My friend (chapter 2)

"We are all all gathered here today. To morn a beautiful young lady. We will never know what drove her to this desperate act for her own personal happiness......"1

Yea we really will never know what she was really feeling. As the priest started, I tried my hardest to hold back tears. She was my special girl, but i had to think what Melissa was going through.  She was her best friend, I was her boyfriend. I saw Melissa crying in Mike's arms, only making me feel worse that i couldn't be a good friend. We weren't all all that of a good term, always in fights over what Ashlie needed and who would be there for her. But here in the surreal reality, it didn't feel right. 2

It also didn't feel right sitting next to Malinda but i bared with it. I wasn't here to worry about our issues, I was here to say my final goodbye's to my fallen angel. I can't help but feel anger. I wanted to scream at her ' Why'd you leave without any goodbye's? Why'd you run? Why'd you hide? Why'd you have to die? Why?' I want to stay strong, and Be fine. But i can't.  not with her gone. 3

Slowly tears came. I just wanted to know if she was alright. In a better place then she felt here. I just wanted to know.4

I felt a presence by me. I could feel cold hands over mine, but i wasn't afraid. Brought a comfort. Like she actually was answering me. Telling me she was fine, Like in the old days......5

It was after school, as usual she came over to my house and we just stayed there until she wanted to go home. sitting in the couch watching TV. I knew there was something weird going on as soon as we left English. I couldn't put my hand on it. She looked so beautiful to me today. well not only today, but everyday.6

"Can i tell you anything Jake? And if you say yes don't get made at what I'm going to tell you."7

"Yea..." wondering what she meant by that. She's never asked the before, so i was afraid.8

"Ummm there's a problem" 9

I looked into her beautiful blue eyes trying to figure out what was going on in her little head. I didn't know there was a problem. "What do you mean"10

Starting to cry."Well-" cut short with my front door opening. My mom was home early. She walked in, smiled, and almost tripped on my little brothers purple barney toy. 11

"Shit" looking around. "O sorry. How are you Ashlie? Jake..... can you go get the groceries from the car?"12

"yea mom" I left them there for a few minutes, coming in and out, seeing my mom talk to her. Sometimes laughing. Sometimes silent. I never understood what they were talking about, but it caused Ashlie to leave. I never found out what she wanted to tell me.  And surely never will.13

Leaving without a word, she grabbed her things and walked down the street towards the school. She didn't kiss me as usual, didn't give me a hug. nothing. I guessed she had something to finish up there and didn't want to go. Maybe that's why she didn't say a word. 14

God. That was the day our lives changed for good. I still wondered what my mom said. I still had questions, but would never get an answer. Not any time soon. I wanted my baby girl back so much. I wanted to smell her hair again. Wanted to hold her close, making sure she never left my house. I wanted to love her again, but i guess that wasn't happening any time soon either.15