Inner life. (pt.1)

1

The sun is sinking slowly behind the houses and lampposts that line the quiet streets, making the Aqua-blue sky come alive with colors of gold and violet.2

I stand out on the lawn, leaning against a Weeping Willow in the cool of the evening. In spite of the peaceful calm that surrounds me, my heart pounds with anger.3

I had another terrible argument with my parents, they don't understand.4

They never will.5

My dad keeps saying that I have a smart-ass mouth, but he won't take the time to consider why I've grown up that way.6

I let out a deep sigh, willing the bad feelings away, I look up at the clouds and notice for the first time that they look like a vibrant fire in the sunset.7

A smile tugs at the corner of my mouth, I haven't smiled for a long time, I feel a familiar innocence coming towards me, like the presence of an old friend.8

And then I see her.9

She stands in front of me with a wide grin, a mirror image of myself, she is radiant with joy and a brilliant happiness flows from her.10

She is wearing silk-white clothing and she comes closer to me, her arms wrap around me in comfort and she whispers a gentle reassuring in my ear, like a mother calming her child in the darkness.11

I feel amazingly peaceful and safe, and I realize that she is a part of me, her radiance and beauty, reflecting the girl I once was.12

I long to stay like this forever.13

Wrapped in glorious innocence.14

But then I recognize my mother's voice, calling me in from the kitchen window, the beautiful girl disappears and is replaced by a cold-hearted, angry one who is garbed in black. She has an unreadable expression and a certain violence emanates from her.15

She places her hands hard on my shoulders and a heavy cloud of darkness swallows up every last piece of brightness the might've seeped it's way to my soul. My mask of anger returns and I slowly make my way back to the house.16

An eternal burden has been wedged in my heart, if my mask should overcome me, bitterness will be my only personality, and I won't be able to go back.17