i will never find another

The first 2 weeks were great, i met so many old friends, some have really changed, some havn't at all. I spent most of my time with my step sister Rebecca a.k.a Becky. We went out on the first Sunday I was back in England with her boyfriend James, my old friend Hayleigh and her boyfriend Chris, it was a bit of a drag being the only single one, but it was fun.1

But no matter how many good nights I have, the 12th will always be the most memorable.2

My aunt Susan was in a rutt because I made her drive me into Goole which was 10 miles from where she lived, I had to get some shoes before I went out, so when I finished my little shopping spree, I went to meet Becky from work. 3

'Hiya love, you alright?' she welcomed.4

'Yeah fine thanks,'5

'Good. Can you do me a favour and give Hayleigh a ring from the phonebox outside?'6

'Yeah no problem, I'll be back in a minuit.'7

I walked outside, \this is my home\, I thought, I asked myself again and again why I wanted to leave, not being able to find an answere.8

Hayleigh didn't answere her phone, so when Becky finished her shift, we went to her house. She spent about 2 hours getting ready, she spent ages on her hair, she hasn't changed at all.9

We had just finished getting ready and James came in. He brought his friend Ross with him, I should have known he was up to something, bringing a single friend with him. First glance at Ross I didn't really think much, he wasn't the hotest thing in the world, but he was so tall, 6'5 if I'm correct. 10

'You alright?' James asked me.11

'Yeah,you?'12

'Yeah fine, I'm just going to the toilet ok bex.'13

'Alright babe,' She answered.14

The 2 of them were completely in love, no matter how much go's wrong in their relationship, they always seem to work it out, it's great to see them together.15

'Oh yeah, Shawna this is Ross and Ross, this is Shawna,' She introduced, there was the normal awkwardness between us when we first met. We shook hands but didn't say much.16

When James finished in the bathrom, we got a ride from Becky's gran into Howden, the next town across. 17

I was there the Sunday before, we went into the Crown and White Horse, after a few drinks together, the awkwardness between me and Ross faded and we got to know each other a bit. He didn't live in Goole, he lived about an hour away from there but James and him had been friends since school, after a few drinks and pictures, we went back into Goole. We went into a club called the jail house, it was a bit ratty but the music and crowd was great. By this time all of us were really drunk. 18

Becky and James went off dancing together, leaving me and Ross. He reached over and put his hand on my bum, I was so drunk I couldn't have cared, so I just looked at him and smiled, so he leaned over and wispered in my ear 'Can I kiss you,'19

I turned my head to him and leaned forward, he was a great kisser, aftwer breaking from what seemed to be a dream, he asked me to dance.20

I met James and Becky on the dance floor, they both had big grins on their faces, I just smiled at them and turned and put my hands around Ross kneck. I pulled him down for another kiss, our lips re-united and I realized how much I actually liked him. I put my hands in his back pockets and moved closer to him, I noticed a few more guys around us looking at me, so i put my head down and allowed my hair to cover my face, I wasn't about to dance with anyone else.21

When It got late, we headed back to James house. We walked through the pedestrianised part of town. I know they weren't intentionally acting like idiots, it was the booze; James and Ross started doing handstands and cartwheels in the middle of town, I sat on the floor and rested my head against the lampost, I was happy.22

As soon as we got there, I fell on the couch ready to sleep, but Ross wouldn't let me. He kept me up and said 'If you fall asleep, we won't be able to see each other.' so I stayed awake.23

Rebecca and James were off doing there own thing, making a whole load of noise and walking round naked, me and Ross just lay on the floor. He tried a lot of thing I wasn't comfortable with, and he stopped, everything he did seemed to make me fall even harder for him. I was layed on the floor, everyone was undressed in some way or another, Ross was on his hands and knees leaning over top of me, he flashed a smile, that was it, i was his, he looked so great and he wasnt expecting anything from me.24

We had a talk, he told me i better no get a boyfriend back in canada, i promised i wouldnt. he said how when he first looked at me he liked me, but didnt think he had a chance, we agreed on how shy we were at first, it was like weve known each other for so long.25

I know that he liked me, but him being as drunk as he was, i dont know how much of what he said, was true, when i see him next, ill ask him where he wanted us to go.26