the life of a stranger

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CHAPTER ONE2

HELLS3

BLESSINGS4

It started out like a normal school year just the usual shool year nothing special the same old things happening every day i suppose i should tell you a bit of it so you can get a picture. I was the most popular person in school which means that i was failing at every single class but always had all the girls wanting me and i was the envy of every guy. So my usual shool day consisted of going to class and getting yelled at and spending time with my girlfriend at the time and any future girls that i was looking at going out with my relationships never lasted long. So that was the boring every day life that i lived. But at home all that was differant see although every one knew my name at school at home i felt that no matter what i did i was wrong never did i hear words of praise.5

Well that was all that happend for the first part of my year 11 at high school but unknowingly my life was about to change. As i was sitting in biology class she walked in as soon as i saw her i stopped breathing and it wasnt becuase she was beautiful. She was differant she had a defiance that no other girl in the school had so that immediatly got me interested and what can i say i was a sucker for challenges and she put up the biggest challenge you could think of. So i did what no other guy in the school would do i became her soul mate not her boyfriend just the person whom she trusted above all others and hears a secret for you all the one thing that proves who you are is who you trust for they have control over you and usualy who’s heart is yours but know this i was not about to take advantage of this power. For i trusted her although not even i know every thing about myself which can get scary when your like me but thats not my fault you see i have a capability where i can tell exactly what a person is thinking.6

But she didnt kow that i liked her so she went out with other guys while she called me her brother so i looked else where for love but always fell short for some reason now the only girl that could of taken her place in my heart was my best friend joanna but the moment that i was going to ask her out she left school and i didnt get to. So my boring life went on un changed exept now all i could think about is susan and so it was i lived out the rest of my year 11 trying to forget about the love that would never happen and into year 12. Then susans 18th birthday where i was alone with susan and she cought me checking her out and my whole world turned inside out and susan found out that i liked her and i found out that she liked me. But i was going out with someone else so we did little more then kiss and even that took us the whole night to get to and although i feel like a stranger to everyone around me i felt as if i belonged here. In that very moment everything seemed to stop but that lead to situatoins that made me feel as if i was not of this world a mere stranger and never can anyone prove otherwise cause ill always feel differant to everyone else and theres no other excuse apart from saying that im either an angel or god or the devil or im from another planet.7

Well here i am 1 year down the track im engaged to susan and i sit here wondering weather or not im doing the wright thing by continuing this cherade of only seeing my love every now and then whilst being told that her dad says no or her mum has something that she wants to do that weekend its frustrating beyond concern and to make matters worse joanna has shown up in my life again so im left with a choice of who to be with.8

CHAPTER TWO9

THE WORLDS END10

Well here i was with a very hard dicision of who to be with but without concern my love dicides that we should take a break for awhile and my whole world just falls apart so what am i left to do i cant get enough time alone with joanna and im all of a sudden single well thats life i guess and as the old saying goes when one door closes another another opens this allows me to try differant things with my life and possibly meet up with susan or joanna down the track and who knows maybe live a happy and prospros life in the future.11

But where to start i have no reason to live to keep going whats is there for me to do so i turn to wanting just fleeting companionship instead of longterm comitment and ask my brother my older yet immature brother to find me a girl for occasional sex and a fun time but he has yet to succede and i fall to doing nothing with my great mind and just wasting away like a human all for what its just a waste for something like me a stranger to all. So here i was just sitting waiting for a life changing event and then on a rutine day out i just happen to bump into the one that changed my life only to destroy it and yet i dont feel anger towards her but more pity for putting herself through this heartache oh i now have another girlfriend so im left with another quandry but that can wait so i decided to go into the army and hence been living life the best i can what with my family myselfe and ofcourse my girl and relationship isues but i still wonder weather or not im made for bigger things or to be remembered for doing them.12