My friend (chapter 5)

The service was over, and as students who just came to pay their respects; in other words they had nothing better to do and they thought it was the right thing or they were just here to make sure the rumors were true. I really didn’t care. Her real friends were going to her wake. 1

I couldn’t speak, I wouldn’t speak. I didn’t hear, I didn’t want to hear what was going on around me. Maybe if I didn’t here she was gone, or maybe if I didn’t speak of anything but the good old days, then just MAYBE. She wouldn’t be gone. Just away for sometime. I knew she was coming back.  I KNOW SHE WILL.2

Yea, but there’s this little voice saying ‘It’s ok to be sad. It’s ok to be cry. It’s ok to miss her. It’s ok to even hate her, but you got to feel something’ Do I listen o that voice? All I do know is I should wait, and time would heal my wounds.3

Crying her way down the halls I thought ‘oh here comes dramatic ol’ Ashlie. What now’ Because she was a drama queen. Maybe she was coming to explain why she didn’t come to rehearsal. I don’t understand why though. She is Cinderella. I’m stuck being the mean stepsister. Maybe she was practicing her REALLY REALLY REALLY good excuse because Mrs. Galoby really is pissed. So I thought that’s why she was there, to put on a show and make a lie and blame it on her moms bipolar. 4

“Hey Ashlie DB is looking for you (DB= Drama bitch). She’s mad you didn’t show up…. Why didn’t you show up?”5

“There’s worse things in life then not showing up. Tell her to give my part to whoever she wants.” This was not the Ashlie I knew. The Ashlie I knew would die if anybody took her shining spotlight.6

“You OK?”7

“Yes I’m ok. Will everyone stop asking me that? I’m ok. I’m ok. I’m OK. Just leave me alone.”8

“Ashlie, what’s wrong. I know you aren’t ok.”9

“Shut Up you know nothing.” Right then the new English teacher walked out of his room. I already forgot his name and I didn’t care to remember. I didn’t care if he was there or not all I wanted was to know if Ashlie was ok.10

“Ladies, What’s this all about? Shouldn’t you two be out of here? I didn’t know you liked school this much.”11

I guess he was trying to lighten the mood, but it really didn’t help “Ash…. Talk to me-” He just decided to interrupt me. 12

“Well if one of my students is having a problem then they should talk to me. SOMEONE WHO CAN ACTUALLY HELP HER.”13

I was insulted by that but I think that she actually agreed with him. There was nothing I could do, and he closed his classroom door14

I said the good ones!! Not the ones that remind me of the bad things that I could have prevented.  I mean who wouldn’t think that? Face it I was a bad friend. But I put on a face, and waited for Zach. When he came I got into the passenger side of his car and we drove to 1969 willow chase drive. That place would never be the same again15