The View from Dirty Glass

I feel as if I should write something sincere and heart wrenching. Something that would bring my reader to tears. Something that would change the way my reader sees the world. Something amazing just from a small spur of the moment of seeing something like a bird or crushed can. To the world of arrogant idiots who think they can do anything in the world, it would seem to be an easy task, like breathing.1

But is it really?2

Can you read any badly written story and burst into tears? If it were, wouldn’t anybody who read even a nursery rhyme just burst into tears, for no good reason?3

No, they wouldn’t.4

So, I ask you, reader, why do I keep on trying? Why do I keep on trying to reach for something that is too far out of reach? Why do I keep stretching myself beyond my boundaries to achieve something I know I never will? Why don’t I just give up and be like I should: depressed, faithless, and have nothing to be proud of?5

Because I can’t.6

It is like giving an addict heroin: he cannot get enough of it. Even if he tries to stop, he’s still pushing that needle up his vein to give his body the one thing it loves. If you try to make me stop from writing, to lock me up and throw out the keys, I will still dream. I will write into my memory, so that if you opened my brain, they would still be there, plain as the eye can see.7

I hold so much in my hands to bring someone to their hands knees. So why don’t I? Is there some hidden talent inside me that has yet to be found, some talent to weave words in the ways I’ve always wanted to?8

We may never know.9

But, to have someone see the life I’ve lived and see the way I see life, they would be horrified by such events, that such things would happen outside of their vain, little bubble.10

If I were to write this sincere and heart wrenching story, I would summarize it as being like the view from dirty glass. So, my friend and reader, when you write your own story of what life is like for you, remember that when you look through dirty glass, you have to look in between the smudges and dirt.