Who Am I? ~ Chapter 20

Another secret! ANOTHER BIG, HUGE dirty lie that my parents kept from me. How could they do this to me? They had gone to far this time, way to far. Taylor was my sister. Even worse my TWIN sister. We had always been told that we could pass for sisters, but I thought that was because we were always seen together. We did look alike, but I never thought that she was my sister.1

I had to know why, I had to know if it was true. I needed answers from my darling mother, and not the junky in a caravan. Not telling me I was adopted was one thing, keeping the fact that I had a sister was quite another.2

“Hello?” Mum said. 3

“It’s Hayleigh.”4

“You haven’t called in days! What are you doing up there? When are you coming home?” She asked. 5

I tried to control my temper, I really did try to remain calm, but I couldn’t that was just to much to keep bottled up. 6

“HOW COULD YOU!” I yelled. 7

“Honey calm down, what is the matter?” She said. Although I think she knew what I was about to say.8

“How could you lie to me? Again! I found her! She told me about her! She told me about Taylor!” I screamed. 9

Rhylan jumped in fright at my outburst, I hadn’t talked to him all afternoon, he sat there trying to pretend he wasn’t listening. 10

“Hayles, I want you to calm down, you need to calm down.”  She said after a few minutes of silence. 11

“I’m sick of being told to calm down! I’m sick of being lied to! I want some answers! If you don’t tell me right now I will run from here and you will never see me again! I swear to god!” 12

She started crying and breathing heavily. 13

“I’m scared if I tell you, I won’t see you again!”14

“Just tell me what I asked, you owe me that much!” I begged. 15

“You’re mother left twins here, you and Kennedy.” She started.16

“Kennedy?” I asked. 17

“Taylor. Anyway, when the pair of you showed up we already had a family. We didn’t want anymore kids.”18

“But you told me I was your miracle baby cos you couldn’t have more kids!” I cried. I didn’t want to hear this anymore. 19

“I lied. We didn’t want more kids, we were going to put you in an orphanage. Mrs Jenkins had a still born birth, she was absolutely devastated, so she asked if she could have Taylor.”20

Was I hearing this? It sounded like she was talking about some pup in a pet store. 21

“She adopted her, the morning I was supposed to take you to the orphanage I couldn’t do it, I talked to your father around and we adopted you. Mrs Jenkins, changed her name to Taylor and her birth day so that there were no questions asked. She made it clear to me that she never wanted Taylor to know about this.” She explained.22

“The note I read never mentioned anything about her!” I yelled.23

There was more silence on the other end. 24

“That note wasn’t from your mother, I wrote it…in case you ever asked questions. Hayleigh your Mother gave you up because she didn’t want the pair of you. She never wanted children or to have anything to do with you. You were not supposed to find her. I didn’t think you would. She told me that she would never stay in the same spot, so it would be impossible. I had no intentions of letting you go…but you took off. I didn’t want you suspecting anything so I didn’t make a fuss, I didn’t think that she would be there.” 25

“I HATE you! I am never going to talk to you again! NEVER!” I screamed into the phone and immediately hung up. 26

I was so angry. I just couldn’t believe that this was happening. Everything that had ever came out of her mouth was a lie! She didn’t want me, they felt sorry for me, that’s why they kept me like some dumb animal! I had always thought that Taylor was 4 months older than me, that wasn’t even true!27

I was going to lose my best friend, this was going to destroy her! She would be devastated. Her name wasn’t even Taylor! Her birthday wasn’t the same! I didn’t know how I was going to tell her. I couldn’t be the one that shattered her world. I couldn’t do it. It nearly killed me when I found out, so I knew how she felt. 28

Rhylan held me that night while I cried. Nothing happened, I just needed to be held. 29

I woke up the next morning. I sat up to see Luca standing at the end of the bed with a look of disgust on his face. 30

Was I dreaming? Was he really here?31

“I read this over and over on the plane, wondering if you really meant it. You’ll never change Hayles, you’re already working on your next sucker!” He spat throwing the letter on the bed and walking out. I must have forgot to lock the door that night. 32

He was here! I jumped out of bed not caring about the lack of clothes I had on and chased him outside. All I was wearing was a pair of see through pink short, shorts and a tank top. 33

“Luca! Wait! It’s not what it looks like!” I shouted catching up to him and throwing my arms around him, I held him tight. 34

“I sat on a plane for 2 hours and I come here to find you in bed with some guy!”35

“Luca he’s my friend! I had no money, he took me in!”36

“Friends? I know what you do with friends Hayles.”37

“You and I were never friends Luca, it just took me a while to realise.”38

“You swear nothing happened?”39

“I promise! I love you Luca!”40

“What happens when the novelty wears off Hayleigh? What happens when you get bored? I want this so much but not if it means being jerked around.”41

“I love you, I have never felt this way about anyone! I know I have been a jerk, but I’m over that! I want to settle down! I want to be with you and ONLY you! You read my letter! It was a disaster!”42

“You’re letter was the cutest thing I have ever read.” He said and smiled. 43

There it was, it winded me, it put butterflies in my stomach. It was love, what I had been searching for; for so long. 44