I found hope, by hanging from a rope...

So I'll go on pretending like I'm okay,1

I'll keep the smile on my face, even though I'm slowly slipping away.2

I'll act like I'm not effected by the words you say.3

So I'll pretend I'm happy, even though to me, the sky is grey.4

I've heard the words, I've made the scars,5

I sit in the rain, and watch the cars.6

They drive into the horizon, following the sun.7

Here comes my horizon, I thought you we're the one.8

I wanted to be happy, I wanted to live!9

How did I become so damn negative!10

I can no longer see, no longer breathe.11

I hear the whispers of 'She's young and naive.'12

I'm not really here, I'm already dead.13

You watched as I hung, you watched as I bled.14

Don't bother telling me that you tried.15

Because you couldn't tell, if I smiled or cried.16

I'm just another girl to cross off your list,17

I was the one you longed to see, but the one you never missed.18

You told me not to cry, you said things would turn out fine.19

But how is that true when I was never yours and you we're never mine!20

Was this just a dream, or more like a nightmare,21

How have you moved on, what happened to life being fair!22

What happened to forever! I guess it was just lust.23

Because the memory of me has turned to dust.24

Can you tell that I'm broken?25

Can you tell that I'm cold and soaken?26

Why do I love to dream, it's always of you.27

Why are my lips turning from red to blue?28

Can you hear me screaming?29

Can you see me bleeding?30

Can't you hear the song that proclaims the end?31

It's my broken heart that I know you can't mend.32

I know that forgetting you is impossible.33

So I must to the un-stoppable.34

I know you won't cry for me.35

I know you won't die for me.36

I died for you, you ripped out my soul.37

So I took my life, the greatest toll.38

And I know that nobodies perfect,39

but to me, you were worth it.40

But I don't know what to believe anymore.41

Just believe the scream, when they see me,42

when they open that closet door.43

This rope, was made from your words,44

this hope, was lost, everything became nothing but blurs.45

So I gave up on life,46

like you gave up on me.47

Years from now, when you're with your kids in wife,48

just remember, you were the one who could set me free...