My Biggest Regret

Back around late September, my mom went out of town for a week. Everyday, I would go to my dad's house at 5:30, giving me roughly 3 free hours at home. On the monday that week, it began as a normal lunch. However, a new girl came to sit with the group that day. Her name was Genevieve. We talked that lunch and later online. Before I knew it, we were having strong feelings for each other. It was going fast; too fast. That wednesday, I brought her home with me. I already knew that she was a slut, people had told me, and I already knew that we were going to fuck, but I didn't care. For the better part of my life, I had been ignored and rejected by girls. I had that one chance, and so I seized it without hesitation. As soon as we got home, we started making out. First base went to second base, and then to third, all in the course of fifteen minutes. Then, we went up to my room. I wasn't entirely sure of what to do, but I wasn't a stranger to porn, so I did have a general idea of how to do it. A little less than an hour later, I came inside a girl for the first time, but I thought it was supposed to feel amazing. Instead of feeling great, I felt a heavy weight deep down inside my chest. That unbearable, heavy sense of dread is a feeling that I will never forget. We went on dating for a few months, even though she cheated on me roughly six or seven times. I don't know why, maybe just because we had sex, I felt a connection that wasn't really there. By January, when I turned 16, I realized how much of a mistake I had made. I had thrown away something I was never going to get back, and I threw it away to a whore. I was so caught up in "becoming a man" that I didn't care about what I lost until it was gone. I was not a man when I lost my virginity. I am a man now that I know that I shouldn't have thrown away something so special, but I suppose that is life; learning. For those of you out there who still have your virginity, I ask you to wait. Whether it be before or after marriage, it doesn't matter, I just ask you to wait until you have someone special who you love that you truly wish to give it to.