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my plane~1

I never really had a reason to live before you, you weren’t my lover, you weren’t my boy friend, you weren’t anything but my best friend. 2

You were my everything though, and you meant the world to me. 3

I few months ago, I thought you died, and I wanted to die to. But then I later found out that you didn’t go through with it, and I made a promise to you, and myself that if you ever killed yourself, that I would kill myself too. 4

Promises usually don’t mean much to me, because you taught me once, that promises are comfort to fools. And I have to say that this is the first promise that I have ever kept. 5

This is mainly a good bye letter, good bye to the world. This is also an apology letter. I want to say sorry that I wasn’t a better person, a better friend, a better daughter, a better girl friend, a better student… a better anything.6

Even if you are not dead, I have relived the world of a mistake. 7

Now that I think of my actions, I think that maybe I am just using you as an excuse. A reason to end my horrible excuse of a life. 8

What ever it is, it doesn’t really matter. 9

Will you tell my mother that I am sorry, and I love her. Will you tell Eann that I am sorry that I wasn’t perfect. Tell all my friends that I love them. And can you tell Chris that h really was my best friend. 10

You may think that I am taking the easy way out, that this is my way of getting away from it all, and you may be right, but I need this.11

Good bye. 12

Catherine N. Anastasia13