A Page From My Journal

I feel so betrayed.1

Shayna* keeps telling me that I should brake up with my boyfriend.2

She says that I am in over my head with him because, of his kids.3

I knew that he had kids when I got together with him and if I did not love him and the kids, trust me I would not be here. Grrr!4

Shayna acts like I should leave *Walter and brake all ties with my friends just to please her, as if she is the only one that I am allowed to speak to?5

I have tried talking to her and explaining that she is making me mad with her words.  You would think that she would be happy that I finally found someone that makes me happy? In her case, I guess I was wrong.6

She also gets mad when I start to talk about the problems in my life and yet, I listen to her problems and things, so why can't she listen to mine? I have no clue, I wish that someone could explain it to me!7

Walter has even tried talking to her and so have some of my friends.8

I have even tried changing the subject, but she keeps bringing it up and on top of that, she calls my Mom's house and she knows that I don't live there.  I have not for 2 years now.9

My Mom is getting mad at her for it too, I was surprised when she told her off.10

She told Shayna that she likes Walter and that she sees the love he has for me also, that she thinks that we will one day get married. I hope so too!11

Everyone I have talked to has told me that I am doing nothing wrong by not talking to Shayna. For the most part besides her betrayal, she has called here after she was asked not to.12

One day she called 9 times within 20 minutes.13

I can't take it anymore!!14

A friend here on AP suggested that I write down the names of all the people in my life and then decide if they are a positive or negative influence in my life. +{positive} -{negative}, and ={the ones that I fight with sometimes but we manage to work stuff out}.15

So I did that the other day, and as far as I can see, Shayna is negative and unless she can change her depressing/negative ways, I don't need her.16

This is not the only time that she has hurt me, she has done many things in the past and then done nothing but deny her actions.17