Why?

Mommy…?1

Are you near me?2

Can you see me?3

Or am I an invisible object4

That cannot rouse any feeling within you5

Other than repulsed odium?6

Because of you, I cannot play7

For I am alone8

Words I cannot say9

By my own10

Mommy…?11

It’s dark in here12

I cannot see13

I wish I could14

Yet there is nothing there to see15

Please let me go16

I promise I’ll be good…17

Why? 18

Do I repulse you?19

Why?20

Do I humiliate you?21

Why?22

Do I…scare you?23

Am I a sordid daughter24

Who is of no good use?25

Am I a mistake?26

Answer me!27

Am I a mistake?28

Mommy!29

Am I a mistake!?30

I want you to be proud of me31

I want you to hug me32

And read to me33

And kiss me 34

And love me…35

Mommy…36

I cannot cry37

I don’t know why38

Tears refuse to flow39

They refuse to show40

I want to cry41

I cannot cry42

Because of you43

Mommy44

I can’t be brave45

Not in this horrid place46

Oh, how I crave47

For courage to make me stand tall48

And smile…49

I want to smile…50

I want to run51

In sunny woods52

I want to laugh53

When something’s funny54

I want to cry55

When I fall56

And I want to cry57

Because I fell58

I want to play an instrument59

I want to have some friends60

I want to have a lover61

I want to cry when someone dies62

Though the only thing that died63

Is the happiness that I desire64

I want a dog65

I want a cat66

I want a friend67

I want a loving family68

I want a hobby69

But most of all I want70

A loving mommy71

That you never benefited me with72

Why?73

You may kick me all you like74

You may throw at me your shoe75

Nothing will ever destroy76

The love I have for you77

Mommy…78

I want to cry79

I feel as though I am to die80

Mommy…81

Tell me why…82