My Eternal Love,My Stranger

What I'm seeking to do here can only be done in words.I want to tell my story with architecture which only narrative can provide.I want my phrases to hit in full impact upon the reader.1

This story is all me,my story of pain,lose,love misery-and i have no choice but to write this.Than maybe i can live the remainder of my life in peace.I've bared this burden of my life for to long for comfort.2

Know when i start this story it will be fifty years earlier.And i do not want you picturing me as an old hag,with dirty gray hair,plump around the waist,and a wrinkled sunken in face.3

Picture me fifteen years old,with long waist length black hair and big light brown eyes.Picture me with big perky breast of a women.And with big luscious lips of a lover and skin the color of the glow of the moon.4

Know i would like to ask.Who is your hero?5

My hero came just in time.A dark handsome troubled charmer,he glowing with secretive romance,which he gave and received.6

He was true to me, he was my eternal love...7

This is what happened...The tragic story of Emmy Rose Dawson.8

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Buffalo,NY10

June 16,200111

It was early morning,and the sky looked beautiful in all its glory.A shade of blue i had never seen before.12

The sky almost looked as if god himself had painted it with the finest oil pastels in the world.13

The streets below the godsend sky looked regular,busy as always,with its many stores littering the block.14

My house was the only one on the street. A dark house,full of secrets,dark secrets,i will tell you more of this later.15

I saw him come walking down with four of his friends .16

The four boys behind him where rowdy and wild ,talking trash and cussing like hoodlums.17

But he just walked quietly hands in his pocket,head down, a black hat covering his eyes.I had wondered than what color they where?18

They reached the music store across from where my house stood.As his friends walked inside,he gracefully leaned back,arms crossed,against the brick and glass wall,staring directly at my house.19

I was behind the dark burgundy curtains at the long front window.The only large window in the house.A sturdy porch in front of it.20

I was merely standing there watching the people walking by,as i always did for no apparent reason at all.Ever since i moved from southern texas to buffalo twelve years ago with my foster parents, it had become a natural thing to do since i never went outside.21

It isn't easy for someone to see me in the window because the curtains are dark and thick.Yet he saw me,he saw right through me,right through the burgundy curtains,right into my very soul.22

And slowly, as my breath was caught in my lungs and my heart stopping in my chest,he lifted up his long fingered hand and jester-ed a greeting in my direction.Devilishly smiling at me,a wide grin,mocking me,as if he knew i had no friends,knew i was alone. 23

I quickly closed the curtains and put my back to them and sighed out loud.24

But i am a very curious person.And i had never heard the saying"curiosity killed the cat".And anyways i wanted to see his lovely face again.Those pink full unsmiling lips.25

I wondered what his reaction would be.So i slowly peered through the curtains.And there he stood as before,head down,arms crossed unsmiling.26

I remembered his friend had walked out at that very moment.Noisey as before,just this time holding bags.And he turned around slowly walking back from where he came from,the same as he had approached.27

He was medium in hieght,i couldnt tell if he was fat or thin because of his baggy clothes,but he didnt look over weight .I remembered he wore a baggy balck shirt with baggy blue jeans and balack sneakers.28

I watched as he looked at the house once more,and them off he went.29

After i watched him disappear down the street.I,lonely and miserably made my way to my room closing the bedroom door.30

My foster parents where not home.They where at dinner.I didnt want to go because all my foster mother did was nag,she was a church lady  she didn't approve of anything.31

I wondered what my real mother was like.My real mother had died from cancer,i think.I was young,and my foster parents john and Bessie adopted me.32

But i wanted to think about my stranger who noticed me,who seen me and waved.33

My heart lunged in my chest when i remembered his smile.I wondered what color his eyes where.34

As i sat there i heard the door shut down stairs.Thinking it was my parents.I jumped off my bed and ran to the top of the stair well.The front door was in perfect view.35

The man smiling up at me wasn't my father.He had black hair that was unkempt and rock musician long,It was so long that it fell into his cold blue eyes.He wore a faded black shirt and jeans.This man was my uncle,my uncle Howard. The very man who ruined my life.36

The man who had rapped and molested me.And i had stood there afraid and alone.I nearly fainted when he broke the silence.37

"Hello,darlin'"He said with a a perfect southern texas drawl as he motioned me toward him."Emmy come give your uncle a hug"38

He cocked his head back and laughed.39

I dumbfounding walked down the stairs and up too him.As i stood up there i finally realized i felt like running.But my legs wouldn't move.It felt like my feet where glued to the ground.40

My heart screamed for me to run and hide.But like always my mind was paralyzed.I couldn't run,i couldn't hide it would happen just like all the other times.41

I stood there staggering to breath.As he leaned into my face,his foul breathe hot on my cheeks,burning my eyes,ready to kiss me.42

I remember as his lips almost touched mine.A sound of rattling came from the other side of the front door.43

My parents had come home.His attention went from me to the door.And i had took the chance to run up the stairs,looking through the stair case railings as my foster mother walked in the front door spotting him instantly,hugging him, letting out a squeal of joy.44

"Oh Howard,how nice of you to visit." My foster father proceeded behind her.His brown eyes looking up at me.45

"Emmy come down here,i brought you a piece of double chocolate chip cake"46

He held a white Styrofoam box and smiled,the corners of his eyes wrinkling.47

I slowly walked down the stairs keeping my eyes on my uncle and ran into my foster fathers arms.48

"Maybe ill eat it later,I'm ganna go to bed know ok."49

I looked up into his eyes and his expression showed confusion.50

"OK Emmy goodnight"51

I kissed my mother and father on there cheek bidded Howard a fair well and turned up the stairs.52

But i stopped when my mother asked Howard53

"Oh,Howard wont you stay the night"54

I had tightened my grip on the railing.I felt him smile,felt his cold eyes on my back.55

"No Betty,I'm OK ill see you to'marra."56

I continued up the stairs to my room.When i got there i closed the door and layed down on my bed.57

I reached for my light switch on my bed stand and turned it off.I didn't move from my soft bed.I just layed there thinking about that stranger again.And as i lied there thinking i grew tired.Than i slept,perhaps the first time in a long while.And the most vivid dream came to me one ill never forget.58

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chapter260

I dreamt of a dark empty house the only light was that coming from the cracks in the dark blinds.61

The heaven sent light hit the dusty brown floor like a golden waterfall.I walked through the corridor.As i reached the bleak end of the hall,i noticed a golden trimmed mirror had suddenly appeared in front of me.And there i was my round face,my black hair,my shapely body,my dark eyes,and my rose red lips.And as i looked around i realized it wasn't a bad dream after all.I turned around and seen my stranger staring at me smiling.But when i reached out my small hand to touch him he stepped back.Confused,i reached over again to touch him but in my dismay he stepped back again far from my reach.62

So i just stood there looking at him,he still smiling.63

And as i stared i felt myself at the edge of wakefulness.64

And sure enough,as i tryed not to wake up,clinging on trying to stay with my stranger.I awoke to bright sunlight seeping in through the window.I felt as if i was only asleep for an hour,but thus it had been all night. 65

As i got up yawning,and stretching,i didn't bother to change.I was in a white t-shirt and in blue jean hip hugger.I walked over to my vanity and fixed my hair pulling it back into a pony tail two thin strands of bangs falling over my eyes.I grabbed my gold loop earring's,and matching necklace and put them on.I gently slipped on my mother diamond ring.My foster parents gave it to me66

I walked to the corner of my room and slipped on my black Nike's,opened my door and walked down the stairs to the kitchen.67

My foster parents where in there.My mother was cooking breakfast,while my father was reading the news paper.68

"Um,I'm going out ok."i said directing  to them.69

My mother looked at me.Her gray hair was pulled back into a bun and she wore a white dress,old fashion she was."ok,dear be back before 11 o'clock"70

I nodded before walking out the front door.71

As i walked out the cool summer breeze hit me with much pleasure.The sun shined nice and bright just like yesterday.It felt good to get out of that house.It felt good to smell the fresh new air.And as i walked down the street i prayed to see my stranger once more.72

I walked all the way to the park and sat down on the park bench leaning my head back closing my eyes letting the heat of the sun warm my face.I had almost fell asleep when i felt someone sit down next to me.There thigh gently touching mine.73

I opened my eyes and looked at the person.My heart had stopped,i couldn't believe my eyes.The very person who was sitting next to me was my stranger he leaning forward elbows on his knees looking straight ahead,his black hat over his eyes.His full pink lips unsmiling.Today he wore a grey shirt and black baggy jeans and grey nikes. the hat made his face look darker than it was.74

The breeze blew and his sent floated to my attention.He smelled so appealing i felt the urge to lean over and filling my nostrils with his lustful sent.But all i did was close my eyes enjoying his wonderful erotic scent. I opened my eyes and watched his lips form words as he spoke.75

"Your the girl i saw in the window yesterday"76

His voice was smooth and calm,but rough at the same time.A singers voice77

"Y..yes i am."I replied afraid to speak.I had wondered what he thought about me.78

"Whats your name?Mine is omar melendez."79

I hesitated for a second before replying.80

"Emmy Rose Dawson."81

He looked at me and smiled.I thought my heart would never beat again.82

"So do you come out often?"He looked at me.83

"Ah,no not really."84

My breath got caught in my throat as i watched him bite his lower lip."Hey wanna go someplace?"85

I hesitated,going somewhere with someone i didn't know.But as he got up standing tall over me i realized it was time i start taking chances.He slowly held out his hand .The same hands that had waved at me the other day.I gently placed my hand on his and how it was soft but calloused above his palm.I had wondered what from,and as if reading my mind he answered my question as my finger tips gently grazed the calloused spot.86

"From holding the microphone to tightly." 87

So he was a singer!I thought as i smiled.He gently closed his big hand over my small and brought me up to my feet,i only reaching as tall as his chin."Where are we going chase?"88

He laughed leading me to are destination."Don't worry em,i wont hurt you,i promise."89

He had called me em!oh how glorious he was already my friend.I thought as we reached a tall brick apartment building.90

"Why are we going here."91

He opened the door leaving my question to linger in the summer air.He lead me down some dark stairs .And the faint sound of music floated to my ears."Music..."I whispered as he opened the doors.And the four friends i saw the other day where in the middle of the basement room surrounded by instruments playing.92

One of the boys with black faded hair  walked up to us he was of color as the rest."So you found her"93

I suddenly felt scared as all the boys started to approach me.I looked at omar nervously.And him sensing my uneasiness he tighten his grip on my hand.94

"Emmy this is bobby,anthony ,rick and Noah were all rappers and singers ."95

I nodded my head at them as omar handed me something.I looked down to see i was holding a microphone."Whats this?"96

Omar lead me over to the middle of the instruments."Can you sing this line here for me."he said handing me a piece if paper.i was stunned by the question.I mean yeah i sang with the radio when my favorite song came on.But by myself that was different.97

"Uh,omar..i don't sing."98

omar told them to play a beat."Em go ahead,i trust you."99

There was no turning back.I cleared my throat and sang the line." if i should go,would you even know.What if i turned to walk away would you call me and ask me to stay."Everyone was staring at me.Omar had a big smile on his face."Perfect em,just perfect."100

I smiled i actually did a good job.101

"Know omar i wanna hear you sing."He smiled102

"Ok, but i rap."103

The guys started to play another beat.Before he started to sing he handed me his hat."I hate singing with me hat on."He looked me in the eyes and the where absoulty amazing a shade of honey brown i had never seen before.104

I listened as he sang" i."His voice was amazing,beautiful i felt his pain hit me as if i was the one hurt.I felt his emotions float into me.When he stopped i felt like screaming"sing,chase,sing"105

"Well,that's all we got...what do you think?"106

I was speechless but i managed to speak.107

"It was absolutely amazing.your voice flows so beautifully with the beat.It was amazing,you are amazing,you all i mean."108

He smiled down at me.He laughed and took his glasses."Hey you wanna have some lunch.i glanced up at the clock it read 10:00,I might as well.109

"Uh,ok but i have no money."110

Chase smiled"Don't worry i have enough money."111

Once again he took my hand leading us to are next destination his friends following behind.112

When we once more stepped outside i noticed the sky had changed.It was darker and had a drowsy dusty look to it.I had wondered why it changed.As me and chase walked down the street hand-in-hand I glanced across the street i saw a man and women holding hands kissing.I had wondered why than,me and chase where holding hands,did he wish to kiss me.113

"Chase where are we going?"114

My question was answered when we walked into a club called "The Basement".When we walked in it was dark,the only lights where back lights.So my eye had to adjust to the darkness.115

As i looked around i noticed i did not fit in at all.All these people where in black.The girls wore baggy pants or skirts,with a bunch of chains hooked up to them.The had dark make up,fish nets and nee high boots.116

Any other girl would have frowned in disgust but me i smiled.Black makeup was awesome i longed to wear that stuff.117

As i slowly looked around i felt chase release his hand from mine.I watched him walk up to a girl and kiss her,not a light hello kiss a erotic kiss,where his lips where everywhere at once.118

She had short red hair it was shorter in the back than it was in the front.She had on a black skirt with a silver belt draped around it and a black fish net shirt over a black bra.She wore fish net stockings and black nee high boots.119

i felt hurt,but there was nothing i could do.As i stood there watching chase lead the girl towards me.He gently took my hand."Lina this is Emmy,Emmy this is Lina."120

Lina examined me.Walking around.121

"Hum.. chase says you can really rock."122

I looked at her confused as chase whispered in my ear."Sing"123

Lina stopped in front of me."But you don't look it"124

Chase gave her a ugly look."I'm going to get some drinks."He walked away leaving me alone with Lina."So chick whats with the get up."125

I looked at my clothes."ah..its all i have to wear.I was wondering..can you..can..?"126

Lina crossed her arms."Get it out."127

"I you can give me a decent make over?"I almost said pleading.128

She gave me a look."ahh..why the bunny not.I live right upstairs and you look just about my size.Come on doll lets go."129

She grabbed my hand leading me upstairs closing her door.130

Her room was painted black with rock band posters littering the wall.Her bed was a four poster with black sheets and canopy.131

"Ok doll,lets see sit down here."She pointed to the chair and i sat down."OK nice black hair,dark eyes.I think we can make this happen."132

She turned me around facing the mirror and started doing my hair.She took black chopsticks and started weaving them into my hair into two flips on the sides of my head.She sprayed alto of hairspray causing me to sneeze.I thought this would be the perfect time to ask about her and chase.133

'ah..Lina..are you and chase..going..ah."I stopped.134

"Going out."she said finishing my question."no,we just fool around..why you like him..."She smiled.135

"Ah..,oh no not at all."136

She laughed."look doll face..he likes you..i can tell by how he looks at you,how he doesn't do anything more than touch your hand.If you were just a regular he'd have you up in his bed at this moment."137

I squirmed in my seat."Really,you really think so."138

She twisted me around facing her pulling out some black make up."yea..now stayed still ok."139

I did thinking about what she had said.He actually liked me.i thought as she started putting red lipstick on my lips.140

She told me to look up as she put eyeliner on me.And lip liner.141

Finally when the make was all done i looked in the mirror i didn't even recognize myself i looked so pretty so grown up.142

"Know time for the clothes,Thank god you don't need a bra mines to small for yeah,oh and no pants your puts hug,ok this skirt."she said rummaging through her closet throwing a black skirt at me with silver chains draping down the sides.She threw me a red top that was low revealing just how big my breast where.She then handed me some black combat boots.143

After i was done i remember looking in the mirror stunned."Wow."144

she grabbed my arm.'Ok lets go,look i promise i wont touch chase anymore but you have to get him to kiss you deal."145

I thought about it."ok..deal."146

We entered down stairs.147

"Hey you morons.look her this is the new and improved Emmy.'148

she shouted as everyone stared.I seen chase and his face was priceless.He looked at me so hard i thought he might give me a bruise.149

Lina left me and i walked down,guys saying things as i did.I went to go up to chase when a big man stood in front of me."hey gurly,wanna go to my place."150

i shook my head trying to get around him.But he blocked my way grabbing my wrist."Hey let go."151

i remember chase grabbing me and pushing the guy."Stay off of my girl alright don't let me see you touching her again"152

chase held me closer.153

"Chase..I'm sorry..i..didn't know."154

the man left us and chase looked at me."wow you look great,not that you looked bad before."155

He was close to my face know.I say out of the corner of my eye Lina watching.but i didn't want to do it because we beat ed i wanted to do it because i wanted to.156

Are lips grew closer and i felt my heart quicken.His full lips brushing mine."Emmy is it ok if i kiss you."i nodded taking off his glasses. and as his lips touched mine i felt the heat rise in me.Feeling like i never had before.His lip ring felt smooth on my lips.And i nearly melted when i felt his tongue touch my lips begging me to open to him.I opened my lips and his tongue slowly touched mine.Caressing my tongue and i a quick learner started to caress his to spreading fire between us.Even through the loud music i heard him moan deep in his throat.And that had sent butterflies to a place forbidden.His hands went from my hips to my face as he held me and tilted his head to the side seeping the kiss.He kissed me hungrily,wanting me,i burned for him.My skin feverish,my for head sweating,i new i wanted him.I wanted him more than just with me,but something i at fifteen should never think about.157

I felt his body trembling.And i had wondered what for.Hes kissed many girls but my mere touch made him tremble.I smiled in the inside and wanted to drive him crazy.So i ever so gently bit his lip while moaning.Chases hand came down my back to cup my bottom as he pressed me close rubbing his hardness into my stomach.I gasped in his mouth.158

And i remember know that he had pulled away.Taking his hat on and putting it back on.His lips red from lipstick.159

"I'm sorry em i did160