Chapter 3 - TOMORROW

Chapter 3 - TOMORROW1

I'm writing this in a very dull light, sitting in bed, waiting for the night to come, waiting for the magic to install, waiting to go to sleep, to get swept away from this world into another, the world of endless possibilities, the dream world. At this point you're all probably asking yourselves why this order?, why present, past, future? It's because I thought that beginning with the past is a cliche, and most of all, I wanted you to first know me, and make contact with the person I'm now, and after that, with who I was. I had to present the past too, cause' even if some of us don't like it, it's a fact that it affects our future, and since the whole series is based on the future, I had to let you people know why am I who I am. I realised something today, I realised that every time I try to go to sleep, I think about what tomorrow will be like, I have a slight idea cause I planned things to do tomorrow, but what I've planned is like a rezume of the day to come, it never really comes close to the truth. You never do what you plan, you start by doing what you planned, and end up doing something totally different. So, why is it that we are unable to do something, really do something, all the way? I mean, I'm not saying that we don't do it eventually, but why not on the spot? Think about it, think about how much energy we are consuming for nonsense, hell even what we think it's important is nonsense, we people are forgetting how to live, we made a mistake once, when Adam ate the apple, and since then we never seem to be on the wright track. We are heading towards a dead end, and unless we do something to change that, there may not be a tomorrow.2

Tupac said once, "I'm not saying that I'm gonna change the world, but I guarantee, that I will spark the mind of the individual, that will change the world". I like to think at myself as that individual, I mean after all he did sparked my mind, he opened doors I never knew existed, I'm just afraid that I may already be too late. Whenever I think that we are already lost, I get terrified, because it means that no matter what we are all doomed. Sometimes I think I'm cursed, am I the only one with this sort of problems, am I the only one who sees it? Sometimes I wish I never knew all this, I wish I never had a mind, I wish I never went that deep, I wish to be normal, to live unaware of what will eventually happen, to be free of this stress.3

I walk alone in the streets, and I can't help to notice happy people, with smiles on their faces, with no worries, I was like that once, I still have my moments of joy, but their getting to be extinct, I feel joy less and less, like a business man will say: "I don't have time for joy", I even know people sinking in mediocrity, and still their happy, I think this people are crippled of the desire, the ambition to be more then yesterday, unfortunately I'm cripple too, I'm deprived of the power to stop, that's probably because I want to stop the wright thing...4

The future freaks me out sometimes, when I try to be just a normal guy, I usually succeed only for a brief period of time, I will be the normal kind of guy, and also the weird kind of guy, the kind which will turn peoples attention from nothing to everything...5

But I seemed to forgot something, that may be vital in succeeding, and that is DOES THE WORLD WANT TO BE CHANGED?6