Every morning when I woke up I knew how my day would go. I had rituals to manage my sanity... sort of. Everyone does what they need to do to forget who and where they are.1
At 5am my alarm went off. I took 3 to Vivarin of ephedrine depending on what I could get at the time. My 6am I was ready for a few shots of gin & school. Of course I couldn't forget to take my Zoloft before shuffling through the snow to the bus stop and smoking a cigarette. Couldn't forget the damn Zoloft. According to the doctor that would help make me normal. Doctor's are fucks.2
Friends are great. They make you feel like your own the world By 10am I'm bouncing with joy jumping on my friends for a piggyback ride. By 10:10 I'm in the girls room smoking & cutting because I didn't understand the bio class work. Damn class. I didn't get anything. Nothing ever goes right for me. I'll probably fail this year. I head home in miserly to continue cutting to forget and drinking to sleep. 3
Tommorows just one more day...4
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I actually thought they'd help me for a long time but despite the fact that Zoloft gave me violent mood swings they upped me to the maximum legal dosage. I didn't ask. I flushed and told them what was up. I stopped cutting etc with the help of friends.
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Try Psycho Drama...it worked wonders for me. Then again, I was looking for resolution, and was fed up with wallowing.
Zoloft is like wearing your head in a vise. At least for me, it was. I chose creativity over stability.
My psych agreed. Then again, he knew I'd tell him to go fuck himself if he didn't
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The Docs told me if I'd continued the heavy substance abuse and other abusive habits I might eventually split. It felt like being two diffferent people everyday. Thank you everyone for commenting on my work. I'm ok now and don't worry Tigress. I make it a point to learn something new everyday, usually about health or techology.
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this is very well written. it's sad though. someone who is suicidal. it is a way too common problem. i hope that people realize that there are lots of people that love them that will be hurt badly if they kill themselves. the only thing though, it's kind of big, i don't get what it was to do with my contest. yes, it's a good story, but it doesn't seem to have anything to do with my contest.
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This is a bit of a wake up call to parents. Any child in this much pain needs serious help, not just medication.But very well written, thank you for sharing.
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A life is a story.
If it is said in the write that there is nothing left in the life..and if it is said in the write that there is not hope left for the native..Then I am not agreed..The example with a atmosphere which is given in the write may be correct and the area which the main character of the write is touching may be disappointing for him too..but I find the hopefull espects in this write are very much..The quality of the writing a good script with logical description shows a very brilliant mind..And a brilliant mind can change any darkness into a shining light too. The story is very impressive and scripted very effectevely too. I really appreciate this work.prabhiudayal khattar -
hey Im not trying to be critical but honestly I love homework I will do your homework lol I havnt been in school for 2 yrs know but I loved it. I was also a cutter and Im manic depressive and bi polar. I cant help you on the cutting thing how I quit is I had a baby, and he is my life now not my own selfish exsistince. as for the drinking I cant help with either, Ive never bin a real big drinker, but helping you get through skool I definatly can. I believe education made my life better, im only 19 and have a wonderful family, a beautiful home and a well paying job, and currently enrolling into college to study law... so keep me in mind ok...
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