I'll always be there watching over you...

I stared at my computer hard, grateful my Mum hadn't come in so far since I'd logged on. Yes, I admit I looked a complete lunatic. I chatted to a few people quickly, but my eyes never left him. I wasn't sure why, but part of me knew if I took my eyes of him and he collapsed and hit himself on the way down it would all be my fault. There in front of me was Ricci. My ex-boyfriend, my best mate but most of all he was like part of me.1

It started years ago when Ric's and my eyes first met across a crowded classroom- sounds so romantic, eh? Well it wasn't, we hated each other with a vengeance. We used to make fun of each other and were to competitive to with in any aspect of our lives. But soon this pulled us together and after he asked me out a minimum of 5times I finally said yes. Wow what a couple made in heaven you think? Well wrong again, as I said before he was my ex boyfriend for a reason. We split up in a few days because well I was going through a few problems at the time and didn't really like him like that, he was the nice guy, he was too sweet to ever like, like that.2

Years passed quickly as me and Ric put aside the failed relationship and became best mates. He came to me for advice and we were always there for each other if we knew the other was hurting. I would have run a hundred miles if I knew he was sick just to hug him. Just to let him know I was always there for him. And over these few years boy did he change. He became one of the most fanciable boys in our year. He was cheeky, fun, full of surprises, a great laugh and finally he would do such stupid stuff and make me feel so special and rebellious at the time I grew to like him more and more. 3

We were close yet again to going out, but things always got in the way, maybe for the best I suppose. I realised as time went on though that if we went out again it would totally ruin things and I knew he had problems and was pretty screwed up. I knew that he had issues with girls cheating on him that ripped him apart. But I also knew that every time as he got to a new base he got more and more confident and he didn't care about being loyal to a girl anymore, he didn't care about anything except himself and finally me. It look me a while to realise that he cared about me so much, but after a while I realised he loved me like only a best friend could. I realised that he would always be there for me, and I would always be there for him. Though a lot of my girl mates insulted him for various reasons I stuck by him because I knew that he was more loyal to me than any of my girl friends were. I knew that I could trust him with whatever life brought me.4

So that's why I was here, sitting at a computer with numb legs and numb feet. I watched him on web cam sleeping softly now, but for how much longer I thought. He was drunk beyond drunk and had fell asleep at the computer after slurring out random words to me for half an hour. It wasn't totally fault. He was really sick with a virus and I could see the anguish on his face that had caused him to drink. I want so much to run over there and hug him close to me so that he felt no pain and he knew I believed he could fight this virus. But alas it's way to far to run or walk and with no transport I'm stuck here, watching, waiting. It's two o'clock but I know that I have to watch over him in case he collapses and hits his head. I know I must be here for when he wakes up dazed and confused to calm him down and make sure he's okay. I'll always be there to watch over him. I'll always be there to make sure he stays safe. Even now as I look at his long ginger eyelashes brush against his cheeks softly in his sleep I could tell that I could never leave him, I could never loose him. We have a connection that I just can't explain... We almost have bonded minds that make us know when the other is in pain, we know how to cheer each other up but most importantly we know when the other just needs a hug and to sit there without talking, just sitting there...5