This is now, this is real.

We danced to beats I haven't heard in a long time. She turned her head and a smile formed across her beautiful face. I haven't felt this alive since the day I was born. The music grows louder, the beating of my heart thumps harder. The lights are flashing, this moment feels everlasting. I know this isn't perfect. I know this moment is not forever. I know we're just for today, for tomorrow. But this is life,this is it. It's living. It's taking your bruises with pride, waiting for them to fade. It's about giving your heart a chance to breathe in the outside world. It's about giving your lips into temptation. It's the whole yearning for love, and dreaming of life beyond what your doing now. I hear the music, and it's my story. It's growing, it slows down, it becomes dark. Then, it starts to quicken it's pace, it becomes louder and louder. It's exciting, it's exhilarating. It makes you feel. It makes your feel so intense, it's erotic. 1

Should I? I want too. I've been thinking about it all night. Her pixie hair covers her forehead, I move it back. "Heart shaped face", she smiles. We light our cigarettes. Our friend talks, but I don't know what he is saying. I'm listening to her. Her voice. I'm not in love, no, it's not that. I look at her, I see change. I see something new. I know it might not last, but this is what I'm here for. I'm here because I'm taking this moment, I took this chance. 2

I have my arm around her waist. She turns her head away, I kiss the side of her forehead, she turns back and smiles. She kisses my forehead. We're looking at each other, we lean in, and we kiss. She kisses like me. Slow, soft, sensual. There weren't fireworks, no. There was something else. I got lost. My cigarette's glow went out. How long had it happened? I don't know. The rest of the night was a blur.3

All I know is, I had the best night of my life. The best I've had in a long while. 4