I walked home from another dreadful day at school, and finally made it home. I just wanted everything to be over with. Nothing matters to me, I don't matter to anyone, i don't HAVE anyone. Ever since that "day".....2
Hi, I'm Nikki, Nikki Solstice. Weird name? Well that sucks! I'm 17 and ill be blowing out the candles on October 13th ( Authors Note- October 13th Is My birthday, so i decided to have the characters b-day the same as mine
) Theres really not much to say about me, im just an average emo girl. One word to describe my life. Hell. Ever since the age of 14, for me, my life has been a living hell. Why, you ask? Well I'll explain that with a flashback.3:::::::
LASHBACK 3 YRS AGO:::::::::4" Dad, You have been smoking for like 20 years now, when are you ever going to stop?" I looked up at my fathers, wrinkled, and worried face.5
" Nikki, sweetie, Its just an addiction for me, I cant stop, but i Promise i WILL try" I shook my head in disappointment. I just couldn't take this anymore. I let out a big sigh and pretended this wasn't happening.6
" Thats what you promised me TWO YEARS AGO! DON'T YOU GET IT? YOU ALREADY HAVE LUNG CANCER! DON'T MAKE IT WORSE!!" I had just realized that i made a mistake by yelling at my father. I muttered a "sorry" and looked back up at him. He sighed. I was afraid. Afraid for him, he shouldn't smoke with lung cancer ESPECIALLY not when we are BOTH in the car. 7
" I...im sorry, i cant" I glared. I was furious, but i decided not to say anything. If he wanted to ruin his life, than fine. I took one look at him. I just couldn't take it anymore. 8
It was pouring outside and there was a tornado alert. It was almost IMPOSSIBLE to drive, anyone could get in a car accident in this type of weather. I looked at my dads ciggerate...I had the temptation to do one thing.9
I Tried to grab the ciggerate from my dads hand. 10
" WHAT ARE YOU DOING NICOLE! LET GO! NICOLE BRYNN SOLSTICE!"11
I kept going at it, and going, when finally my dad dropped it...on his lap.. He screamed, I heard tires screeching, and in a matter of seconds we where upside down... 12
" I wish you where never born" WHere the last words he muttered. We where both under the car, and it was getting harder to breath.13
" dad? Dad? Hello? DAD!" I screamed and i heard sirens coming closer and closer, but at the same time my consiousness was slipping away. I cant let this happen to my dad! I tried to move, in the odd poition i was in. I was stuck, and i couldnt do anything about it.14
" Im sorry dad" I took a last look at him with tears streaming down my face, along with the rain. I could feel the broken glass slicing its way into my skin. I looked at his bloody face...one more time...Before everything became black...my fault..15
:::::::::::END OF FLASHBACK:::::::::::::16
It was my fault. My fault he died. I was lucky enough to survive, why couldn't god just take ME away? It was my fault anyways.. My mom told me it wasn't my fault, but i kept blaming myself. I would look at my scar, everyday, than i would cut little dashes into my arms. Each little dash standing for, how many days since the crash, and when i would run out of room, i would move my othewr arm, untill i couldnt cut anymore. I sighed and stood up, Grabbing the picture of my father. I had long black hair, and fair skin, i was pretty skinny. My eyes are light brown..not really much to me. I could hear my mom calling me. I put the picture down, and ran down the stairs.17
" yea, mom? what is it?" im a single child, with no friends. my mom usually doesnt talk to me, unless its something really important. I looked into her eyes. She was the complete opposite of me. 18
" honey..IM GETTING MARRIED!" she screeched, and squeeled. i JUST BLOCKED MY EARS AND pretended she was not there. "whatever" i muttered. Her happiness died down, and i shrugged. Oh wel, whatever... 19
I made my way upstairs and jumped into my bed. What would my step dad be like? Would he abuse me? would he get drunk? Does he have kids? How will my siblings be? UQestions kept racing through my mind and it was getting annoying. I took medicine and went to bed. I slowly drifted off into sleep..20
" Nikki!" I woke up to the sound of a VERY unfamiliar voice/
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