Trust

The moment I caught his eye I knew. I would need to be careful around him, if I let my guard down, he would get too close, and he would know. And yet I found myself wishing I could tell him, wishing I had someone to confide in about the pain I felt. But I knew that could never be, how could I burden my friends with my heart when they carry enough burdens of their own?1

A friend he might be, but I still couldn't trust him, I couldn't trust any human. If I trust them they'll get too close, and they'll know. I learned my lessons a long time ago, you let them see, and they'll take advantage of you.2

And yet he was gentle, never prying, just being a friend, nothing more, but nothing less. We talked, mostly about superficial things, but sometimes I felt myself opening up. And as we talked I realized that he had the same problem I did, that he was just as reluctant as I was to show his heart. And yet we both wanted the trust of others, ironic I know.3

I have yet to show any human my heart and I'm not sure I ever will. But I appreciate the gentle talks we have, the fact that he never tries to push me into talking about myself. And someday, maybe my friend will be able to trust again, and maybe someday I'll be able to tell him that he deserves my trust, it's just hard for me to give it.4

Author notes

Not the best I've ever done, be harsh. Probably one of the worst, but it was what was on my mind.

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  • Arianna
    December 17, 2003
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    good

    This is very good It shows a bit of two different views. You want to trust someone, but you don't want others to know.
    Edited on Dec 17, 6:54 p.m. because ''.

  • Angel Of Red
    December 12, 2003
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    Actually it was very good. It captures the struggle of the heart, on one side you don;t want to burden others with your troubles and it's hard to trust, but on the other hand there is a want to release your pain and have someone to place your trust. I have the same problem to an extent, I don't really let others into my world, though I trust them with lesser troubles of mine, as do they.


  • November 19, 2003
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    Good description of a universal problem - everyone struggles with not being able to trust at one point or another. Well-written. Keep up the great work!

  • Hobbit Warrior
    November 19, 2003
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    Good. A little vague, perhaps, but definately good. ANd you know you can trust in people, even if we do have problems, we're not that bad of friends.
    *huggs*
    Amanda