Broken Promise

No, Honeyfern!1

You promised me2

We had great plans for the future3

Just you and me!4

Imagine us watching our kits5

Playing around, wrestling6

How could you, Honeyfern?7

How could you leave me?8

I should've spent more time with you9

I thought I was too good10

But you never gave up on me11

Like any she-cat would.12

A few days before13

I finally realized14

How much you meant to me15

How much I yearned16

Your presence beside me.17

When I stare into your eyes18

I can only see love19

But that was something I didn't realize20

Before yesterday.21

Today I looked at you22

You were as beautiful as you always were.23

Kind, gentle, and loving.24

Can I have a better mate than you?25

I finally realize26

That I can't be without you anymore.27

So I told you, brightening up your gaze28

And you were happy,29

So were I.30

You told me you loved me too31

What else can be better?32

I thought.33

We basked under the strong sun34

Lionblaze was with us.35

I fought the temptation36

To tell him37

"Honeyfern and I wish to be alone."38

But I let him39

And I was free anyways40

To tell Honeyfern41

I loved her.42

And I still do.43

We watched the kits play, so happily44

They were so bouncy and cute45

Soon making me imagine46

Having kits of our own.47

Honeyfern and Berrynose's kits.48

It sounded fine49

Not just fine, but perfect.50

Honeyfern and Berrynose's kits.51

They would be beautiful kits52

Beautiful, adorable, and bouncy53

Just like Millie and Graystripe's.54

Maybe I should name a kit Maplekit55

After her mother.56

I loved Honeyfern so.57

I told her we would have kits like that one day58

Playing happily and laughing joyfully59

Honeyfern was so shy, and so happy.60

I could still remember her pretty, big blue eyes61

Blinking so shyly, gazing at me with so much love...62

We kept sharing tongues63

Expressing our feelings.64

I loved the prickle I felt on my pelt65

When Honeyfern brushes hers with mine.66

I still do.67

Briarkit had tumbled over, near a crack68

But I was too busy watching Honeyfern.69

My brave mate had seen the snake before any cat did.70

She had leaped to save Briarkit71

Killing herself.72

I felt like I was dying73

When Honeyfern did so.74

The bite in her shoulder75

Was killing me, not her.76

Honeyfern was yowling painfully77

What could I do to help her?78

If only I was a medicine cat79

I would use the last drop of my blood to save her.80

"My blood is on fire!"81

She cried82

And I felt as if83

My whole body was on fire.84

But it didn't matter if it really was85

If that was what it takes to save her.86

Leafpool didn't do anything87

She just stared as Honeyfern's life swept away in a black tide.88

I was furious and heartbroken89

I begged every cat to do something90

But what could they do?91

Most of all92

What could I do?93

Leafpool said the poison took hold of her.94

I felt as if the poison killed my heart.95

I knew it would be broken forever.96

Without Honeyfern, nothing is perfect.97

All I could tell her was that she was strong, beautiful, and brave.98

We would have had wonderful kits together.99

I will see her in StarClan.100

But why?101

Why has StarClan taken her away from me?102

It wasn't right!103

I loved her!104

I never loved a cat105

Like I have loved her.106

I told her107

Every cat in StarClan will honor her.108

I told her she was brave.109

Then she was gone.110

There was nothing else I could do!111

I was useless!112

Is there anything I can do?113

Honeyfern!114

You promised me! You promised me115

We'd have such lovely kits116

As lovely, as strong, as brave117

As you.118

But you left119

How can you?120

You promised me...121

Why?122

Why...123

Why did you leave me?124

It was a promise.125

You said we will be together126

You promised me...127

You said we would stay together, pelts brushing, tails intwined128

Till the last of our lives...129

But you broke the promise...130

You left us131

And most of all132

You left me.