A Cutters Last Words (Chapter One)

Chapter One1

This is where it all starts:2

It's almost three o'clock in the morning on Sunday. Lydia was awoken with a start when the phone rang. She heard her 'parents' talking softly saying: "What are we going to do?" "Well I'll go and get him and we'll deal with it then." So within the next hour, Lydia heard yelling and screaming so loud that she feared they might wake the neighbors. She listened intently:3

"How dare you! You're such an ass whole! You live under my house! Under my rules! You're lucky I don't kick your ass out!" 4

So Lydia went down to her basement, where Corey's room was, and where the source of the yelling was coming. She saw her 'father' hovering over Corey, so angry that he was spitting. He had his hands balled into fists and was ready to hit him. Corey was red in the face, almost as if he'd been crying. 5

Lydia made her way down the steps. No one even noticed her. That's when she learned Corey had been caught with marijuana. She sat down next to him, not sure if she should comfort him or not. But what got her was, after all the yelling was done, they let Corey go back to college, where, Lydia didn't realize then, but he was going to go smoke more pot. She didn't understand then. She didn't know any better. 6

"Mom, what's going to happen to Corey? Should I be just like him?"7

She chuckled. "No, Lydia, you shouldn't. What are you crazy?" This is when Lydia still had a connection with her dictator. When she was still open with her. When Lydia was still just like her. When Lydia blew everything way out of proportion. It makes me shudder to think that she was ever like that. 8

So after Corey went back to college, Lydia didn't know what to do. They were both alone, and Corey was experiencing a lot of stress. He couldn't handle school and his parents at the same time. What Lydia would later understand. So Corey dropped out of school to become a Realtor. It was working out fine, the fights had lessened, and Corey seemed happy. But then something else happened. Corey's girlfriend broke up with him. Then Corey started to get depressed and Lydia didn't know how to help him. Their dictators sure weren't. They just yelled at him to get back to work. But Lydia knew that wasn't the answer. But that was the only way they knew how to dictate unfortunately. 9

Lydia had a conversation with Corey one day when he was driving her to school. He told her everything that had been bottled up inside. Told her how he'd started smoking in high school, how he'd started pot senior year. He told her how he didn't know how to handle the dictators either. He finally just started to accept that he would never get anything out of them, so he just agreed with whatever they said. It worked for a while. Then it would be passed onto Lydia later on in life.10

So then, when the dictators had found pot and other drugs in Corey's room, they kicked him out of the house. They didn't understand that they weren't helping him the right way. Lydia tried to convince her dictators to help Corey the right way, but they just wouldn't listen.11