends. All the gear and food was out, nothing left was to chill and wait for the movies to start. Finally other people came, hugged Jessie and told her happy birthday. Handling her gifts she placed them in the car for safe keeping and until later. Kevin hadn’t showed up get and she was getting nervous. Then he finally came. 39

“Hi everybody” Kevin said to the big crowd, his eyes searched for Jessie. She was talking to Omar, very closely. She was giggling with him then playfully hit him on his arm. He took a deep breath and calm his rage. It was her birthday and she can do whatever she wanted. “Jessie!”40

Jessie turned to Kevin. She excused herself from Omar and went to Kevin. She took his breath away, she looked beautiful with her hair down, her eyes and lips sparkle in happiness. He hoped that was for him. She went to him and gave him a warm hug that he misses so much. “Thanks for coming”41

“I wouldn’t miss it for the world” he said softly back. Gave her another hug and pushed her away. 42

“uhh…how sweet of you to say” she smiled. 43

He gave her, her present and flowers. He knew she loved white roses and so he got her some. 44

“Thank you, its lovely” she bought them to her nose and breathe them in. she looked at him again, her eyes all dreamy. 45

He grinned at himself, he just made her day. He hoped she would take him back and never let him go…wait, where did that come from? FUCK. He was falling for her, he told himself not to fall for any girl that was going to break his heart, but she sneaked her way in and never walked out. Well she did, but he pushed her away, so that didn’t count. Come to think of it, maybe this was a good thing. She wasn’t like the other girls that he dated. She was different, unique in her own cute way that hooked her to him. 46

“You’re welcome”47

Jessie placed her beautiful flowers in the car carefully. Then she was ready to party. The movie finally began and everyone quieted. Jessie sat on the matted ground with her soft blanket around her. It was a bit breezy but still good to her. At some point someone sat next to her, she turned to see who it was, it was Kevin. “You want to share my blanket?”48

“Sure” he agreed and scooted closer to her. Jessie turned back and watched the movie. He smelled in the clean air with a hit of refreshing scent, he remember that scent. Cucumber melon, it was Jessie favorite scent to put on her body. He scooted closer, wanting more of her scent. Throughout the movie, he scooted his way closer and closer. She didn’t move from him or didn’t even noticed that he moved in closer to her. Out of nowhere, her hand popped out of the blanket. 49

“Want to see my new ring that I just bought? Isn’t it cute?” she showed her hand to him. He looked at her hand where her light blue rose ring is. He took her hand and looked at it closer. She didn’t mind because she went back to watching the movie. “Oww…now that got to hurt” she muttered.50

Kevin still had her hand in his, he rubbed his thumb back and forth on her hand, waiting for a reaction. Nothing happened so he carried on. He set her hand down on his knee and held her hand. Then he finally got a reaction.51

Jessie stopped watching the movie and looked down. Kevin was holding her hand. She leaned over to him and whispered. “What the hell are you doing?”52

Kevin had to laugh at that, he misses her bad languages. Her hand felt really nice with his. “I’m holding your hand”53

“I got that, but why?”54

“I want to…I mean…I needed to” he whispered back. 55

“You don’t need to hold my hand. I’m fine” she said and pulled her hand away but he didn’t let go. “let go”56

“No, hear me out” he plead. She meant everything to him and if she goes, he wouldn’t have this opportunity anymore. 57

“Fine…but not here. Too much people around to see me kick your ass” she got up from her seat and walked away to the other side where his car was. She was shivering from the cold. 58

“Here” he said then gather her into his arms. He shared his warmth with her and also wanted to hold her. 59

“I’m not doing this for no other reason then I’m cold” she said into his chest.60

“Right, okay” he said, laughing. She was being stubborn and he loves her for that. “I want to apologize for what I said earlier. You mean everything to me. I missed you. I didn’t notice it until now when you actually left me. My world crumbled into pieces and I didn’t know how to put it back together. You were right, I am slow. I get what you mean now. A little harsh but I get it.”61

Jessie moved away from him, she took a couple of steps back. “That was sweet of you to say, I miss you too but I don’t think I can handle it again. I give and give but I get nothing in return. Do I mean more to you then a friend now? If not then there is nothing I can give you.”62

“You do mean more to me! I want you by my side always. I love you. As I said what the heart wants, it wants and I want you” he pulled her back into his arms. 63

Jessie raised her head and looked into his eyes. “Do you really love me?”64

“Will this prove it?” he muttered and descended his head down. His lips touched hers and fireworks exploded. Sweet nectar entered his mouth, she kissed him back with the same passion. On and on they kissed, missing the end of the movie.65

“All right, where is the birthday girl?” one of her sisters asked. 66

“She’s over there, making out with Kevin” one of her friends pointed out. Everyone turned and looked.67

“Well, I’ll be damn. I guess she got one of her present early and then some” her other sister said and laughed out loud. Everyone else laughed with her or grossed out. But Jessie and Kevin didn’t care. They have their heart on their sleeves and their arms around each other. Nothing was going to pull them apart, except for when someone yelled out to get a room then they parted and laughed. Then gave everyone the finger.68