It was Derek's Fault

"I'm pregnant." I said.1

"I can't believe it, your only 16 years old." She answered. Her face looked shocked and depressed at the same time.2

"Well..." I couldn't bare to tell Mom how it happened. How I was so willing to sacrifice my own body to such a horrible jerk. Why did I ever think I truly loved him?3

"That day..." I couldn't say more. I couldn't tell her about how he threatened me, saying we wouldn't be together anymore if I didn't agree. How he held me down in order to stop my squirming, the leather upholstery scratching my bare back, leaving scars so I may never forget that night. I turn to look at Mom. Her hand is clamped over her mouth, like if she said anything, she was afraid she'd burst into tears. I can't look at her anymore or else my heart will tear into pieces.4

"It's Derek's baby..." I muster up the courage to say. She stares at me in shock.5

"No! Derek is an amazing boy! He gets straight A's and won the national spelling bee 17 times in a row-"6

"It's Derek's baby" I cut her off. Yes I knew Derek Harren was Mr.Perfect, or at least I thought he was. Now I believed he was a cruel man who harassed every girl in his path. A monster eating up souls. My soul. Mom shakes her head solemnly, like she was disappointed. There was no reason to be since I actually didn't want my virginity taken away.7

"I thought you knew better than this, pressuring your boyfriend to have sex with you."8

"YOU THINK THIS WAS *MY* FAULT?!?!" I scream, enraged at what she said.9

"I NEVER PUT DEREK UP TO ANYTHING! IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND! HE PRESSURED ME!!!!!"10

Mom stands up and glares at me.11

"You are a disgrace to this family." She snarls.12

"Derek would never do such a thing! He's on the Honor Council for heaven's sake! You on the other hand, can't even pass English."13

Each word was like a gun shooting into my heart. How could she be so cruel? I watch her descend up the staircase, leaving me alone while her words still hung in the air.14

"It was Derek's fault..." I whisper in the silence. I collapse on the couch and wail mournfully.15

"IT WAS DEREK'S FAULT!!!!"16

The more I said it, the angrier I got. Derek was the one who held me down. Derek was the one who ruined our trust. Derek was the one who made my life a living hell and I wanted revenge. I wanted to ruin his life, after what he did to mine. I wanted him to say, "It was Hannah's fault."