She's always right

Lynne, got upset at a story that Joseph wrote. They have been separated. Far from each other for weeks/months/years. She detested that he had become gouache, distant and mad.1

Joseph walked in his own world. Free with everything that stemmed around within him. Everything, and anything was at his gaul to his vast emotional whirlwind-and gentle haze. He sent out a story through email, to all his friends. he always loved to send out his poetry and story's-and get response from his most beloved friends. Some of them just placed the emails in the empty boxes-and some read them with awe,pity,disgust,accept,2

love and joy! When they had time off from work. he adored the comments he got back-it strengthen his writing! Especially when they heavily critiqued his work. He was working towards immortality in a quasi dullen mortal world. His desire in his writing stories/poetry lent a mirrored reflection to his life- though as he laid wrapped up in the farthest places in his mind and soul, his writing was a constant critique on the whole world that layed around him.3

Most of the time his work was 1st word without a change, or even a look back to rewrite and such DULL concepts as that. For to rewrite is lazy, and destroys the authenticity of the story/poem/philosophy at/in whole!4

Joseph sent out a story "ALL MEMORIES FADE" some people liked it, some people just said it was gross. Lynne despised it- because she thought it had to do with her, and her beloved KITTIE. It's been 18 years since she lost her KITTIE, that she had for 20 years- and it tore her up. She confided in Joseph while he was on his sabbatical in HOLLYWOOD, 18 years previous and while they were still friends. It tore him up, more then she ever cared to know. he missed his own beloved dog HANZI. He wrote about it in the story as well. For that's all he could do. He was scared, and pained by the memories-and they bonded ever more in her loss. 5

A week after he wrote the story she sent him an email, saying she would sue him if he ever published the story:6

Joseph,7

You have gone to far this time. how DARE! you talk about my cat in one of your messed up stories Not only have you disrespected me but you disrespected my Kitty and you just don't do that. NO ONE talks about her but me....AND YOU MISSED QUOTED ME!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU TOOK SOMETHING SO PERSONAL TO ME AND USED IT IN ONE OF YOUR STORIES!!! IF YOU EVEN THINK OF GETTING THAT PUBLISHED YOU ARE SO WRONG....I WILL SUE YOUR ASS SO FAST IT WON'T EVEN BE FUNNY!!!!!!8

LYNNE.9

Joseph was riddled and raped with anger. " How Dare She?!" he muddled out loud to himself. "I put my entire being into that FUCK-IN PIECE! It was ever more about me, then it was about her. Though the poem was an ode to her, and her KITTIE! A solemn farewell....and now she says she'll sue me. I only thought about this the other day, THINKING TO MYSELF-maybe she would. Now she makes it reality. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, FUCK HER!" Joseph prances back and forth. " She can have the money, I don't care about it anyway. FUCK IT ALL-Fuck everything, I AM DONE!" he gets on line, and sends the story to his publisher. 10

Joseph gathers his things and takes off for his boat. he arrives at the marina. It's about an hour from his house. The boat she is huge, as big as a football field. he has packed it with enough food for 15 years. Which will last him about 5 years, at best. he has enough gas to last him two trips around the world. He jumps aboard, and unties his boat. He sails towards his freedom. He places his boat somewhere off shore by San Diego. he sets his anchor, and takes down his sails. he sits back with his bottle of wind- his stash of heroin-and continues to write to his immortal words as he always does.11

He's been off shore for about six months. No ones really bothered him, no ones really his friend. He sits back, and contemplates life-and all it's grand illusions. he's just got sick of the human race-and all it's selfish shit! He's so better off alone-just like it's tattooed on his arm. 12

"I'm free.." he sings."I'm free-oh I'm so free-no one here to bother me-I've got my loneliness-I've got my pain-nothing but me-my boat-my typewriter-um ya-and open water-ALL I GOT IS ALL I NEED-i need no one, and no one needs me-I"M FREE-in my solidarity confinement-a prisoner of myself-oh ya,oh ya-all alone-THERE'S NO ONE WHO LOVES me-in this great and beautiful world!-but hey I'm free-I'm free-here all alone-oh I'm free-ain't no place I'd rather be-I've got my my time,sins, tears, and the ghosts of memories!-oh I'm free-no WOMEN to make dinner...for!-no women to BUY jewelery-no women to love or annoy-or for me to bother with my sadness and joy:when i look into her eyes- i ain't got that , no- i ain't got that-i just got myself, my typewriter, my boat- and the ocean-oh-I got the ocean-and I'm free-i got my song-my stories-my poems-i got my soul-oh I'm free-DRUNK AND INTOXICATED BY MEMORIES-oh I'm free-I'm free-I'm free-I'M FREE-SO ALONE-so alone-SO alone-just got the ocean, the typewriter, memories and me.......me.......me....!"13

He falls on the floor. He crawls towards the knife that hangs on the shelf in the kitchen. The knife attracts him, even though he becomes repulsed by his own awkward reflection.14

"WHY MUST IT BE LIKE THIS?" Joseph cries out. While he lays on the floor willing like a worm. "This isn't what i wanted. This is why I resolved so long ago- to never to FALL IN LOVE! Love is but only a useless verb!"15

His cell phone begins to vibrate in his pocket. He pulls it out " WHO THE HELL IS THIS? AND WUT DO YOU FLIPPIN WANT?!" 16

"Hey it's me Chuck." says chuck laughing on the phone. "Yer agent and publisher."17

"What do you want- you scum filled puss of a maggots shit?18

"Why do you always need to be so CRASS?" laughs chuck.19

"Well chuck...." laughs Joseph. " Why do you have to be such a fuck?!"20

"I liked you when I first met you"starts chuck21

"And I like you ever less."22

"you were so jolly back then-all this success has changed you." laughs chuck23

" You want me to go back to when I was 30/31? When i was homeless-living outside the Canadian embassy? i was living off the shit-people left on their plates at the NATIONAL ART GALLERY! Now they have cops posted-watching the cafeteria area? So a homeless person can't even get a decent meal while they look at art? Though it's an art all it's own, to take food from the tables." Joseph laughs.24

"And they are charging also-" laughs chuck.25

"Oh the bloody crooks-this whole world is insane!" screams Joseph26

"OK- maybe yer just insane?" laughs chuck.27

"Oh-I wish I was." cries Joseph. "I WISH I WAS!"28

"Well enough with yer pseudo madness...I got a surprise for you!" says Chuck.29

"YES?! Dear?" questions Joseph as he takes a sip of his wine from the bottle. "YES!"30

"Your story about the cat and shit-" starts Chuck31

"Yes?" laughs Joseph. "That piece of melodramatic love shit?!"32

"You were so nice when you didn't drink, do drugs or have money." snarls Chuck. "But I am glad to get payed."33

"Of course you are, you capitalist pig-i have become heartless and cruel-or at least I pretend to be!" laughs Joseph.34

"OK! It got published."35

"Just put the money in my account dictates Joseph, as he hangs up the phone. "CHECKMATE!" Joseph begins to cry. the phone vibrates again. "FUCK YOU!" He picks up his phone, and runs up his cabin stairs, and out to the deck. The sun is shining,-no sign of life beyond the waves crashing into his boat-the seagulls SWOOPING down,bathing and eating fish out of the water-while they themselves are eaten by the sharks swimming by. A whale rests on the waters surface of the water, blowing water out it's hole. she switches to her back-Joseph stands in awe, taking it all in-throws his cell phone at the whale. "FUCK YOU GAWD-FUCK YOU GOD FOR ALL THIS BEAUTY! fuck you god for making me feel-especially for a beautiful women like Lynne!" Just as he gets done screaming, the whale knocked her head into the boat. Joseph was knocked 20 feet down into his cabin-only but an inch from the knives that layed to the side of the kitchen cabinet. "Next time-oh lord- just take me out! you already killed me, when I willed her outta my life.' Joseph began to cry, and hurled his bodie upon his knees. "Oh dearest lord-please forgive me. i open my heart to you- I open up my soul to you-and please I ask you in your son's name JESUS CHRIST- to forgive me." As he was done praying, the knives spilled upon the ground only but an inch from Joseph's feet. "Lord thank you for sparring my life."36

Joseph walks over to his fax machine that lays by his refrigerator. Which is stocked with not but all kinds of SODA. Joseph really loves his POP. He loves his soda pop! He pulls out a sheet of paper and writes:37

CHECKMATE! I guess you got38

me Lynne! I published that 39

story-you hated. NOW SUE ME-40

fuckin sue me. i don't care!41

We are both angry like the42

2 hot headed ITALIANS that43

we are-So sue me, like the44

United States scum Fuck you45

have become- because that's 46

all we do here in the states 47

is sue each other for dumb and48

stupid things!49

I LOVE YOU50

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!51

always yer faithful clown,52

Joseph53

He puts the paper in the fax machine. he enters the number to her fax-at her job. Where he used to work himself. That's how they met 20 years before. 54

'All memories fade, they just make you feel even more alone. Though I have become used to my loneliness!" cries Joseph. He walks over to the cupboard, and pulls out a bottle of 100 hundred year scotch. he reaches into the refrigerator, and pulls out 3 cans of soda. 55

"Ahhh-how I love the great goodness of POP!" Joseph says to himself. " I love grape soda." He takes out his dentures, as he gums down the entire bottle of scotch. He opens each can of soda. He quickly down two of them.-lets out a big, huge belch. He sticks his hands down his pants, pulls out his panties that has been stranded in the crack of his ass for 31 days. he then reaches for the last can of pop. He just casually sips his soda pop. he mainly stares at the fax machine as though it was a lost love- he was afraid to touch it. After 28 hours of starring at it- and while puking into a bucket, that layed at his feet-while he exchanged gulps of soda and rum and whiskey and pop-he began to fall asleep on his feet. he took one last swig of the whiskey bottle "COMPLETELY DRY!" He laughed. he puked loudly into the bucket-pulling out chunks out from his hair,shirt, and pants. He began to stare at the bucket, and realize it was becoming more and more red. 56

"Well I definitely haven't been eating tomatoes- though I did eat a whole pizza. Though that doesn't smell or taste like pizza sauce." he said as he fell head first unto the floor. 'GOOD night Lynne- where ever you are!" His eyes closed, and he layed in fetal position-shaking.57

A few days later, he woke up. there was puke and vile all around him, and on him. His head/nose was bleeding-his heart gave him extraordinary pain. "I should of killed myself when I was sleeping at that bench at the Canadian Embassy. I have everything of value in this wretched world! The best clothes,food,house,computer,TV,and such. WHAT DOES IT GET ME- nothing. I have made myself all alone-cold und bitter! I'm lucky- because iph I had enough energy i find that knife and off myself right now.58

In his his puke,blood,vile and guts-layed a fax that had fallen from the fax machine:59

ATTENTION JOSEPH KINSINSKI:60

THIS IS TO INFORM YOU THAT61

YOU ARE BEING SUED FOR DEFAMATION62

OF CHARACTER OF A MS.LYNNE CHALPSKI!63

OF A STORY YOU WROTE ABOUT HER-AND HER64

BELOVED CAT:KITTIE! PLEASE REPORT FEB. 14th65

AT 8:00 AM- TO THE SAN DIEGO FEDERAL COURT HOUSE.66

AND GET YOURSELF A LAWYER! 67

DICK NAGUD68

"Ya his name suits him-he is a no good puss und scum DICK!" Joseph laughs, as he crumbles the fax up, and wipes his ass with it. "Could I sue them for paper cutz?" He takes out an envelope, and places the sheet of paper-ripped, smelling of his ass and puke. He carefully write the address on the envelope. He walks over to his captains quarters, pulls up the anchor- and head for shore. He begins to laugh and sing "Oh ya my love is suing me, and i don't care- I don't care-I am free- I AM FREE-take my money-send me to prison-I'm already in jail-i don't care-I'm free-I'm free!"69

He reaches San Diego, and pulls into his spot. He walks out of the captains quarters, and goes and ties his boat. He places his dentures back in his mouth that were in his pocket. "Hey what day is it today?" he asks the lady passing.70

"Oh today-it's FEB 13th-and tomorrows my favorite holiday." she says with a squishing delight.71

"Yours and most every other woman! Stupid blinded bleeding hearts" laughs Joseph.72

Well I never- How dare you!" she screams. "you have some nerve! You have some balls-"73

"Well perty lady- i got rid of those in 2004-when i had myself castrated." laughs Joseph74

'You sick dick- you vile THING!" scuffs the lady.75

"I got what you got- I don't have a cock-I completed the process and transsexual operation- waz happy for awhile-then became a drunk- due to my writing, and the loss of my love in my life."76

"She die?" she asked.77

"NO- but she killed me when she wouldn't talk to me anymore! So i wrote a few stories about her- and she didn't talk to me at all anymore."78

laughed Joseph.79

"What kind of stories?" she asked80

'Love stories and poems. Things and words that would just make you cry." he said " I'm Joseph Kinsinski!"81

"The author- oh i love yer work. She extends her hand.82

""Everyone loves my work-and I don't touch people." he says as splatters his puke and vile all over her.83

"EWWWWWWWWWWW....gross!" she screams. As she runs the other way. "I know why she left you-your just nothing but a vile pig phvcker asshole-the title of yer autobiography fits you!" 84

"Thank you!" Joseph smile. "Have a great day."85

"Fuck you pig phvcker!" she says flicking him off.86

"O-it feels great to be loved, what would all these assholes do without me." laughs Joseph. he runs back down stairs into his cabin. He tares off all his clothes, and jumps into his Jacuzzi-and then he takes a shower. He begins to sing " OHHHHHHHHHHH-I'm going to court tomorrow-oh and it's gonna be grand-and be loads of fun!- oh I'm going to court- the law is going to shit on me- and I'll just laugh like a lil school girl- oh I'm going to court- and getting sued- I DON"T CARE- i don't care- um- I DON"T CARE!- um-I don't care-she can have it all- she already stole, and broke my heart." he turns off the shower. he heads off to his bed room. He sets his alarm for 4 Am. Then he jumps into his water bed- it rocks back and forth-until it settles.87

He falls asleep, waking up to the scream of his alarm clock.He gets up, and puts on the tuxedo she picked out for him 20 years earlier. "I'm surprised it still fits-though I doubt she will remember?!" He takes off the tux and he jumps back into the Jacuzzi-then walks out naked into the kitchen and fixes himself some breakfast. He remembered that the floor was still covered in his puke,blood and vile. "MAN! I need a women in my life." He says as he look at his kitchen. "I would clean everything myself-if I had a women to love me and I'd love her in return. I'd give her everything and my heart- oh my gawd- I'd give her everything!" He places towels on the floor after he eats his eggs, Banana and peanut butter and jelly sandwich- it was what he got when he was homeless while he lived on the bench. He also loved that breakfast-especially with some soda, he loved his pop. He was at ease with a can of soda pop! he also made himself some fish.He hasn't eaten fish since he last went out to eat with her. It reminded himself so much of her.Whenever he was around her all he ate was deep fried fish and soda pop! Though he had eaten fish today, for he was going to see his beautiful: LYNNE!88

After he placed blankets over the towels on the floor after he eats. So he wouldn't get all his chunks all over him when he left. he sprinted back into the Jacuzzi, and relaxed till 5:30 AM. Then he jumped out, and took a shower-he always always took 1 hour showers-though never ever really feeling clean. He knew he was crunched on time- he mustn't keep the people and the press/media waiting. He knew the entire thing would just help him sell more books. This in itself was a novel in progress. he never felt so more invigorated and alive. Even though she loathed him, she still found a way to make him happy. He smiled just at the thought of seeing her today. He place his tux on. he got on his pair of American Eagle shoes. Which were kept in a jewel plastic lock box. It was the exact pair she helped him pick out 20 years before. He was more then happy, in knowing he would see her smile sometime in the day.89

Joseph went up his stairs, through the kitchen- and out and up to his upper deck. He rejoiced at the penetrating beauty of the morning. He cawed with the singing sparrows, seagulls,pigeons-and the multitudes of other birds. That sand their hearts out to the sky and sun-as they searched for worms, and ate bread from the people who sat upon the bench's.90

He stopped a passing teenager riding on his skateboard- offered her 6,000 to clean up his boat. The teenager took the offer. And went in and cleaned up the mess. "The young will do anything for money." Joseph laughed.91

He went on to his car, which had a broken mirror-and his radio was stolen. 'Who cares- i guess-I should sue them! That would make me a great UNITED STATES CITIZEN?!" Joseph laughed to himself. 'When the kitchen gets hot, we sue at the drop of a dime-and usually for nothing!" he pulls out his keys, and heads out to the court house.92

When Joseph reaches the court house, there's a line of press- and fans waiting to great him. He pulls up unto the curb-jumps out of his car. "What is someone throwing a party and didn't invite me?" he yells as people run up to him.93

"What do you think of all of this?" asks a reporter.94

"HA-HA-...this is hysterical!" laughs Joseph.95

"Will you give her what she wants?" asks another reporter.96

"No!" laughs Joseph. "but I will give her what she deserves." "after breaking my heart 20 years ago."97

" So you have known her a long time?" asked another reporter.98

"AS I ATTEMPTED TO BE DANTE-SHE LAYED MY BEATRICE!" said Joseph holding back the waterfall of tears.99

"Who's DANTE?" asked a reporter.100

"You should be fired!" Joseph screamed as he shoved the reporter. "Though yer already being chewed and swallowed by Satan-you maggots puss scum! get out of my way- I have a circus to attend."101

"Do you have a lawyer?" screams a reporter.102

"NO-but I got my hands and mouth." Joseph laughs as he walks up the 96 steps to get to the court room. He makes it into the courtroom, and everyone looks at him. Lynne very docile-biting her nails as he walks past.103

"i can't believe you? Why would you disrespect me like that?!" Lynne screams.104

"Dear-It was only a story. I wrote that 20 years ago, when i was homeless thinking of you-missing you! After you broke my heart!"105

"I MADE YA WUT YOU ARE!" She screams.106

"Ya- a bitter 48 year old drunken- drugged up genius -gifted writer. YOU/GOD made me this way! and i suffer everyday without either of you in my life."107

"MR. KINSINSKI?" yells the judge. "YOUR LATE....SIT DOWN"108

"OK yer Honor- I am representing myself!."109

"OK go ahead- COUNCILS approach the bench." says the judge. The councils approach the bench. Mr. Nagud sneers at Joseph, as Joseph lays his eye on Lynne. She timidly look away. "Okay this shouldn't take that long- i have a lunch date at three! So lets gets this underway."110

" Yes yer honor-" says Mr. Dick Nagud.111

"Mr. Nagud will go first." says the judge as Joseph sits down. 112

" Okay we are here today cause Mr. Kinsinski wrote a story about Lynne- who at the time was his friend, and principal love interest. Though they split....' says Mr. Nagud.113

"....Because he was always an arrogant asshole. he cared more about himself and stories/poetry- then he did me!" Screams Lynn looking at Joseph falling to her seat crying.114

"Order! can we get some order in the court! PLEASE!" screams the judge.115

"Ya- I'll have a ham on rye- with some grape sodie pop!" laughs Joseph116

"WHAT WAS THAT MR.KINSINSKI?" calmly says the judge.117

'I Object-I friggin object." says Joesph118

"WHY do you object?" asks the judge.119

"I FREAKING OBJECT!" yells Joseph.120

"OK we heard ya the 1st time. One more time you say 'I OBJECT'- and I will hold YOU in CONTEMPT!" says the Judge.121

"I- I object...because she Lynne has a right to say whatever she wants. And I don't care who or what you think you are- but don't you ever talk to my friend like that- I WILL CUT YOU!" says Joseph.122

"Friend?" screams Lynne. "HA!"123

" Mr. Kinsinski...." starts the judge.124

" I agree." says aloud to Nagud.125

" NO GOOD DICK- shut up you brown noser!" screams Joseph as he turns back to the judge. " I say to your honor- I am sorry and i apologize." 126

"Apology accepted!" says the judge. 127

"Don't believe him your honor- all he does is lie!" screamed Lynne.128

"Mam!" screams the judge-pointing at her- then looks at Joseph. Joseph becomes angry by the judges tone, he begins to snarl like a rabid dog. "Please." Lynne sits down, and puts her head on the table and begins to cry.129

" OK your honor...and jury..and people, media and friends!-this is a blown out circus. This was and is between me and Lynne- nothing to do with the courts and such. SHE CAN HAVE WUTEVER SHE WANTS!" Joseph says as he walks over to his table and grabs a handful of papers. "She can have it all-the house,the novels...the rights to all my plays and movies,the bank accounts,the cars,the yachts-0 i don't care just put me in jail- NO, give me the electric chair. I AM A RAPISTS, I AM A KILLER!" He cries as he throws Down the statement for each. 130

"This is all find and dandy- but i must object by this piece of paper in my hand." says Mr. NAGUD as he interrupts Joseph. Joseph walks over to Mr. Nagud, takes the piece of paper-[laces it down his pants, and wipes his ass with it. Throw it back in the face of Mr. Naugud.131

"The good things never change." says Lynne laughing, and drying her wet eyes.132

"YOU IN CONTEMPT MR.KINSINSKI!" says the judge. 133

"It can only get better Lynne-yer still awesome after all these years."134

says Joseph.135

"I DO WUT I CAN!" Lynne says as she smiles.136

" OH LORD ALMIGHTY! your smile is still beautiful- and so are you!" says Joseph.137

"Thank you." says Lynne continuing to smile.138

" This isn't love connection, your suing him." screams the judge.139

"yes you honor I'm in contempt- I'm in contempt of loving someone who doesn't love me. This beautiful angel-broke my heart when i first met her 20 years ago- and today, today she put it back with her smile." Joseph says as he smiles over to Lynne., and she smiles back. He closes his eyes and takes out a gun out of his pocket.140

"Joseph no!" screams Lynne. "no Joseph stop!"141

"BANG!" laughs Joseph. "It's only a water pistol- a little kids toy."142

"Okay i splay time done?" asked the judge.143

"Yes it is your honor." smiles Joseph-he looks over at Lynne and smiles and waves. He takes a lighter out of his pocket, and lights a cigarette.144

"No smoking in a federal court house!" says the judge.145

"And sadly no 10 commandants in front or in federal buildings? But we can't everything can we we when we defile things that don't belong to us!" laughs Joseph. he takes out the squirt gun again "BANG, BANG!" he says as he squirts himself more in the head.146

'bailiff take away his cigarette" demands the judge. the bailiff walks towards Joseph. He takes a puff of the cigarette. 147

" I never understood why my dad smoked this crap!" He puts the lit cigarette out in his eye.148

"Joseph no-NO!" screams Lynne.149

""I do what I can." smiles Joseph. He takes the lighter, and squirts his gun towards the bailiff. "Just trying to save you-kid!" He squirts his head one more time- and places the lighter to his ear.It goes up in flames. Joseph pulls out his ear and throw it on Lynne's table. Some pulls out the fire extinguisher, puts out Josephs face.150

"I walked right into the flame, LYNNE- i walked right into the flames!" cried Joseph151

"I saw ya dear." said Lynne as she walked over to Joseph and kneeled at his side. She reached for his hand, their hands inter lock. "I saw- and I'm here."152

"What did ya say? I couldn't hear ya!" sobbingly laughed Joseph.153

"Oh you never change." says Lynne.154

"I do what I can-I DO WHAT I CAN!" laughs Joseph. "that's what you always used to say. i don't regret that story!"155

" i know you don't ya arrogant bastard!" laughs Lynne. "it did hurt. then i realized u put alot of stuff about yer self that i knew you told me." 156

"But i never meant to hurt you-" Joseph cried.157

"i know!" cried Lynne." yer just a big stupid writer."158

""No- a dumb writer!" laughs Joseph. " stupid would qualify me for intelligent!I lost that when I lost yer smile!"159

""oh yer smart- you never give yer self enough credit-and yer to hard on yer self!" sternly says Lynne.160

"and don't forget as you once boldly put it that i am naive!" Joseph says as they both giggle.161

"Yes you are! cries Lynne. "yes you are!"162

"OK! Is this stupid melodrama over?" asked the judge.163

""Yes yer honor! This depraved circus is over. She has everything- and still she holds my heart!" Joseph says as he squeezes her hand tightly.164

"I'll only take a few things." she laughs. "Did we really go through all of this?"165

"YES! Though it was all my fault." sincerely laughs Joseph. "It was all my fault-though yer still the prettiest women i have ever layed one eye ball on."166

"I do what I can." Lynne says as she picks his head up, places it on his knee- and kisses his forehead and the lips. "Now you can die a happy man!"167

" I will with you loving me!" 168

"Maybe if yer lucky!" she snorts.169

"OKAY-OKAY- after you go to the hospital Mr.Kinsinski! you will spend some time in the mental ward. Then one year in the brink, for CONTEMPT of COURT!" shrieks the judge.170

"OKAY?YA! WUTEVER!" laughs Joseph while looking at Lynne. "YER AN ANGEL!"171

"Oh stop Joseph." blushes Lynne. Your embarrassing me."172

"I do what I can!" laughs Joseph. "Oh your awesome!"173

"It can only get better." says Lynne. "Amen! Praise the Lord."174

"Can I ever say that?" asks Joseph.175

"NO! It's me and the grrls thing- you have MUCK,MUCK,MUCK..with them! And we have Praise the Lord!" she laughs.176

"True!" says Joseph. " ....and we have the ducks...i have gone there at least once a year to feed those ducks- where they maybe different ducks now- but I go back to Sandusky to feed them-and think of you!"177

"That is so sweet!" cries Lynne." ..that is so sweet!"178

"I realize after all this mess dear-" starts Joseph179

"Yes Hun?!" says Lynne wide eyed.180

"I should've just changed the cat into a dog or hamster..."181

"That would've been OK!" she laughs182

"Changed the email around-and you wouldn't of been so mad at me."183

"TRUE....but i would've found a reason to get mad at you. i was mad at you for coming between me and Marie- and the way you started to hurt yer self!" laughs Lynne.184

"And I was mad you for breaking my heart, and acting like you didn't give a shit."185

You are so different- you know that!" she says smiling her angelic smile.186

"I do what I can." laughs Joseph as he closes his eyes resting his head between her knee and thigh.