How exactly did I end up here? Was it when I collapsed of loss of blood? Was it when I got 2nd degree burns on my legs? Or was it when teachers saw the rubber bands hit my wrists?1
I dont exactly know whats wrong with what I do. I mean some people talk about their problems, others take certain medicine/pills, and many dont do anything besides whine to everyone. People tend to cry or scream when they see what I do, and I dont know why. Whats so wrong with a razor on your arm? Or some sort of hot metal touch your legs? Whats so wrong with rubber bands slapping my wrists when i dont have the other methods?2
I dont understand why they think this is wrong. I do it all the time and it helps me. The pain in my heart go away and my problems flee. My physical pain eats my emotional pain. Some how it makes everything better. And ever since I started I cant stop. I grew to love the pain and I know theres nothing wrong with this.3
People say I'm crazy and that I'm just causing more pain, but thats my point. It helps. I love the pain. I'm starting to notice I do the rubber bands in public when things go wrong. I use the hot metals when I'm alone and when no one cares or listens to me. And when I take out a razor or a knife. . .things will never be the same again. I just want to die. I want to see my blood pour out of my body! I dont want to stop. . .I dont need help. I'm perfect. I'm not broken. Theres nothing wrong with me. All there is is scars and burns that i made myself. Theres nothing wrong with that! It helps me I know it. Just leave me alone and stay the fuck away. You already put me here. . .but I'm starting to see why you care.4
I remember when you and I watched scary movies where people were tortured and killed. We made fun of the screaming whores and said we'd never like to be in that kind of pain, but now. . .now that I'm here in this hospital bed. Here where I get visted by therapists and councelers. . .I noticed I' am putting myself in that kind of pain, but I cant stop. . .5
Author notes
Umm I think this one is better than my anerexia one, but you guys can be the judge of that.
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- Addiction problems. by try2changeme.
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Is the ending rushed?
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Is that true because I can't really tell but overall amazing
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I thought this was really good it seemed very honest
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This is an amazing write
gets a very strong point across.
Well done!
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Wow
I'm really into this well done XD
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Nah, it's not rushed
This was really good. I enjoyed it at least. A few spelling/grammar mistakes in the last paragraph but apart from that, there's nothing to gripe about with this story. Good job - B-B -
amazing
This is the best thing i have read in a while i love it heaps it is completly my life and the endding is totaly amazing. if i could write anything like u i would be happy so plez write more this is amazing.
Always lana
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I like this one better than the other one...
very good.
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omg i do love this one more then the mirroer one!
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