Sleepless

Falling through thin air in the distant night, chugging away wasted dreams, waiting for the phone to ring.1

Uncertainty. In the blink of a, a face of a minute, hour.2

Paradise.3

New century. One of beauty and understanding. 4

Sit down right next to me and tell me something. Tell me what you see when you walk past me in the subway.5

He could have been my soul mate, that boy in the blue shirt walking in front of me.6

Too bad. It’s just too bad.7

Screech, scream, sing, survive, laugh, run, sleep.8

Sleep when you can, battle those sleeping pills, battle that urge. You’re stronger than that. You’re stronger than them all in your wildest dreams.9

You’ll win if you can.10

Love absolutely. Don’t leave an inch of your soul to yourself. It’ll burn that much sweeter, first with pleasure then with bitter stinging agony.11

You let yourself go and it was just a tragedy. No one was watching.12

A tragedy’s never silent, so I suppose you were just a kid after all. 13

I’m sleepy can’t you tell? I don’t know what my fingers are telling you, just please don’t let them stop. Pinch and flick them until they’re done, and after that be rid of me, I’ll be empty and endless.14

I love being a hull. Such a pretty conch shell. Listen, you can hear the ocean if you try hard enough.15

Cohesive, ornate, foolish and young. The latter explains the former and so on and so forth.16

Just don’t let me go, keep swimming, pulling me up by my fingertips, arm sockets, hair follicles, fingernails. Whatever you can grab hold of.17

I don’t want to die, not yet, not now when I have you in my sight, on my skin, in my mouth. You wear me like a jacket. We walk into the fields.18

We are empty and endless.19