In the song "One Thing" by Finger Eleven, it asks if you would trade all for something, what would it be?1
For me, it didn't take me long. Actually it took me about 3 seconds just to think of it. My dad.2
Yes, I would trade everything I have. My prized possessions, all of them, just to have my father back. 3
See, what happened is that he died June 20, 2002 of Colon Cancer. I was there when he died. I saw him take his last breath. I am still in mourning and I will never ever get over it.4
It's been a year and five months since I lost my father, and when people say, 'Oh my gosh Danielle I am so sorry,' I try not to answer. I hate talking about it. It brings back the horrible memories of him dying. And if I have the courage to talk to someone about it after they say that whole, "I'm so sorry," thing, I reply by saying:5
"Why do you feel sorry for me? I mean, I hate not having my dad around to talk to all the time, but why do you feel so bad for me? My dad is in a better place and I am happy for him."6
Picture this, your stuck on Chemo. Therapy for a few months. Afterward, you have to have surgery to get the tumor taken out of you. Then your stuck in a hospital for a few days eating jello. Then you go home. Doctors checking you for about 5 times a month and checking to see if you're doing okay afterward.7
Would you love to live like that for the rest of your life? I am glad that my dad is in a happier place where he can be free of any pain. He doesn't have to live like we do now. How we worry what people think about us or what people are saying about you (even though my dad didn't really care). 8
But I would trade it all for my dad to come back to me. Even if I had to risk my life doing it, I would. I would do anything for my dad and he would do anything for me.9
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i really enjoyed reading your opinions.. and ya know, i know i've said i'm sorry in the past, and my explaination for people saying they are sorry is... they dont know what else to say... it does make for an akward situation for someone to have. ~rachel
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Thank you SO MUCH FOR UNDERSTANDING ME!! All of you. I hate when people are like I am so sorry. It drives me crazy! My dad is in a better place and I am so happy for him. Thank you for all the comments you have posted. I really appreciate it!
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Losing a loved one is the single most horrible thing in the world. No one should feel pain like that, but I hate that everyone will at some point. But, it shouldn't be to people so young. I don't feel pity for you, because I hate pity and I don't want people to pity me. But I am sypathetic to your loss and I hope you have the strength to make it though. Luck and happiness in life to you and I hope you can be at peace.
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this is really touching. it really makes people think about what is truly important in life. i'm so very sorry for your loss, it's really hard to deal with, but you're right. better to be in a good place, than stuck in the hospital in pain. i don't have a really close connection with my family, but this really made me think that i should. it really puts people back into perspective. this was really well done, and i hope that it only made you stronger to write something positive about a difficult time in your life. thanks for sharing
-disturbed
p.s. thanks for commenting on my poem, "Sympathy". to answer your question, it was written about a friend of mine. he's always an inspiration for anger poems these days... -
After reading this I don't know what TO say.... I never REALLY felt pain before....no death's,pets yea but it's not the same...
I love how you were able to,put on paper or a websight whatever* how you REALLY felt about this........I wish that I could do the same *WRITING NOT THE DEATH THING!!!* Also reading this touching piece I feel really guilty for wanting,all the time, for my WHOLE FAMILY TO JUST DROP DEAD!!!!!! So all I can say is I'm sorry for what you are going through. And if times ever get tough for you,I want you to know, that I will *mostly* ALWAYS lend BOTH my ears to lission to your problems. I will try to help you out,and if I can not help....my friends *family troubles too* WILL help you until you get through it.....
Love ya stranger,
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there's real emotion here, young friend. keep being true to yourself and you shant go wrong. i've lost a family member to cancer as well. she never had a 'normal' life due to her health problems. it's thinking of things in these terms that keeps me grounded.
i commend you for taking your emotions and creating something positive like poetry and sharing it on this site.
if i had a list of favorite albums/bands on my page, one of them would be 'stop making sense' by the talking heads.
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I know what you feel like. Two people I know died from cancer. A friend, Kyle, who was about ten years old, and Kameryn, who was twelve. I remember how mad I was, because my parents wouldn't take me to his funeral, because it was during school hours.
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I know you're gonna hate it, but I'm sorry that you lost your dad.
I am gonna say I'm glad that he is in a better place, and it's great that you can put your emotions down on paper. Best wishes to you and your family. Keep writing, you're pretty good.
Amanda
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