Touch of moonlight, touch of love...

I blinked again to make sure I was awake, to make sure this was true, to make sure this was real. It was impossible, this is what I had been dreaming of for months and months. This is what popped in my mind before I drifted off to sleep each night and every morning as I woke up from a deep sleep. But I was awake, and all my senses were on high alert as every little touch made my skin tremble with excitement.1

My head settled on to his shoulder as he wrapped his warm loving arm around me and I sunk in to his body. I tried not to let the excitement of what was happening get to me. This could just be like friends watching a video I thought. He knows I'm bad with horror films and even though this was a crappy one he might be doing it to comfort me almost I thought. 2

But as he reached slowly for my hand and entwined his fingers around mine I knew this was real. I knew that this must be really happening, if I believed it or not though was a different matter altogether. He kissed the top of my forehead and gently picked up my hand as he kissed the tips of my fingers one by one sending shudders of excitement and pleasure running throughout my body. His deep chocolate brown eyes shinned down upon me looking darker without the light on as he gently touched my chin then looked away. "I can't do this..." He announced with regret in his voice. My smile sank as I sat up and moved a bit away from him wondering how he could lead me on like this, thinking of how he could do this to me.3

But he pulled me back towards me and put both hands on either side of my face. I looked at him with hurt filled eyes before he announced. "I kind of have a girlfriend." I pulled away from him again, not knowing what to do. Not knowing why he hadn't told me early. Not knowing why he enjoyed me being in so much pain. I stood up and was just about to walk to the door to get out of there. I didn't know where I'd go since it was my house but it didn't matter. I just knew I had to get out of here before I got even more hurt, before he dropped another bombshell on me and broke my heart even more. But he simply took me hand and pulled me back towards him. 4

I looked him into the eyes. I didn't know what to say or what to do. I didn't know what was happenings except the fact that I could feel his arms resting gently round my hips and I could smell his deodorant so clearly by now. He was making me weak on the knees, but I didn't show it. I didn't want him to know exactly how much he meant to me.5

He stroked my hair back from upon my face and tilted my chin up so I was looking directly at him as he whispered in to my ear. "Sorry. Is it okay if I take that back? Okay I do want you. I must have you. Please have me, I'm in love with you and I have been ever since we met. I don't know what else I can do." And with that he lent in for a passionate kiss. Afterwards I was a bit taken back and sat down again. He sat next to me and asked if I was okay. I said yes without thinking, without knowing if I really was okay. He kissed my neck as I asked doubtfully.6

"What about your girlfriend?"7

"Look you mean everything to me. So I'll dump her, okay?" And with that he put his arm around me yet again as we watched the movie. 8

I want this love to be forever I know, but I don't know if I can trust him. If he was so willing to cheat and drop his girlfriend for me then could he do the same? But as I looked into his eyes I trusted him, I wanted him, I loved him.9