Artificial life [[Preface]]

This is just another life of an American teen… The only difference is I’ve managed to fall for the poor boy in a band that turns to alcohol for the answer, even though I was there all along for him. I’m just your normal teenage girl, or at least I like to tell myself that. I’m a little crazy and I don’t listen when I really should have, but that’s how I get my lessons. My lessons always seem to lead to the same thing time after time: That I’m not good enough, that no matter how hard I try I just can’t do it. So, here I am, chasing my dreams of becoming a model or at least something that says “screw you”, to everyone who said I couldn’t be anything.1

Do you know what I mean? Well if not this is what I’m saying; I want my name out there, Audrey Rea. Not really a charming name, but oh well, it’s there to stay. Did I fail to mention I’m also one of the biggest liars on the planet? Whoops, I don’t know how I can forget something like that. Not only am I the biggest liar on the planet, I’m a hyper and a little caught up in the 80’s and a vegetarian of nine years. 2

Do you wanna know something? During my short seventeen years alive, I’ve learned to love who I am; love every little thing about myself. I’ve also learned that no matter how much you try some people just won’t understand, for example: My mom never understanding the reason I still believe in my drunken best friend, it’s only a four little reason. I’ll spell it out for you, L-O-V-E. Another example would be how my mom doesn’t understand why I hate my father, the reason is kind of short and bitter, but you’ll live with it. The reason is, this is her second time marring this man, they divorced in the first place because he was a drunken jerk who yelled and had a very bad temper problem. To make things even worse, he HASN’T CHANGED!!!3

That’s my life for you… It’s a rollercoaster ride, I know I live it.4