Journal Entry #2

I still seem to not know exactly what to post up on here, and seeing as I can't think of anything really interesting to write about right now i'll post my second Journal. 1

Last time I was talking about my friends. This time I will talk about a little problem I have. My one heart that seeks the love of three individuals. I will not say their real names so I will use an alias for each person.2

(I'm not to sure how to start this off so if this seems bad and un-interesting, I apologize.)3

For ten months i've had feelings for a guy I will call Nate. I've tried to get over him and amazingly I almost succeeded, but then this month he told me he wanted to give me that one chance I was once wishing for. Of course he decided this to late and at the absolute worst timing but i can't help but think about why I liked him in the first place. There is no way I could possibly remove that one part of my heart that has him inside. I have tried i promise, but I'm sure i wont succeed for a long time.4

For the second guy my heart calls for. I will call him Mike. Since I met him I thought he was gonna be a great friend for me, I never thought I would date him or feel for him the way I do. He saved me from making a mistake that should never happen to a fourteen year old girl. Then right after he saved me he surprised me by telling me he loved me. I couldn't help but tell him I loved him back. Because it was true. It kind of still is. A piece of my heart will always love him. I can never be sad around him, or angry. Never once have we faught for the whole 11 months we've known eachother. But the problem with him is hes been distant lately. Meaning he has been to busy to talk to me and all of that. And not talking to him for as long as I am, is making me feel the need to move on. Even though he tells me he loves me still. I've never had the guts to even try moving on, but i think i may soon have no choice.5

Last but not least, the third heart throb. Lets call him..Wade. I know for a fact he has never thought of me as more than a friend. Not to mention that every girl whos ever met him has had feelings for him at one point. He is incredible. I can relate to him more than I could relate to any one else I know. It sucks because he occupies a huge majority of my heart and if anything i have more feelings for him than anyone else. The reason it sucks is because I doubt he will ever feel the same way for me. To me he is literally like an angel, perfect in every way. I you readers are probably thinking, "There is no such thing as the perfect man" But I tell you, if you believe Wade isn't perfect then you truly are wrong. Usually I am incredibly shallow and only want guys who are utterly attractive. But with Wade, I don't even care how he looks, I don't even think about his looks. All i can ever think about is how amazingly incredible he is. He is amazingly strong, not just physically but mentally. I've never met anyone who was able to survive through all the things hes been through. He is also very mature. Most teenage boys, no offence, seem to be the most imature horney kids on earth! But with Wade when he talks everyone wants to listen and I have never heard him say anything immature or hormonal. I promise you he is the perfect man. If i could ever get that chance with him I would literally be the happiest girl in the world.6

I know i may seem like a slut because of this. Though to be honest I have tried to narrow it down to one person. I'm sure all of you have probably had feelings for more than one person before. My heart is unstoppable when it comes to people. If i meet someone incredible like Nate, Mike, and Wade my heart is likely to seek them. (Sorry if that sounds like some murderous quote or somthing) 7

I guess the reasoning I posted this, is because I need help. From you Readers. If you don't mind, could you help me find out the one boy my heart should go to?