Why? (A once upon a time Question) {For a once upon a not anymore friend}

Why can’t we still be friends?
Why can’t we try anymore?
Why did we let this distance become more than we could bear?
Why do I still say we when what I meant to say was me?
Why can’t I stop needing you?
Why does it make me want to cry?
Why do I feel as though a part of me died all those moons ago?
Why can’t I forget you?
Why can’t I forgive you?
Why is it that my friends now whom I love will never replace you?
Why did I tell you all my secrets and they know not even one?
Why did I tell you my secret the secret I still keep?
Why am I writing this when I know you’ll never read it?
Why do I wish I could tell you but when I saw you I never could?
Why do I want to die sometimes?
Why do I like this pain?
Why can’t I make the aching stop?
Why do I need you to talk?
Why can’t I stop this self-destructive path I’m on?
Why do I miss you when I want to hate you?
Why do I need your words?
Why do I want your lies, excuses and random thoughts?
Why can’t I trust my friends?
Why do I hide myself from them even though their all I have?
Why do I want my old friend back?
Why can’t I have my Air, my Kat?
Why can’t I stop doing this?
Why do I always make the move and feel the crush?
Why do I try when you never do?
Why should I care when you never did?
Why were you my BFF and I just another one of the gang?
Why are you the only person from Pine-fucking-crest that I even think about from time to time?
Why do I know that the person you are isn’t the person you where, aren’t the person I need?
Why do I even need a true friend?
Why can’t I live alone in a world full of people?
Why do I never cry anymore?