Second Best Till Last (Re-Write)

"Where am I?"1

I ask myself trying to remember, my head is throbbing, my shoulders feel like they are being crushed, I'm lying on the floor.2

"what happened?"3

I try to remember, I remember opening the door as we argued, I'd seen her with him, the one she swore never to see again, cause he tried to kill her, caused her so much pain, but together I saw them. Two flashes of light,It felt like Id been hit with something hard spinning away I hit the ground hard, I tried to raise my head by my arms were burning, something hit me in the side of the head, then nothing.4

Reaching up I grab a table that is by my side, my arm burns and I bite back a yell of pain looking down on the floor my eyes open with wonder.5

"Blood.. My Blood"6

Reaching up I touch my shoulder, its sticky.7

A scream echoes through the house, its her,8

"No! Leave him alone! I'll do anything!"9

Gritting my teeth I bite my tongue as a scream of pain starts as I try and rise. Finally standing I am in the hallway, its dark. The blue walls reflecting the pale moonlight casting a goulish glow on hallway. My head feels heavy and I feel faint, I stagger into the wall and lean heavily on it on the floor where I had been laying, there is a pool of blood.. My blood no wonder I feel dizzy and faint, I lurch towards the stairs, her screams are from upstairs, I can hear her little one crying.10

"Come on Damion, leave your mommy alone, Come play with me downstairs"11

I chuckled softly as he babbled in the nonsense language he is still using,  picked him up and he babbled on incoherently his hand waving around, me nodding away as If i can understand him, every once in a while understanding a word here or there.12

"okay pancakes?"13

He nods giggling and I put him down and grab the ingredients and we start obliterating the kitchen.14

Couple hours later we had a pile of pots pans and dishes... Oh and a plate of pancakes. Damien was making a mess of his breakfast as I attempted clean up. Unfortunately Thersea picked that time to walk down the stairs15

"What the Fu..?"16

"Don't worry babes I'm on clean up, you pick up some pancakes a drink and hit the couch and stay outta my kitchen." I grinned at her17

"Your Kitchen?!" 18

"GO!" I pointed and she shook her head and did as she was told. Damien was giggling away as I looked around the kitchen, it looked like a bomb had hit it, looking over at the giggling kid I laughed, He was covered in flour, and pancake mix, he was gonna need a wash too, I slowly started washing up the pots and pans, cleaning down the worktops. 19

"All this hard work for one plate of pancakes....Still.. It had been fun making the pancakes..."20

My eyes open, and I've collapsed on the stairs, Damien's still screaming..21

"Come on get moving you pussy, she needs you.. he needs you..."22

I drag myself up the wall, swaying on my feet I climb the stairs slowly, I feel weaker than a newborn kitten, walking like one too,or maybe a zombie, a silent shuffling walk climbing the stairs.23

"Go to your room Damien... Go play with your toys. Leave mommy and David alone.."24

She's trying to comfort Damien, I can hear her words echoing down the hallway from her room.. The Hallway seems to stretch out before me growing in length25

"get moving Pussy, before you collapse,"26

I take a step27

"Get moving fatass... Pussy... Coward... Get Moving Fuck face"28

My mind taunts me trying to raise my anger.. 29

"Too tired. Just wanna sleep.. Sleep.."30

My head snaps up as I nearly pass out again, falling against a wall, leaning heavily against it catching my breath, Damien comes out of her bedroom, his face red and puffy from crying, his face lights up as he notices me his arms widen, I put my finger to my lips shushing him, and he giggles secretively, before running over and hugging my leg31

"Uncwel Cwaig!" he whispers softly, mangling my name still bringing a smile.. Despite the pain.32

"Go to your room and play Damien.. I'll come in in a minute.."33

He giggles and runs off to his room to find one of his favourite toys.. 34

"I'm gonna miss that kid"35

I push off the wall and slowly stalk along the hallway.36

I stand at the doorway his whisper words not quite loud enough to hear, but the menace in his voice unmistakable, I flick a small coin through the small gap between the door and the wall, it sails through the gap and cracks against the window,37

"What the fuck was that?" He says38

I crash through the doorway and lurch into a run...39

He turns and fires, a bright flash and It feels like my chest is being crushed, and I remember40

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"Craig I love you, I'll never ever break up with you craig.. The only way you'll lose me is if you break with me.."42

"okay lish.. I love you to hun"43

Bang another shot another flash of light, another memory44

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"Your too nice craig.. You need to treat them meaner.."46

"what ever Mark.. I can't do it. I'm not built that way47

"Craig, being the Knight is gonna get you killed.48

"nah" I laughed " I always survive.. unfortunately"49

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Again he fires and my chest exploding in even more pain but im still moving forward, step by step time is slowing, but I'm still moving closer to him. 51

Bang52

My mum punching and kicking me, I go down like a sack of shit, she is a girl, she is my mum. I can't hit her back.53

"BASTERD!! LITTLE BASTERD!" 54

The only words I can understand in her screaming rantings as I curl into a ball, her fists and feet hitting me again and again, till I become detached from the pain.55

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I'm still moving forward, and with the most recent memory I remember my gift, and forget the pain blazing throughout my body57

Bang58

I met her at her door and we'd spent 5 days together, we enjoyed each other's company, Took her to the movies, she took me out clubbing, Took her son damien to the park and played soccer with him, chased him around played hide and seek. Keeping the lil kid entertained. Enjoying life, and then there was the secretive phone call, I heard his name, 'David' a name that fills me with hatred, for all the things he had done to my friends, to those I fell in love with..59

Pure hatred.60

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Hatred is washing through me now, Pain, Loneliness honor, all building as my right fist clenches ready for one single punch62

Bang63

"there is some one else Craig.. I'm with him now" 64

Meriah, The first65

Bang!66

"Yeah well.. I'm going out with David.. He's changed" 67

Kristina, the pattern emerging..68

Bang!69

"Why Laci? He has shit on everyone, you know this..." Silent tears are forming in my head70

"because.. I love him.. He loves me... He has changed..." 71

Laci. The third72

Bang!73

"Heather whats going on? I thought you loved me.. Thought you wanted me?"74

"I do Craig but.. I love Jesse, your... your my backup" Second best again75

BANG!76

"Look Craig I need you here with me.. Or.. Or I'm gonna keep my options open.." her.. Thersea.. Second best again77

BANG!78

And she returns to my minds eye.. The one I fell in love with, the one I believed, believed enough that I threw the dice, took the chance and came up snake eyes.. Came up second choice as always.. Beautiful beyond compare, mere words never enough to express what she did to me, for me.. Just by loving me.. But she has gone.. Some one else chosen, and I am a lone knight once more.79

BANG!80

Everything building I'm but a step away 81

"One punch Fat ass, Make it count you fucking pussy"82

And I throw everything in that single punch, Pain, Loneliness from throughout the years, Betrayal time after time, the last of my strength, and such a sweet thing it is.83

The perfect uppercut, moving faster than lightening, his eyes widen in fear as he sees just how close I am, firing again point blank but he can't stop this punch. This one last time, I wont be second best to any man.84

My fist explodes into his chin, and he takes off like a rocket, feet rising, head dipping he crashes out the second floor window, glass exploding and cascading like rain around us, and down I go.85

I feel so cold as I feel my knees touch the ground, no strength left I pitch forward I don't even feel the ground as it hits my head86

"Craig!" She screams as I feel her lean over me, She rolls me over into her lap, its getting darker..87

"Wow... it's.. it's.. it's c.c.c.cloudy t.t.t.t.t.t.tonight" My stutter has returned which is never a good sign.88

Thersea looks around and sees the room brightly light by the moonlight, the moon sitting high in a cloudless sky. His skin is deathly cold to touch, looking over his body his chest is just a mess of blood bones and more blood, pumping out slower and slower as her friend's mighty heart slows down.89

"Don't leave me Craig.... please..."90

A ghost of a smile touches his lips..91

"Its okay Thersea.. I always..always.. S.S.S.survive... Unfort....." He goes limp in her arms and she keels over him begging god to save her friend.92

I can barely see, its so damn dark, trying to move my body but too tired.. Maybe later, Thersea is crying.. why she crying she is fine.. No more danger...93

"Don't Leave me Craig.. Please..."94

Whispers forth from her lips, and I smile..95

"Its okay Thersea.. I always..always.. S.S.S.survive... Unfort....."96

I can't finish my sentence as blood bubbles in my mouth.. I guess Mark was right, and as the final darkness comes, and my life flashes before my dead eyes. I smile to myself. I finally fell, and in the silence of death I utter up one last message to the universe.97

"Still mate.. I came first once... And I didn't let the asshole win.."98

Darkness.99

"Im dead aren't I?"100

beep101

"Where am I?"102

beep103

Looking around shaking my head softly trying to clear the cobwebs, when  a small light appears ahead of me. Standing up I feel faint, wobbling steps I try and move towards the light, but its hard, every move feels like im moving through tar104

beep105

"Must keep moving"106

beep107

My breath becomes harder and harder to catch, wheezing feeling weaker and weaker i strive for the light that is just beyond my reach108

beep109

"Can't do it. Too weak. Must.. lay down." I fall down and lay in the darkness.110

beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppp111

"Don't leave me Craig.. Please." A Voice echoes from the darkness, faint and echoing out towards me. But it somehow lifts my spirits and I force myself to my knees, and with a scream of pain I stand, and step by painful step I move closer to the light.112

An ambulance arrived but Craig was barely alive, his breath so shallow it was barely there, his heart beating erratically. Thersea was there holding his hands as the paramedics tried to save her friends life. She kept replaying there conversations over and over, and even though she had betrayed him, he'd still come to her rescue. Suddenly the heart montitor stopped, and the paramedics pushed her aside trying to revive him,113

"Don't leave me Craig.. Please.."114

The heart monitor leaps into life again and she sighs with relief and watches on worriedly, suddenly. Craig's fingers twitched115

Finally reaching the light he could hear sounds of rushing people, found it really hard to breathe, he heard Thersea,116

"Don't leave me Craig.. Please.."117

He tried to laugh but couldn't find the strength, arm slowly raising the paramedics stood back in shock. He slowly pulled off the mask and gasped,118

"I.. Ain't.... going.... Nowhere cutie..." 119

and he smiled, some how it was the smile that did it, but Thersea realised he was gonna be okay..120