silent thunder

I couldn't have met a bigger douchebag, how could I be that big of an idiot. My brain must have been malfunctioning. I wonder if dementia runs in my family? Oh great I get to tell Syria her brother is an assmunch who ripped my heart from my chest, tore it to pieces, and danced on it's grave. Then there's that girl La-something french I hate her. I cant even remember her name but I know I hate her. 1

What the hell am I suppose to do I don't want revenge, I want, I want, I don't know what I want. Whatever it is I know it's not here, not this place, not this now. If I could rewind time I know I'd do every the same. No matter the cost I know that was love. I don't ever not want to have it.2

School's the same, same shit different day. Syria is devastated I think she was more in love with the fact that I was in love. A cool note to this tune of madness my dad called. The funny thing is he didn't bail, my mom did. I have no resentment to him so it's a good thing. He wants me to live with him since I never see him anymore. maybe a new life would be good for me. 3

Syria is pissed but I'm tried of all this crap. Her brother ignores my existence as though his life depends on it. And that La-girl ended up breaking his poor wittle heart. I'm a bitch but Karma's the biggest. Too bad I don't get to see him wither in pain because she didn't just give him a broken heart as a parting gift. 4

Today i say goodye to my life. Finals are over. Thers's no point of going to school any more, I'll miss my friends. but I've said my farewells I don't see the point. I doubt I'll ever see these people again but I guess that comes with new beginings. 5

Yay my life is a lie. I don't get to spend my long summer days with my adoring father I never see. I get to spend it with BiBi my senile grandmother in the middleof.... Fucking Nowhere. 6

I should have seen that coming how is a grown man gonna deal with a 16 year old child he has not seen in years? Who incase the drama did help tell you I'm a troubled teen, I'm also turning into a vampire.7