Forever [Lexias]

Forever is something no one can even comprehend. Everything must come to an end. The planet, our universe, the sky, and every living person must die. Forever is something that no can grasp, and not many can understand. Sometimes, forever scares people. They find an end rather comforting. But for others, such as myself, forever is a gift.1

I wanted forever. I've always wanted forever. Constantly striving and reaching to live forever. I couldn't help myself, I couldn't help but to want to achieve my goals. Even as my mind, body, and friends were telling me 'No', my soul pressed me forward. Further and further until I reached my destination. Even then, I had doubts. 2

When it had happened, I experienced the worst pain of my life. I crawled myself into a deserted alley, and stayed there. When it was happening, I couldn't defend myself. The pain, the fucking pain. It wouldn't fucking /stop/. No matter how much I wanted it to. I almost understood why he didn't want me to do it. It felt like my soul was being ripped out of my body.3

I remained helpless in the alley until the transformation was finally over. 4

When I had awoken, I immediately noticed the smell. The scent that made my taste buds go wild. I craved the human race. My thoughts became simple and short. All I knew is that I wanted to drink their blood, and it would be mine.5

Without second though, I feasted. I thought I wouldn't regret anything. I wanted to spend my life out with these-- Delicious people.6

Two weeks later, I finally decided I should go back home. I spent all my time thinking, and wondering. I knew everyone would be angry at me, I knew that for a fact. But if I didn't come back, they might try to find me, right? Or would they not even care enough to go and look for me?7

Going back was not something I was excited for. I feared it more then anything. What would my father think? What would my mother do? 8

They'd never accept me as I am. (Well, as what I decided to become.) For, I am a monster. I am a pale, blood-thirsty, heartless, monster. And I shouldn't be allowed to live.9

And for the first time in my life, forever is scaring me.