Christopher.

Breathing in sequence1

I can see our breath.2

You remark about a time3

When you didn’t feel so small.4

You touched my hand5

Wanted to hold6

Just to know that7

I believed in you.8

I believe in you.9

It was freezing but10

You were intent11

On laying in the grass12

Remembering the day when13

We first met.14

You were cute and15

I was a mess and16

We laughed with each other.17

You wrote poetry about running18

Running, running as far as you could19

For the girl you loved.20

You wrote poetry about the life21

You loved so dearly.22

We were shivering but23

As long as your heart was24

Beating next to mine I knew25

That warmth was in the world.26

There was a moment when27

The obvious struck like lightning28

When your poetry faded till you29

Burned like a cigarette and30

The only thing that calmed you down31

Was screaming till you slept.32

You wrote long poetry and you33

Dyed your hair black, you smoked cigarettes34

And you tried so hard for the life you35

Once had.36

We lay here now and know that37

Neither of us are the same person38

We were when we met.39

You aren’t the cute boy that I40

Talked to till the gold sun rose.41

I’m not the girl who is42

In such a mess that she43

Can’t even breathe.44

You are gorgeous now and I’ve45

Got control.46

Together we can47

Breathe in sequence.48

I will hold your hand and49

We will meet again.50

And I will always love you.