A Cry For Attention (00) ----->> True Blue Emotions are Exploited

I stared up at the off white colored ceiling and I cried. I didnt know why I was crying, I just was. I've been crying for some time now too. Maybe it was the fact that my mom is gone, and never to return. Maybe it is because I dont know my real dad. Maybe its because my friends are all out hanging out and im stuck in this stuffy house babysitting. Maybe its because I am confused about Johnny and Brendon. Or maybe im just pmsing. That could be a possibility.1

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The house phone started to ring. I didnt move a muscle. The machine will get it. The phone rang non stop..then it finally stoped.3


 "Heidi..please pick up the phone.." Johnnys voice boomed through the answering machine and into my ear.4


"Okay..maybe you arnt home..but if you are and your laying on your bed staring at the ceiling I really need you to listen to me.."5

"I need you to come over here righ tnow, or whenever you get back, and help me...i dont care if your not back in an hour I need you..it sounds weird but I really need to see you. I dont care about Brendon or your dad or whoever hates my guts, I lov- I need to see you...give me a call or just head on over.please...bye."6


I heard the beep of the answering machine and sighed. He needed to see me?7

I rolled out of bed and threw on a pair of Jeans and my RidgeView High Cheerleading sweatshirt. 8


"Where are you going?" Kyle asked looking up from his video game.9

"To visit a friend..just stay here and dont do anything stupid."10

I ran outside and remembered, dad had the car. So I ran. I ran up the streat and down Maple. His house was the first on the right. I rang the door bell, no answer.11


Crap.12


I opened the door and walked in. The scent of smoke and beer filled the air.13


I took a wiff and squished up my face.14

"Johnny?"15


Stomping came from upstairs and smashing of a bottle. I ran upstairs and opened Johnnys room. He was lying on his back streached out on the ground. I walked over to him and knelt down beside him.16


"Johnny?" 17


His eyes opened and he grinned. "I knew you would come."18

He sat up and put his hand to his head.19

"I missed you Heiiiiiiidddiiii." He slurred his words. Drunk. High. Or a combanation of both.20

"Johnny, what did you do to yourself." I layed his head on my lap and he looked up at me with his sick-looking green eyes. The ones in which I melted when he first looked my way. The ones I stared into when I was 15 and 16 on those nights he took me to a drive in. Those same pleading eyes..I fell out of love with.21

"Im sorry.." His eyes misted over and one small tear fell onto his cheek.22

I shook my head. "Why?"23

He wiped the tear away with his hand.24

"For being such a bad boyfriend to you...for getting drunk and high and being so stupid!" 25

I shook my head and layed down next to him.26

"You wernt a bad boyfriend, I just wasnt ready for a serious relationship..and you arnt stupid..you are just confused."27

He looked at me. "I love you..soo much Heidi, you dont even know."28

I smiled and nodded. "I do know Johnny."29


He began to cry and this time I didnt hold back, I cried right along with him.
 My eyes fluttered open to the sound of my phone buzzing in the pocket of my jeans. I reached for it and flipped it open.30

Brendon: Where are you?! Your mom and dad are freaking out!31

My heart started to race as I looked around the room I was in. Johnnys. But instead of being on the floor like I remember, I was in his bed. Alone.
 "Johnny?" I yelled at the top of my lungs. The bedroom door burst open and Johnny ran to my side. His eyes looked normal and he had a half-eaten blueberry poptart in his hand.32

"What's wrong?"
 I flashed him the text and his eyes widened. "What are you going to do?" He took a fairly large bite of the poptart and crums flew everywhere. I groaned and sat up. "I'm going home."
 Johnny put his hand on my shoulder and stared at me. "I didn't call you over here to do anything, I promise. I needed you."33

I smiled at him and nodded. "I know, and now it's time for me to leave. You don't need me any longer."34

Johnny's eyes squinted and he sighed. "What are you, Nanny Mcphee?"
 I rolled my eyes and slipped on my shoes. "Goodbye."35

Heidi: i'm on my way home.36

Brendon: Where were you?37

Heidi: it's not important.38

Brendon: You were with Johnny wern't you?39

Heidi: i'll talk to you later, okay?40

Brendon: Don't bother41

 I groaned and ran back to my house. I let out a breath and opened the front door.
 "Heidi!" My mom screamed and ran to me. She took ahold of my shoulders and started to violently shake them. "Where have you been! We have been worried sick about you!"
 I struggled out of mom's grip. "I was helping a friend through a hard time! Chill out, mom!"
 My mom stared at me and she sighed. "I'm not going to ask you anymore questions because I know you wont tell me anymore than you already have. Don't ever do that to me again, you understand?"
 I nodded and watched as she walked shakily back into the kitchen. "Oh, and Brendon called. He's been calling off and on for the past 10 hours. Call him back."
 I really didn't want to explain myself to Brendon right now. I slumped up the stairs and opened the door to my bedroom. My heart rate quickened and I blinked a couple of times.42

"Hey." Brendons voice was soft, hurt. I walked over to my bed and sat down. "I was worried about you. When you told me you were heading home I thought to myself, you need to talk to her. So here I am." He sighed and walked over to me.43

"I was at Johnnys."44

Brendons eyes closed and his jaw clentched. "All night."45

I nodded even though he wasn't looking at me. "But nothing happened. He called me lastnight and was drunk so I went over there to help him and I must have fallen asleep."
 Brendon shook his head. "I don't want to share you, Heidi."
 I nodded and stood up. "I don't want you to have to."
 He looked down at me and sighed. "So who is it going to be, me or Johnny?"
 I averted my eyes from him for only a moment and then looked back up at his handsome face. His jaw was still clentched and his eyes were full of pain and curiousity. "You."46

A smile broke out onto Brendon's face and he wrapped his arms around my waist. His smile faded and he looked into my eyes. "Are you sure?"
 I nodded and stood up on my tippy toes so we were eye to eye. "I'm positive."
 We kissed.47